grimozorg

[grimozorg]

its quite easy, just starve yourself

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i wish i was dead, i wish i looked dead, i wish i stopped breathing, i wish i didn't feel anything, i wish i never existed, i wish i didn't have skin, i wish people listened to me, i wish people didn't like me, i wish i felt loved, i wish i didn't think, i wish i wasn't pretty, i wish i was normal, i wish i had it worse, i wish i was alone, i wish i was with somebody, i wish i could stop crying, i wish i didn't scream, i wish i wasn't weak, i wish people didn't tell me i am strong, i wish all my vital organs were gone, i wish i could sleep, i wish i could be thankful, i wish i liked my life, i wish my mom didn't worry about me, i wish i could run away, i wish someone could kill me, i wish i could kill myself, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead

[grimozorg]

im so tired, i don't have any motivation for anything, i feel hopeless

i think i might do it soon, i will wait for after christmas, i don't wanna ruin everything for my family, but after that im gonna jump into the ocean and just let the waves take me

[grimozorg]

my period came today, it hurts, like, im not bleeding alot, but, ow, hurts

makes me crave alot of sweets tho, but its okay, my blindness to liquid cals will help me thru my cravings, i will just allow myself to have a little more iced coffee and i won't even feel horrible about myself

[grimozorg]

hate, hate, hate, hate, hate life

i honestly wish i was dead, i binged so much today, i keep binging, don't know how to stop

[grimozorg]

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height: 176cm

cw:52.8, lw:52, gw:50, ugw:45

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i got social and general anxiety, bpd and avpd, also might get an ocd diagnosis

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im gonna vent and stuff on here, i suffer from disordered eating, suicidal thoughts and other selfharm, i support recovery

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[grimozorg]

so scared of eating today, i keep getting images of bugs and mold in various foods when i start thinking about eating

im getting quite hungry too, and i don't know what to do cause i forgot my water bottle at home

[grimozorg]

i think i might relapse, or maybe just go kill myself

[grimozorg]

i need friends, we could talk about anything, really really

please please message mee, im too scared to start conversations

[grimozorg]

i took a bath, i feel kinda pretty now

i wonder how long me feeling pure and lovely will last, probably until the next time i eat