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Excited for our little BOY this november. ❤️

baby boy blue 💙⛅️

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Covid wedding. 👰🏻

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Im really impressed! Tumblr is the online platform that has made an effort regarding this issue. Kudos Mr. D'Onofrio!

A better, more positive Tumblr

Since its founding in 2007, Tumblr has always been a place for wide open, creative self-expression at the heart of community and culture. To borrow from our founder David Karp, we’re proud to have inspired a generation of artists, writers, creators, curators, and crusaders to redefine our culture and to help empower individuality.

Over the past several months, and inspired by our storied past, we’ve given serious thought to who we want to be to our community moving forward and have been hard at work laying the foundation for a better Tumblr. We’ve realized that in order to continue to fulfill our promise and place in culture, especially as it evolves, we must change. Some of that change began with fostering more constructive dialogue among our community members. Today, we’re taking another step by no longer allowing adult content, including explicit sexual content and nudity (with some exceptions).  

Let’s first be unequivocal about something that should not be confused with today’s policy change: posting anything that is harmful to minors, including child pornography, is abhorrent and has no place in our community. We’ve always had and always will have a zero tolerance policy for this type of content. To this end, we continuously invest in the enforcement of this policy, including industry-standard machine monitoring, a growing team of human moderators, and user tools that make it easy to report abuse. We also closely partner with the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children and the Internet Watch Foundation, two invaluable organizations at the forefront of protecting our children from abuse, and through these partnerships we report violations of this policy to law enforcement authorities. We can never prevent all bad actors from attempting to abuse our platform, but we make it our highest priority to keep the community as safe as possible.

So what is changing?

Posts that contain adult content will no longer be allowed on Tumblr, and we’ve updated our Community Guidelines to reflect this policy change. We recognize Tumblr is also a place to speak freely about topics like art, sex positivity, your relationships, your sexuality, and your personal journey. We want to make sure that we continue to foster this type of diversity of expression in the community, so our new policy strives to strike a balance.

Why are we doing this?

It is our continued, humble aspiration that Tumblr be a safe place for creative expression, self-discovery, and a deep sense of community. As Tumblr continues to grow and evolve, and our understanding of our impact on our world becomes clearer, we have a responsibility to consider that impact across different age groups, demographics, cultures, and mindsets. We spent considerable time weighing the pros and cons of expression in the community that includes adult content. In doing so, it became clear that without this content we have the opportunity to create a place where more people feel comfortable expressing themselves.

Bottom line: There are no shortage of sites on the internet that feature adult content. We will leave it to them and focus our efforts on creating the most welcoming environment possible for our community.

So what’s next?

Starting December 17, 2018, we will begin enforcing this new policy. Community members with content that is no longer permitted on Tumblr will get a heads up from us in advance and steps they can take to appeal or preserve their content outside the community if they so choose. All changes won’t happen overnight as something of this complexity takes time.

Another thing, filtering this type of content versus say, a political protest with nudity or the statue of David, is not simple at scale. We’re relying on automated tools to identify adult content and humans to help train and keep our systems in check. We know there will be mistakes, but we’ve done our best to create and enforce a policy that acknowledges the breadth of expression we see in the community.

Most importantly, we’re going to be as transparent as possible with you about the decisions we’re making and resources available to you, including more detailed information, product enhancements, and more content moderators to interface directly with the community and content.

Like you, we love Tumblr and what it’s come to mean for millions of people around the world. Our actions are out of love and hope for our community. We won’t always get this right, especially in the beginning, but we are determined to make your experience a positive one.

Jeff D’Onofrio CEO

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MD together. 💕

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So I ended up loving Mr. Insensitive

My posts are clearly outdated. Truth be told, I even forgot I had a tumblr account and this app just sits on my ipad consuming memory space for nothing. I only returned opening it when my boyfriend browsed through my ipad and asked me what tumblr was. Yes, you read it right. I have a boyfriend. For 7 long years of staying single and very much available, I finally have someone I officially call “my dear”. He’s pretty special for me, and ours started out as a whirlwind love affair. So my previous posts talked about someone breaking my heart into a million pieces. I even went as far as describing our private moments and screen captured our chat convos because I missed him terribly. To cut the story short, R, the Mr. Insensitive, is now my boyfriend. How did it happened? I honestly dont know exactly how, but I do know from the start we already had that tension between us - just waiting to happen.

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Are you really sorry for what you've done??

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Don't try to come back. There's nothing left for you here anymore.

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I love you is not a word you say to someone and not mean it. Only worthless people do that.

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Your lies that break my bones into a million pieces.

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I will learn each and every day how to erase you from my memory. And that day will come where I'll say "I remember the boy, but I can't remember the feeling anymore".

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Moving On I

Just like to let you know that you can also lose me too. Go ahead and continue dreaming about her. Go ahead and pursue her. Go ahead and give her your heart. Cause I don't want it anyway, not anymore. I refuse to hold on to something that doesn't want to be mine in the first place. I don't want to be with you anymore. I don't want to chase after something that's not worth my time. You are not what I have hoped for. You are just another mistake. I am happy. I am beautiful. I am pretty. I am funny. I am intelligent. I am exciting. I am adventurous. I am everything you can never have. And someday, someone's going to come and love me the way I wanted you to love me. Someday, I will be happy with that someone who loves me.

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Stop It.

I’ve learned that I will have to forgive myself if I’ll fall.

What we had wasn’t built overnight. It was something that took most of our second and third bimonthlies. We invested emotions, time, effort, money, intellect, hope on each other. And so I have to make myself understand that it’s okay if I’ll fail. Just as long as I try harder the next time around.

I should forgive myself for missing you. Because the most painful thing I am going through right now next to missing you terribly is hating myself for missing you. I feel worthless, week, undeserving, all because I can’t stop myself from missing you. I’m a mess inside because I miss you and myself is kicking me in the butt because I shouldn’t.

I know I should stop all these all together. I should stop looking at our past conversations. I should stop checking every post she’s made to see if you’ve liked it. I should stop staring at your picture in my iPad. I should stop thinking of the times we were together. I should stop remembering how it felt like when we kissed. When we held hands. When we hugged. I should stop loving you so badly…

But how can I when it’s the only thing I've ever known for months? ….

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But 2015 will give me a new slate in life. This year, I've decided to erase you from my life. Because I've finally realized na isa ka pa lang pa-asa. You just made me fall for you to get what you want. Now even if I may have made the wrong decission of trusting you, I know I can stand up from this mistake and get back on track. Starting with unfollowing you in FB, I will remind my self every minute of every day that you just used me. You don't really care about my feelings. You're the worse kind out there. Loving you was a mistake. Giving, entrusting my heart to you was a huge mistake. You don't deserve to be loved by anyone.

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I like you too much it scares me

My mind keeps telling me that you are just too good to be true. That your smooth talk is indeed suspicious. That I should consider your long roster of past lovers before I decide to be a part of it. You are not what you appear to be. Or what you say you are. I know that. A part of me knows that too well… But there is also a side of me who’s swept by your words and is stupid enough to believe that you're worth it...

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When I Close My Eyes

Whenever I close my eyes, I can still feel it. I can feel you. Inside me. Taking me to the verge of explosion.

I can feel your passionate kiss. Your lips owning mine. Taking me captive of all the feelings I have for you for so long. I can feel your hands caressing me. Exploring me in places no one has ever been. My skin heating upon your heated skin.

I remember how you unbutton my shirt, unhooked my bra. And million other things rushed inside my head. But one thing is for sure, I know in that moment that you want me the way I want you.

Your lips found its way to my erected nipples. That carnal sensation it gives whenever you suck me in. It still lingers in the most glorious of ways. You rub against my bossom with your hands I can never resist. I surrender all my inhibitions and doubts as you take me higher with every tease.

When I close my eyes I can feel your kisses all over my body. Your lips in my hips, my stomach, all over my back. I pray every moment as your lips own my entire body that you won’t stop. Because your kisses bring out all the unleashed desires I have for you.

And then you reach for the zippers in my pants. And slowly you unzipp them. I feel more and more vulnerable to you. I wanted to stop you. But at the same time, I wished you won’t stop. Soon enough I’m all naked under you. You paused for a while to adore my bare skin. And I felt my cheeks burn. You kissed my thighs, your lips slowly making its way to my already wet organ. Then finally, I felt your tongue licking my clitoris. And I will never forget how amazing it felt. You sucked and kissed me like an animal hungry for my juice. I moan in glorious pleasure while you continue your pleasurable exploit.

Then you lowered yourself into me, sweetly kissed me and then I felt it. That familiar feeling of being invaded. I felt you slowly getting inside me. It was so much painful, but I loved you, so I pushed aside the pain and focused on you being inside me.

The rhythm finally erased the pain and replaced it with pure pleasure. You kept coming in, going out. Your heavy breathing and intermitent moans. You quickly made me turn against my back. And then you entered from behind me, with much faster speed. Your moan matched my moaning. Our breaths becoming heavy. And finally, I exploded into a million pieces, with you following me. We bathed in the glory of our own little space of ecstasy. Nothing ever mattered in that instant. Just you and me, flesh against flesh.

And then I open my eyes. You are not here… I wonder how long it will take for you to find me.

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Please come home soon

You told me you love me. So why can’t we be together? Why make this complicated? Why must we continue all this drama? Why do I have to wait for you to man up? Why are you hesitating? What’s holding you back? What are you afraid of? Why did you even make me fall for you when you're not yet ready to catch me? How do I make you understand that I love you enough to embrace everything about you? When will you accept my feelings for you? Why am I the only one missing you…

*sigh* 😔

It sucks to miss you so badly, R. Because I know no matter how much I’ll miss you, it will never change anything. But I’d still like to admit to myself that I terribly miss you. Everything about you. Your eyes. Your hands. Your smile. Your scent. Your voice. Your hair. Your arms. Your corny jokes. Your laugh. Your lips… I miss lying next to you. Laying my head against your chest and falling asleep while listening to your heartbeat. I miss waking up to your embrace. I miss your kisses all over my body. I miss your hug. I miss laughing with you. I miss how you said “i love you”… I wonder if you meant it.

I can remember when we danced.

I can feel your touch when I close my eyes and think of you.

Why must we be like this my dear?

I wish you know that this entire time that I am not talking to you, it takes everything in me not to. Every minute I find myself waiting for a message from you. Wanting to call you. And everytime I don’t, i hope you know I almost do…

My dear… Please come to me soon. I’m afraid this silence we’re going through right now might take a toll on me and these feelings of longingness be changed into frustrations. I don’t want to end up hating you. I don’t want to get disappointed. I just want to love you and live each day showing you that. How long must I wait for you, my dear? How long must I endure this feeling of loneliness? How long must I pretend that I am okay with us not talking to each other? How long must I keep myself from telling you how much I miss you? Because I think I can’t take another day not hearing your voice.

I miss you so much my dear… I really do. 😢