gopherfeather

[gopherfeather]

Befuddle

[gopherfeather]

Sat beside you,

like a man in a coffin.

Laborious and stiff,

happy of his end.

I look at you,

blurry memories rush in my brain. 

Maybe it's the booze talking. 

I am looking at you,

you're looking at everything other than me.

A dream come true. 

Like a feast for my eyes.

Basking in your beauty,

I won't regret it if I don't make it out of here alive.

Same eyes, just a bit more tired.

Same smile, but a bit more faded.

Same heart, but a bit more fragile.

Same lips, but a bit more pale. 

Same old drink but a bit more to drink. 

Your rosy self, getting dark like dusk of winter.

Pink and crisp.

Nostalgically beautiful but torturous.

Soothing yet sending strings of pain on my old wounds. 

Plump lips, I die to know the taste of still. 

Looking outside at the pouring rain,

like a devotee. 

You hear me loud and clear,

but I can't understand the lies you're mumbling.

Silence lies between us like a child between his parents.

Comfortable and safe.

Nurturing and selfless.

What did you do to me?  

Made me so drunk on you,

that after you;

I left no alcohol untasted.

Hoping to be something similar to you,

even when I don't know what you were like?

A sober turned drunk under the misery of beauty. 

Oh, you have always been beautiful,

unaware.

What I see in you,

is more than your face.

It's your mind that I always wanted to win.

Like afternoon sun rays, 

you were sharp on your edges.

Asking questions all the time,

some sensitive other gibberish. 

Gobbling and hobbling to fit in.

Reading almost anything,

smiling for everything. 

Waving your innocence with intelligence.

Like a ghost with ego,

you walked out. 

Just like that.

Leaving me craving and panting.

Lost and curious to know,

about what you were thinking every day. 

Did I drive you away? 

Did I imagine you as someone you weren't? 

What have you done to me?  

Can't live without knowing about you,

can't die until you command me to. 

Out of my high, 

I saw you jump off your seat

next to me and walk out of this bar.

And here goes another day, 

when I decided to not remember you;

but almost said your name

to someone who looked like you.  

Imagining it was you sitting next to me again.  

-Heerie

[gopherfeather]

//Kill your darlings//

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