gonurd

[gonurd]

“Write each of your poems, tersely, mercilessly, with blood– as if it were your last.”

— Blaga Dimitrova, from ‘Ars Poetica’ featured in Scars (translated by Ludmilla G. Popova-Wightman)

[gonurd]

Adam and eve's leaves

I believe there was a adam and eve But i have a different idea On the forbidden tree Instead of a fruit it bared leaves That let out a scent Too good to believe “I dont want to leave” Shouted eve The scent pulled them in As if it had gaven them wings And the snake with his peer-pressure Didnt make it any better Sat on adams shoulder As he made him a professional roller “You heard of stone, Let me introduce to the life of a stoner” Said the devil in his corner “Ill smoke it with you, So you wont be a loner” Even Eve telling him to join her And as he made the fire Then the smoke accumulated higher They felt so high they learned how to fly Saw they were naked Then became shy Later gave them a hunger To make forbidden fruit pie Forbidden to be free all thanks to a tree That gave adam the balls to conceive with eve Thats when god asked them to leave For smoking from the forbidden leaves The devil couldnt have been more pleased As he smiled God took away his knees, Told him it all your fault For creating weed ….

[gonurd]

If she's not fucking you there's someone new

-oG_gO

[gonurd]

Tragedy

I can see shit change little by little

I know when I’m not wanted

Yet u keep me over your shoulder

Like a ghost just haunted

While u drink and get high all night

With a whole other man

I’m not supposed to fight, I’m just supposed to understand

Cause if I question you about it

Your on defense

as if we was throwing hands

I’ve tried to make plans,

You make up excuses.

Treat me like a nuisance.

See what’s crazy is

I don’t ever stress u out

never have I ever

Not even when I let u go to a whole other state and turn off your phone

Drugs and drinking god knows what I was thinking.

But as you would say that’s the past

So why bring up all the things I did bad

I don’t beat you with your past

I try to make this last

For my 2 sons I’ve raised with you

But when I say your distant

That’s not saying nothing bad too

I haven’t gotten to sit down and watch a movie like we used to

haven’t seen u

be on your shit like you used to

I love you

it hurts me to see another man making you laugh

While I’m out all day getting the cash cause let’s face it

I been work my off my ass

It’s not too much to ask

that u sleep with me in our bed ,instead

You sleeping on his air bed

And now you telling me not to cum in u when the fuck did that for come

I’m on my high horse and that moment became the fall

Your basically telling me you done trying

Caught myself balling out crying

Cause I can feel the pushing away

Either You don’t want to have a kid with me

Or give me the time of day

Try to kiss you

Then you get pissed

Trying to sit next to you,

asking why I wanna be next to you

I don’t know

may be because I’ve been working all week

when I want to be with you u wanna leave

to where ever

for 3 to 4 hours by the time, I see you drunk and high on whatever,

and off to work I go

like a stupid ass nigga

See I’m not tryin to make a beef or start some shit it’s not my intentions I’m not accusing you of shit

But think of it like this

if this whole shit was flipped

it wasn’t a dude it was a chick

And you had to go to work a whole 3 hours to 6

Same thing applies

I don’t see a universe in which that sticks

Sounds like I’m complaining but really I’m just saying

I’m mad at you for being mad at me

That’s the tragedy ....

[gonurd]

wroom wroom!

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Ive been gone

Ive been gone 

Never forgotten

still here writen always grindin

[gonurd]

Nothing annoys me more than when someone expects you to be okay with something they wouldn’t be okay with if you did it.

nightthoughtsxo (via wnq-writers)

Truth

[gonurd]

Aura of the night

I never knew what love was, Thought it ment sex and drugs Kisses and hugs now I know it’s more then a kiss Limon lime twist In my life As if this was a commercial from sprite Whenever I’m around you I feel high as a kite We disagree at times but never even fight When ever you where stress I’d just hold you tight Tell you everything’s gonna be alright Love should be a level up from like Your eyes matched the aura of light That forms from the stars of the night I was young i had my mind set on dumb Should of left us as friends and stuck to having fun Yet I couldn’t because I knew you where the one How did I know ? When we kissed I seen you glow You where perfect from head to toe The fact you had your own flow It was the middle of December And I kept you warm threw the snow. Never wanted to let you go Or maybe those nights when you would scream my name “GIO” Called me papi in my highest moments God damn you had me hopin it would’ve lasted forever Your comebacks where so clever I had a weight on my shoulders In which u helped me turn into feathers  Your tough like leather helped me out threw any endeavor Made me tea when I was feeling under the weather I just had to write you this letter Just to let you know I’d love you forever Years would pass by and I’d still think about you whenever The image of your smile always made me feel better Those moments we shared where unforgettable Those are the moments I treasured It wasn’t just the pleasure The lengths I would have traveled to see you could not have been measured . I just remembered  that night we sat and watched that meteor shower And your smile slowly bloomed like a flower And that other night we tried molly sat and talked for a hour Didn’t even have sex that night But when I woke up i went straight to giving u head That was my breakfast in bed Your eyes, your lips, the way your hair flips, your skin tone alone, the way you’d moan, OH shit remember when we had sex over the phone Pretty sure you feel it but I’ll never leave u alone All I wanted was a chance to atone For my past, the love for you I’ve never shown When you left me my whole world turn to stone, my love was put on postpone In fear I’ll never find someone like you so I decided to stick to myself If I couldn’t have you I’m better off alone. Lord knows I’ve grown When I lost you I lost my soul mate I wasn’t looking for you when I stumbled across you It must of been fate So much was at stake If only I can make it up to you But I fear it’s to late Let me cut to the chase I was a superhero who lost his cape I Felt a earth quake in my stomach Like a bullet ricochet inside me from a gunshot When we first kissed I felt the world stop Give me one more shot I swear I’ll stay true I let you burn me with a blunt how could I ever forget you

Love, Gio

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Grind shine

Thought I was gonna be famous Teachers called me ignoramus I'm suppose to be like them And kiss the whole world's anus If I wanna achieve greatness I just can't take this With these conformities I was given Opportunities Just cause I came from this community filled with mutiny These people looking down on me I came from fights to stealing money Just to put alittle food in my tummy And then they call me a dummy Cause I didn't go to college That means I don't have knowledge But I have enough courage to know I won't be a hostage in this cage of bars Like a castle of cards Try to stay in the lines Understand im not inclined At processing better times There's a ladder ima climb The bottoms covered in slime That's the whole mankind But they so unkind they should be manswine Me combined with kikos Like we 2 of a kind Steady on my grind Got caught up with the pussy I had to get that out my mind Cause I couldn't find a dime Now I'm working 4 to 9s But sometimes I wish I had a better shine

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Will she be whole again

Once upon a time a girl became captivated by the love from a bad boy, addiction later followed as she asked herself if she'll ever find happiness. Wrong turn after wrong turn she turned to this boy of good intent couldn't understand why he was so different. Desired to give him a chance, yet he wasn't what she was used to, thought he was to good to be true. So she kept him as a friend, And was never happy again, the end..

[gonurd]

Lose Her Loser

I used to enjoy the feeling of not knowing her for the first time, as I listened to her express her mind, later spout and unwind, with the story of her past as i watch her smile shine in my direction. All I get is good vibes and perfection, A simple reflection, of self and how I became unaware, that she did her hair Not even care to bother her if she just got her nails done. Couldn’t tell her countlessly I loved her or even express the art I never expected material things would later drive us apart, or make us depart and then start on a never ending trend from start to finish, finish to end, later ask her out as my girlfriend, when I should have kept her as my friend. Could’ve told her I’ll give her the world, could’ve been their till the end But just Know I’ve learned enough Enough to know I’m not enough As I later watch her call my bluff Yell, fight, cry and, cuss ! I try to discuss a better me that I’ve changed She’s heard it so many times before, its all the same she’s already lost all her trust. Looks in my direction with the only disgust, Like she cant stomach me anymore I can feel it in my gut. I still compliment her butt Secretly want her in My future Yet have no way to pursue her Afraid if I told her I’d lose her On that note I’ll keep my thoughts to myself, so I don’t look like a complete loser.

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I'll never muster up enough courage to catch up to you

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If love never last

I used to fall in love fast Now I'm all about my cash I couldn't give a fuck about the past altho there's something about you that I need to have And if love never last Then why I still make you laugh Now that where grown I'm building that respect just to leave you alone I put my feelings on postpone No more poisoning my dome I can't look you in the eyes, afraid you'll turn me into stone Forget the me you've known It hurts to know i'll never amount to what you've expected Your wants and needs where neglected Cause I never appreciated The women you are and how you deserved everything I wasn't able to provide In turn your feelings died And was later replaced with pride I'm just greatful I never made you cry I'll never get you back but I'll still try Even though when we talk I'm tunge tide I'll never be able to erase these feelings in side I've found my soul mate But I lost the chance to make her my bride

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Im the dust shes my wind

I have a girlfriend  She’s more of a friend  I just wish she was my girlfriend Its like falling in love with a model who you cant touch or grab  its the pictures that help you get past  Her Wants and needs faded away  I thought True affection would last  lust is not too love  Had to Learn the hard way I’ve accumulated a long list of lost lust  I would later look at with disgust  You only realize you love her after you’ve lost all her trust  I could never love her enough  Could say I love her too much  That I have a never ending crush  I Wanted to live happily ever after like the Brady bunch  In stead my mind froze up And my heart got stuck Wish it was broken other then crushed I could've put the pieces back together But now its just dust altho she’s my wind  With her smile as my gust  I could have a pretty shity day shell find a way to pick me back up  From the mud I'll go unstuck As we hold hands in the wind No more dust just us .

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something new

I've searched and searched Got shown good until it turn to the worst Used to think I was cursed I was once a bad guy until I've seen it reversed Seems its only good in the being Call that person your first Send them pictures throw in a little flirt Go to a concert and wear matching shirts Take her to a restaurant Like your the escort Reaching up her skirt, whispering in her ear "I can't wait for Dessert" Leave the food and the money Had to cut that meal short Good times soon change Call it Long term rearrange In the long run of all the pain cold nights in the rain Your heart begins to change Its views are now questions Its movement only rejection Won't give the slightest bit of affection I've been threw dirt, just to make it work, every time hurt, some bad, some perfection Had my fair share of selection When thrue rejections in all sorts of direction Only had one love who seems to be my infection Infatuated with the thought I may see her again another day To smoke drink wine and fuck the night away just like we used too But she misses the old me and thinks I should find someone new ...

[gonurd]

Ive been heart broken before Doesnt hurt as much as its said to Whats love if you eventually end up hating that person you made love to Hate how much u love them hate how much they changed from the first day you meet Its not all bad love has its advantages I just wont love until im sure what i feel is real Its been a while since i opened my heart up to see what was inside Rainbows and buttflies Later turn black due to all those lies I lied too we all lie But i kept it 100 with you Knowning ur heart was on the line

[gonurd]

I thought i was a asshole i guess its rubbin off -kanye west