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“Everything was screaming: the sea, the wind, my heart.”

— Yann Martel (via quotemadness)

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I was once the broken girl Now, I can't feel anything Anything at all

g.p // Numb (27/11/16)

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You used to be the one who comforts me every time I feel like a failure. You've been my shoulder to cry on every graduation ceremony that I failed to be a part of. Remember last year you went to our house, brought pizza and ice cream just to cheer me up? You gave me a nice warm hug and told me, "It's okay, babe. You'll make it soon." Despite all the tears, I smiled knowing that someone believes in me — someone loves the failure that I am.

It's that time of the year again, babe and like the past two years I still didn't make it. But unlike the previous years, I won't be expecting you to be at our doorstep with pizza, ice cream or anything that will cheer me up. I will be longing for your nice warm hug. Your voice reminding me that it's okay will just ring in my head. I would probably cry knowing that I failed again but one thing would never change. Even if you're no longer around, I'll still smile through the tears knowing that someone believes in me — someone loves the failure that I am.

I believe in myself now. I’ve learned to love the failure that I am. And I am excited to be the successful person I'm destined to be.

- g.p // Keep chasing dreams (24/06/2016)

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They ask me if I still think about you I just reply with a smile

They ask me if I still love you I just reply with a smile

They ask me if I'd like to date another guy I just reply with a smile

Babe, truth is even if you didn't stay I still think about you. Always do.

even if you said you don't love me anymore I still love you. Always will.

And even if you didn't choose me I'd still choose you. Always you.

- g.p // Babe (Things I wrote about you 27/05/2016)

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Running away from the memories we once shared from the feeling that I once cared from your eyes that made my heart melt from the love I once felt

I'm running away from you from us because it hurts so much to feel your touch but see in your eyes that you only want goodbyes

I'm running away because this is the only way for me to keep my sanity in this love catastrophe

I'm running away But baby please don't forget you're the one who first drift away

- g.p // The Art of Coping: The day I decided to run away (30/05/2016)

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You’ll miss him You’ll miss him everyday You’ll miss how he makes you laugh You’ll miss how he comforts you when you cry You’ll miss how he makes your heart so happy you feel you’re floating in the sky You’ll miss hearing his “I love you” You’ll miss replying “I love you more” too You’ll miss his warm hugs, gentle kisses You’ll miss how he grants your wishes You’ll miss how you two jive You’ll miss how he makes you feel so alive You’ll miss your moments together You’ll miss when those moments feel like forever You’ll miss him You’ll miss him every single day So miss him Miss him until then Miss him until you don’t anymore

- g.p // The Art of Coping: Missing someone who’s gone

Artwork: ‘Hugging the shadows’ by Emiliano Ponzi

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They call you heartless; but you have a heart and I love you for being ashamed to show it.

Friedrich Nietzsche (via quotemadness)

reminds me of someone

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In letting you go, I found my peace.

g.p // Things I wrote about you (30/05/2016)

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In all the ways I bleed, thinking about you and the love we once had are far most my favorite.

g.p // Things I wrote about you (23/05/2016)

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I can turn you into poetry, adorn you with pretty words and compare you to the stars and the moon. I can place a crown on top of your head and make you a king between the lines. But I can never turn our story into more than it was: a love gone to waste. I wish I could stop writing about you.

You no longer own my heart, but you still rule my thoughts n.j. (via ninasdrafts)

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He left you. He gave up on you. Why don’t you just do the same to him?“ She asked, incredulously. “Giving up means that you didn’t try. I don’t give up on anyone, even if it means more pain for me.” She sighed. “And God, I wish I could hate him but this pain makes me want him even more.

how does that work // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #87 ( offdxys )

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“What’s the best way to say goodbye?” he once asked.

“You don’t.” she answered.

― g.p // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write p.63