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I love how Meryl Streep decided she was a show singer and we just accepted it without actually listening to her.

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Have fun in the war dumbass I’ll be at home fucking military wives

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Over the Garden Wall 10th Anniversary stop motion short by creator Patrick McHale and Aardman Animations

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Okay I really like Agatha All Along. I mean I could watch Kathryn Hahn fry an egg and be deeply entertained.

But the cast kept saying it's the gayest Disney thing ever and like they always say that. Maybe it was in the script, but it all gets edited out, y'know? After this last episode I'm just gonna say it is. Like they've already made clear 2 of the main characters are gay. 3 but one isn't really obvious or stated, it's just vibes. But this last episode having 2 gay jokes that sound like gay people actually make and not what straight people think gay people say? Perfection. A casual mention of a character's past queer relationship? Awesome. Honestly some near owl house level of queer. (But you can't beat that because Dana Terrace really did All That and it was amazing)

Like I'll criticize Disney and the mcu until the cows come home, but this part is actually good.

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It was dreamlike. Nightmarish? Not always. Sometimes it was beautiful.

Annihilation (2018) dir. Alex Garland

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“It is women who love horror. Gloat over it. Feed on it. Are nourished by it. Shudder and cling and cry out-and come back for more.” ― Bela Lugosi

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I grew up in a pretty place. Shitty circumstances to be here but happy to see this again.

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I'm in West Virginia for the night. My grief has turned into numbness to get through this. I know I have a few people to see while in town but I really don't want to. I just want to get business done, go back to where I'm staying, then do it again until I leave. I don't want to pretend to be a normal person for a night.

I really can't wait to just be allowed to feel grief. It would help to perform if I was a normal about things but instead I feel like I'm about to take a test I haven't studied for.

I guess I'm 1 step closer to being done with it all but fuck this sucks.

I work a full shift today. Then run home, eat dinner, then drive the first leg of my journey to Pennsylvania and finish it tomorrow. I then finally get sworn in as power of attorney for my dad's estate then spend the next 2.5 days trying to empty out my dad's semi hoarder house before trying to get an estate sale on whatever is left.

I am in incomprehensible grief. It stayed yesterday on my way home. Everytime I've opened my mouth to talk last night I started crying. It's all becoming real. My dad is gone. I have an aunt and an uncle (from different parents) left who will still talk to me, and we're not close. My brother in law wants nothing to do with my sister's side of the family after she died and he's poisoned their kids' minds against us. There's not really anyone anymore and it's freaking me out.

But mostly dad is gone and this weekend solidifies it. It's a good thing I can switch to happy person mode at the drop of a hat for work. I want to curl into a ball and disappear.

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I work a full shift today. Then run home, eat dinner, then drive the first leg of my journey to Pennsylvania and finish it tomorrow. I then finally get sworn in as power of attorney for my dad's estate then spend the next 2.5 days trying to empty out my dad's semi hoarder house before trying to get an estate sale on whatever is left.

I am in incomprehensible grief. It stayed yesterday on my way home. Everytime I've opened my mouth to talk last night I started crying. It's all becoming real. My dad is gone. I have an aunt and an uncle (from different parents) left who will still talk to me, and we're not close. My brother in law wants nothing to do with my sister's side of the family after she died and he's poisoned their kids' minds against us. There's not really anyone anymore and it's freaking me out.

But mostly dad is gone and this weekend solidifies it. It's a good thing I can switch to happy person mode at the drop of a hat for work. I want to curl into a ball and disappear.

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Working in a place that uses insurance in a very red area, this is the usual chain of events:

Universal healthcare is a scam. There's absolutely no reason I should have to pay for this!*

What do you mean this is ending? How do I keep my insurance covering this? I need it!

Why are they personally targeting me and like 5 other people I know? I remember being told this is what I get but it's helping! I thought I'd be allowed more!

Okay I'll do private pay. You charge how much!? Why do you hate me? Why do you not actually care? Guess I'll just be terrible.

Anyway, this is proof universal healthcare is a scam.

*at my job, most clients are on a special state insurance that is paid out of everyone's taxes, regardless if you get it or not. We go out of our ways to apply them to this.

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Hey so the northern lights in Tennessee is neat.

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My stinky little bastard man, Bartok. He's 12 and either acts like it or acts 5. He loves to sit on the couch in this room and watch the cows, horses, and donkeys next door.