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I know I'm far behind the hydrangeas seasin, but it's done when it's done.

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Another Bantaka fic featuring urban legend bc y not?

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Yahiko and Konan bc y not?

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Bantaka is at once knight/lord and old married couple except they still behave like they're freshly in love

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Look at them just chilling and enjoying each other’s company, look how they’re mirroring each other, look how comfortable Takasugi is with Bansai sitting on his blind side, look at their little smiles and how they’re sharing a look, look at the moment they’re having even though they’re not alone and surrounded by so much chaos, look- 

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Never think I'd do E-rated again, but time's proven I'm not the person of my words (truth be told, I'm the exact opposite of my words).

For Bansai's birthday y'all.

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The sister fic to Heaven is where you are, also the sibling of the one that started my bantaka obsession.

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I don't say that I can't write fluff, but I think I do it better with messed up themes. Still, this one is humour and fluff, with a tiny plow twist but in the end they're all happy.

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Don't be afraid to leave comment. Fictions aren't like social media. Just leave a comment no matter how long it's been and the author'll be flustered with joy, I guarantee you. It may be nothing to you, but it will make someone's day.

YOU THERE! YES YOU! FIC READER!

I just read a fic from 2013 and left a comment on the end. The author responded within 3 hours.

Please leave comments on fics. It doesn't matter if you don't know what to say I literally made a joke about a space worm. Please comment on fics it'll make the authors day even if its from 9 years ago.

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Sometimes I do feel like we don't talk about Bansai and Otsuu enough. He has the ability to see through people's broken state and capture who they really are, given how he found and perceives of Takasugi.

Otsuu turns out to be really inspirational - comedy aside, she truly inspired Shinpachi to press on with his life. She's a muse to some extent, not simply an idol. There's no way that Bansai cannot see it and find it intriguing. After all, he's interested in the unconventional songs of the soul, and I'm pretty sure that Otsuu's song doesn't fit in the conventional category.

I think Bansai saw that in her personality and was drawn to her. Like Shinpachi, he can tell that the little girl singing on the street despite people giving her sneers is capable of more than just singing. He can tell that she's the under dog that rises when given a proper chance, and once she rises she can outshine even the brightest stars. That was why he invested in her. (Aside from wanting to have someone with enough influence to turn the table in favor of Kiheitai if need be lol).

Still, I think there maybe more to it than just taking advantages or seeing potentials. I think Bansai somehow finds a part of himself reflected in her. They share the same interest in music, and perhaps he would have a normal, peaceful lofe to pursue his passion had it not been for a war to break out. Perhaps he was once THAT determined to music, only to leave it behind as the unfortunate events took place, leading him one steps too astray from peace, too far from his dream. Perhaps Bansai wants Otsuu to succeed because he can't stand seeing another person like him trail off, another dream fail, and another life wrecked by this forsaken world.

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Breagan is like my ulti friendship in cartoon. I love them so much.

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Chapter update on the letter fic. I just love to explore Bansai's opinion on the Shinsengumi

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In another life.

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What he should have really said in that prison cell

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Shinsuke's jealousy over Bansai never stops being amusing to me. Like Bansai expresses appreciation for Gintoki's and the Shinsengumi's music and Shinsuke's like. Bansai do you not like my music anymore

Meanwhile Bansai has never been jealous of any of Shinsuke's relationships. Instead he's always supportive. Oh those are the men who fought by your side during the war, awesome, I'd love to know them and see what you were like when you lived with them, Shinsuke, go have all the fun with your friends, if you die someday make sure you're by your friends' side—

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We see Bansai being very open and straightforward with his affection for Shinsuke, but people tend to overlook that Shinsuke liked Bansai first and is in fact deeply attached to Bansai as well.

Shinsuke was the one to make the first move. He asked Bansai to come with him.

And then much, much later, he seems to say the exact opposite words...

...but he means the same message. That he wants Bansai to be in his life for always.

Shinsuke relies heavily on Bansai when they run the Kiheitai together. He trusts Bansai with negotiations and public missions. He shares his thoughts on Itou, a private guest, with Bansai.

Shinsuke leaves his team immediately after the battle where Bansai dies. There literally isn't a single day when Shinsuke had to run the revived Kiheitai without Bansai. Conversely, Bansai's also shown to be too worried to run the Kiheitai on his own when Shinsuke's in a coma.

I guess I just want more fuel for "Shinsuke and Bansai as co-leaders of Kiheitai". They are more partners than leader and subordinate within the team they built and run together.

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you can't convince me that shinsuke and bansai didn't at least have a phase when they acted like the reckless and insane teenagers/young adults they were in their early years of being outlaws together

an inseparable pair of deadly beasts (lovebirds, in this case). shinsuke was self-destructive, bansai swore to protect shinsuke with his life; each didn't give a shit about their own life but would go berserk if the other was hurt. went on impromptu killing sprees together occasionally. "hey bansai, first to reach 10 body count wins." "in that case i don't plan to fall behind, shinsuke." if you were a corrupt bakufu official walking at night, beware

commented on the wanted posters of each other. "who took this picture? they have no taste." snuck out after the entire team were asleep, to savor sake at that bar they'd been wanting to visit for ages. attended celebrations together in disguises, watching fireworks, holding hands under their wide brimmed hats. bansai wrote sappy love songs, belting them out when he was drunk; shinsuke composed love poems in return.

shinsuke bought a shamisen and asked bansai to teach him how to play, so they could play together some day. bansai bought a sword to match with shinsuke's, to show his commitment to him and their shared cause. matako was growing up and the kiheitai was getting bigger, too, and so were bansai and shinsuke. but the songs and poems kept coming and even as the phase and the years and their youth went by, the love remains