firerubyjam

[firerubyjam]

mid autumn

Age: 22

Hair: long died blonde

Weight: ??? I don't know, in the 60ixies I think

Close friends: 4+2

Bestie: 3

Last time I cried: I don't remeber, proud of me

What I like about myself: my semplicity, my awkwardness

What I don't like: I'm a stick moving

Current reading: nothing

Current fanfic: nothing

Goals: pass all my exams, be brave and leave my town and home

Worried about: college, climate change, being broke and can't afford basic needs

Excited about: Christmas and New Year celebration, Secret Santa

Happiness: 8/10

Confidence: 7/10

Mental situation: stable, I'm good, I'm actually are

Love life: by my own, forever and ever but it's okay

Wish: get the best scores in university, to be always that happy and full of life

[firerubyjam]

I forgive the world because it has you

[firerubyjam]

SOS

I want to read She Wasn't A Guy but I can't found the title in german. Has someone translated it in german???

plz tell me

[firerubyjam]

mid autumn

Age: 21

Hair: long but not as muchas they used to be

Weight: 60.2 kg

Close friends: 3

Bestie: nobody

Last time I cried: I don't remeber, proud of me

Bank account: got a job and got fired very soon, still miserable

What I like about myself: nothing

What I don't like: everything from the way I look to the way I move my body, I'm so awkward all the time

Current reading: 22.11.63, mary poppins, radio silence

Current fanfic: ATYD the war

Goals: pass all my exams, be brave and leave my town and home

Worried about: college, climate change, being broke and can't afford basic needs

Excited about: my books... that's so pathetic, just not really into anything

Happiness: 3/10

Confidence: 2/10. why can't I be like my friends?

Mental situation: bad, I hate myself and everything. I feel left out from my friends, I feel like the last weel of the wagon, I feel so immature and childish respect people of my age. I alway think about having a glow up but actually never do anything to make it hapens. I also feel very stupid, very ugly. I cover this situation by isolating myself and my mind tricks me I always feel so shitty and I doubting myself constantly.

Love life: by my own

Wish: please universe send me an angel, a patient one with a dazzling light one that finally sees and make me their mate, because right now I'm invisible by my own eyes too. I just want to be heard and loved, like I do with other people.

[firerubyjam]

[firerubyjam]

I will always be James and never Regulus

I will always be Sirius and never Remus

I will always be the obsessed one, never the obsessed over

[firerubyjam]

Always an angel never a God

Always the writer never the muse

Always the medicine never the cure

Always the lover never the loved

Always a choice never the chosen

Always a distraction never a solution

Always smart never gifted

Always trying never enough

Always good never great

[firerubyjam]

Beginning of summer

Age: 21

Hair: still long

Weight: 61.5 kg

Close friends: 3

Bestie: nobody

Last time I cried: yesterday

Bank account: I'm still not rich, and I haven't found a job

What I like about myself: my eyes color

What I don't like: my body I feel fat

Current reading: 22.11.63

Current fanfic: ATYD 7

Goals: pass all my exams

Worried about: college

Excited about: summer is coming

Happiness: 6,5/10

Confidence: 4/10. I broke all my promises and I'm the only person to accuse.

Mental situation: high and low, sometimes I feel shitty, not the best in general

Love life: peacefully single

Favourite actor: Mr. Gorgeous aka Timothee Chalamet

Last movie seen: Dear Evan Hansen 10/10

[firerubyjam]

I love being a woman but I am so sick of everything. It's not a gender crisis but more the delusion of living in a world like this.

I don't want to be pretty, I don't want to be your toy, I don't want to be perceived at all.

I want peace, I want to be safe, I want to be free like a man is.

[firerubyjam]

Close the windows that hurt you, no matter how beautiful the view is

[firerubyjam]

I hope you get everything you've ever wanted, and I hope I never hear a thing about it

[firerubyjam]

A baby cannot hate the mother, without the mother first hate their baby

[firerubyjam]

I'm so glad we live at the same time. My world is a bit lighter with you in it.

[firerubyjam]

Remember: if they ever come back to you doesn't mean they care about you, it means that nobody cared about them as much as you did

[firerubyjam]

[firerubyjam]

I am now older than Lil Peep. Even if I never met him, I like to think he was a good soul cause he cured mine. I love you Gus, you were just a guy in a word too cruel, RIP

[firerubyjam]

I don't wanna heal. The pain is the last link to what we lost