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I Can’t do ANYTHING with Maeve

Maeve is killing me right now. She wants to draw but my hands aren’t working, and I’m trying to find tutorial s of Pintrest and I can’t draw them, and Maeve won’t leave me alone, saying how I can’t make anything half as good as a gesture of a circle, let alone a rough gesture of a hand, eye or face. 

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An Average Conversation with Maeve

Me: I finished this digital drawing. It's okay. It took a long time, but let's be positive here; it was a good learning experience.Thanks for the idea, and help during the project.

Maeve: Yea, um sure, but it took too long, you could have done it twice as fast on paper. Also, look at the shading, it's horrible. Your lines are too shaky, and your colors are completely off. Now, look at this work of art over here by [insert awesome artist]. You'll never be as good as that. Sure you may have learned something, but you didn't learn enough.

Me:*crumples/burns/doesn't post art because I think it's crap*

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New Facet

I’ve discovered a new Facet of myself.

Format:

Name (Dominant trait): Traits

Maeve (Creativity and Forgetfulness are equally dominant): Creativity, forgetfulness, self-doubt, and self-deprecation. 

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Contradictions and Their Answers

Amelia is Affection and Unkind

Answer:

I am a very affectionate person, real things, made up things, I love tons of things. But my mother (who loves me very much and says this to try and offer critique uppon my personality and help me and all that), She says I’m one of the most unkind people she knows and my heart is shriveled and is the size of a rasin. 

Brooke: Adventerous and Lazy

Answer:

Lazy in a certain contet means I want to do things, but I don’t want to put in the extra effort. 

Example: Sure, I’ll wait in line for hours but I’ll sit on the ground because my feet hurt. 

Very much Bilbo on that last one. 

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Facet (Side) Reveal

I was kind of putting this off. But not anymore. 

NOTE: I am a person and people’s personalities can conflict themselves or rely on context. I will be posting another post with the “commonly asked questions” about my sides facets. 

Format:

Name (Dominant trait): Traits

Amelia: (Affection): Affection, Enthusiastic, Unkind. 

Brooke: (Laziness): Lazy, Charisma, Adventurous, Bossy. 

Jade: (Pessimism): Pessimism, Sincere, Ambitious, Talkative. 

Eliza: (Stubborn): Stubborn, Loyal, Confident, Persuasive.

and I think I might have another one, but I’ll tell you when I’m finished with her. 

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Why Did I Make Sides in the First Place?

Well, first off, I explained in my first post. I have changed and I don't know myself anymore.

Also, my friends were arguing if I am more like Roman or Patton, I am creative, dramatic and one of the squooshiest feeling things on this planet. Or so they tell me.

I finally was like, hey, Sanders himself said that no one but his sides can be them. I don't fit inside either Patton or Roman because obviously, I am not Thomas. I am a person with more than one side or facet to me, exactly like everyone else. So I decided to make my own.

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Patton Question

I also, may or may not be using this account to brainstorm things about Sanders Sides. 

@thatsthat24

I have a question about Patton. 

After watching accepting anxiety and the episode about change, and the one about breakups, I began to think. A friend of mine was talking about Patton (and how much like him I am), and how he's not bubbly 24/7. 

I know his bubblyness is genuine for the most part (he said so himself), but is there some small part of him that uses his bubbly personality as a facade to hide how much feelings confuse and hurt him? 

If you see this, thanks for looking. Bye. *awkward sign off*

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Helloo

I have had a cold for like a week now, and I have binged a lot of stuff on youtube. My favorite was definetly Sanders Sides. It made me think about how well I know myself. 

I’ve had a hard year, lots of external causes for family drama that then turned internal,  resolving in March of 2017, which took two people away from us and now we’re still trying to get back on our feet. 

I’ve changed a lot, I’ve developed inferiority issues, and a lot of guilt and self hate, not just for my psyche or my actions but for my body image as well. Nothing drastic and nothing as serious as real life disorder such as Anxiety or Depression, but I’ve lost myself. 

I need to figure me out. A friend of mine asked If I had sides and what they were so I’ve come here to put them out for people to see. I don’t know why. I’m kind of scared. But I can’t stop thinking about it, so I’m going to do it so my brain will leave me alone.