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"The irony of the human heart is that it is tormented by the presence and absence of its soul's counterpart." —

I wish someone could come up to get my heart out and feel what I feel, why I am like the way I am, oh how much it weeps and cries inside but from far it just beats normally! I have become so paranoid; the way I wanna feel and embrace happiness but I can't , I fucking can't!! I think about sadness first because I have got that shit at every point and I feel that it's a part of me rn! Ofc I say I don't care but deep down my heart burns..I crave love and care but as soon as someone approaches me I can't help but reject it inside, I get awkward talking to people, I get goosebumps down my body when someone smiles at me and think that they probably thinking shitty about me! In the process of healing and getting a feeling to be healed by someone I ended up breaking my own heart!! I still can listen to people but how do I tell them what's inside me? The demons they left inside me making my insecurities so much that if I take one step ahead I end up taking ten steps back overthinking! They say that the one leaving do not deserve me, despite knowing this I feel that I am not that worthy to get them...Its just that i can't help but sigh and only sigh at my life — —k♡

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In the sudden urge of a war people forget that the blood shredding off won't even label whose it was. The rage, the ego of two people or two thousand people or two countries will give nothing in return except sorrow, blood and a heart breaking deaths. Histories can be written without war and tears as the victory gets counted.

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I was so into living with the " Fear Of Missing Out " that I never understood the joys it held. The joys of missing out surely sucks at first but slowly it feels peace to be without someone who already made you feel left out!

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Have you ever noticed the burning petals of a rose? The fire it just catches but it still looks beautiful isn't the human heart engraved the same way? It gets shatterd again and again but the broken and burnt heart still resides in the human body!

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Dayumn I need nothing but a tight hug *sobs dramatically while holding my plushie *

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DARKNESS — AN ILLUSION

I was scared of the dark Young me cried staying alone in the dark I always wanted to be around people People gave me peace once Slowly the feeling of staying away crept Everything seemed my fault Being alone in the start felt the worst Engulfed by the darkness was scary yet peaceful Switching off lights calling out my inner soul to me Talking to me at 3 am living at peace I got it, I never hated darkness It was just an illusion that crowd gave peace But the irony was that people took my peace.. —only by @fifityshadesofpoetry-academia

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You know what's the worst feeling of a writer? The feeling of not letting to express themselves because the mind goes so dull and dead that at a point words and feeling doesn't comes out and they just get isolated into your heart.

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The Ironical emotion and feeling " trust" —

You know what's the worst feeling someone feels ? It can be anything either in a relationship, life goals or sweet old friendships where a person gave their efforts, heart and a whole lot of care the other person didn't deserve to have. Someone just said to me " the one who puts trust into someone gets the same amount back ." Ain't this ironical? I guess everyone here has been betrayed by a partner or a friend or family member once in their lives whom they trusted the most. I used to spent a lot time thinking where is it going wrong and why am I not being able to get this out? I realised at a point that this " trust "thing has somewhere being lost. Not everyone needs to see the caring version of you so trust less and care less about others but prioritize yourself first.

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How many times can you say goodbye to a person before letting them go? Yk the worst feeling in this world is to see someone slowly loosing interest in you. That person you believed after so much and really wished they stayed, who made promises to be in each other's lives but now they are just empty words with just some handful of memories you cherished turning into nightmares.

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I know one day you will becone an unfamiliar feeling, a foreign experience from a past life and I know one day none of these mean anything to me : the nights I spent sitting alone, not wanting you to let go, things which meant rhe most to me once no longer hurt me. The hurt is still lying somewhere which I never want to remember again. Sometimes I wish I never met you so I wouldn't know the feeling of knowing you but not being able to have you around. It took me a lot time to untangle the strings to get over you.

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"If it doesn't hurts, it isn't love" —

sometimes I wonder if it was a mistake, loving someone so hard and getting so badly hurt in the process but the other times I know that I would never have known what love was if I didn't.There is beauty in loving someone even if they don't love you back the same way.

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in letting go i found peace and that is what i will hold onto.

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It took me a while to learn that when people say 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 they don't always mean 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.

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where everyone is flexing their friends here I am filling my emptines with silence. down the lane where we once shared giggle it felt strange crossing the present day! memories I wanted to cherish alongwith our footsteps, seems it only echoed in my eardrum! the glimpses we shared together, today i saw them with tears in my eyes. where once we were one and had each other on the back, today it seemed so heavy alone coming down the stairs! </3 Short and strange, friends never remain the same!! —kae☁️

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The urge to not tell/ask/listen to anyone but yourself is becoming stronger day by day !

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Silence ! Have you ever sat being silent No right!? The silence once we all want to seek, will haunt us in later future. When the sea becomes subtle and when those birds stop chirping, when there's no breeze you feel and no ease to breathe. Those timid joys and tears you had with your friends once will echo the eardrums. The brutal reality is we never want to accept silence but at the same time we need it! Contrasting isn't it? —kae���

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When you've been traumatized in ways that made you question your worth, going through hard or stressful times in the future can make it harder for you to believe in your worth in the present. This is especially true if your present hardships activate past traumas. I'd just like to remind you that your worth is immeasurable and does not diminish even when you cannot see it. You have immense worth. You always did, and you have it still.