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I am the queen of my reality‼️

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I thought if I had you then it would prove my power over my reality and I would feel complete or accomplished but I realize you were never to be had. You never longed for my soul in the way I believed I longed for yours. I do not know your soul and you have no interest in mine. And that is ok. Perhaps that is not what should happen and what should happen is beyond my expectations or imagination. A surprise only the universe could know. All I want is to feel genuine romantic love. I know love from friendship and family. I know intoxication and elevation. I want to be intoxicated with desire and know that it goes both ways. I don’t want to fall in love. I want to rise in love alongside my lover.

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My ass hurts

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Each year drop feels like an accomplishment. A moment that I bottled up and saved for later. Now is later and my tears I will savor. Salty sweetness on my lips tastes like dessert to a bitter evening.

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As a woman there is something so sacred and beautiful about getting periods. Today I got mine and MAN I WAS FUCKING PISSED! But just now(this is not a sponsorship but most definitely a promotion) I downloaded stardust period tracker and I feel so good about myself and the fact that I’m giving my body a hug by being in tune with her I feel so excited to track my menstrual situation and I feel fucking inherently magical and more connected to the moon than ever. Literally started crying because I was so happy about it. #lol#womanthings#witch#period#periodtracking#womanhood#girlblogging#girlblogger

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Each morning I wake up. Undefined, untouched by the energy of the world. I take moments to breathe and appreciate the sun waking up with me and a collective of other souls. As the day goes on interactions that once seemed meaningless, I now realize make up my life’s story. I don’t want to say past (but as of right now no), I disassociate yearning to go back to nothingness and to relieve myself of sentience. I remember trippin dick on acid and feeling such boredom with my existence because it was so still. The stillness turns into sadness and I feel it deeply. Through the sadness I realize why it’s there and I recognize it’s there because I chose to keep it there. I longed for it. Light became boring, I no longer appreciated the happiness I once felt to the fullest extent. After the sadness, the realization, and the epiphany, gratitude for even the stillness was back. It turned into motion with the intention of feeling grounded in gratitude for the present moment and sentience felt wonderful again even if just for a moment. I drift away into sleep with no dream I become everything and nothingness. But it’s not a repetition tomorrow’s morning will remember today and a new day will be born.