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Meet Esmée the forest witch☺️🌷🌱✨🍀🐾

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❄ Colors of Winter ❄

3D render of a northern Kotie (fantasy feline from my lore) in a snowy setting. I tried to recreate my favorite play of light with bright warm outline of the Kotie's silhouette, against the cold blue shades of the snow and his white fur.

Made in Blender. Grass from Poly Haven.

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I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

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Shhh he’s too busy yearning..

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If i wasn’t locked in at school rn trying to graduate, i’d be making so much warrior cats fan art atm you have no idea

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incredible picture of my neighbours puppies

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writhing, decaying in endless cycles

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Character lineup coming along nicely 👌🏼

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Process 🐾

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I’ve been trying out this new process for illustration-making where I draw the lineart with ink on one page, and then use a lightbox to colour it with watercolour on a separate page, and then combine them digitally.

I didn’t expect this experiment to turn out so well but I’m totally hooked now!!

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Depression is such an effective tranquilizer that it creates a great opportunity for plot twists in your real life. I have a pretty consistent opinion of myself which is "low" and "never ending guilt and shame for reasons I don't understand."

Recently received feedback from two different editing clients that started with "Please pass along to Jacquelynn that she is phenomenal at her job" and "I was blown away by the evaluation I received."

You always hear about how depression (and anxiety) lies to you and distorts reality, but there is logically knowing that and then there is like, physical proof of it and you are suddenly Neo in the Matrix jumping out of the fucked up little tube machine.

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We have such different covers! I’ve never seen yours before ･:*+.\(( °ω° ))/.:+(Don’t mind how beat up mine is heh!)

“El-Ahrairah, your people cannot rule, for I will not have it so. All the world will be your enemy, prince with a thousand enemies, and whenever they catch you, they will kill you. But first, they must catch you…”

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“But one strict rule they had; No one must ask where another rabbit was, and anyone who asked “where?” Outside of a song or poem must be SILENCED.”

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“They’re stones! Pushed into the surface! But what for?”

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“El-Ahrairah, your people cannot rule, for I will not have it so. All the world will be your enemy, prince with a thousand enemies, and whenever they catch you, they will kill you. But first, they must catch you…”

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“Oh, hazel, look! The field! It’s covered in blood!”