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Haven’t posted in a long time but update

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“maintaining is better than gaining!” i say as i punch my scale in half

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Started ozempic two months ago and I’m down 20 pounds but everything feels so slow I wanna be skinny already

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My goal is to be skinny by December. Come December I will have lost so much weight and finally feel pretty.

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Red MealspØ

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i want to lose my appetite.

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The beauty of morning mealspo

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having ana but not being sk1nny is such a weird feeling bc people aren’t worried about the fact you have an e/d bc you’re not yet underweight/sk1nny enough to be a concern

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Mealspo

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If ur not in a terrible mood and a massive bitch. Ur not hungry enough.

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i have no self control and it's disgusting. i need to get ahold of myself and not be god damn pig

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My goal is to be skinny by December. Come December I will have lost so much weight and finally feel pretty.

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I won’t eat until he loves me

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I finally lost 15 pounds I’m actually happy it’s no where near my goal but I broke past the 10 pounds I was yo-yoing

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It’s time to eat!

I held on to the clinging thought

Of a hungry mood

So hungry it ate away at my sanity.

I tore myself apart as my heart and mind had a feud

And gave my morals up for vanity

It’s time to eat

I opened my eyes to a world of no hope

Just in time for a main course

Eating away at my self esteem with a side of cantaloupe

With a full course of identity

A buffet of feelings as I eat my own words

Someone please take a bite of me

It’s time to eat

Unloved thoughts fill up my cup

And an emptiness fills my plate

I still do have a hunger to work up

Although I am satisfied

Overwhelmingly enough

With Cocktails of tears shaken with cyanide.

Burying my lonely imagination

I found a fragment of my ever dimming light

Hoping for a self mutilated salvation

To me and myself along with our appetite.

It’s time to eat

Devour me

said the born again stranger

Nothing can fill the vanity of your heart

Drink up and consume me

Rotten fruit to dissolve my eyes

And fielded flesh soup to wash it all down

My skin festers

It’s time to eat

Let us retrain our stomachs together

I with the lovely thought of melting into you ,

made the sound of a sick starling

While I am stuck between surviving and a starving

Serve it up and feed me

It’s time to eat

I refuse recovery

Validation just taste so good

I love the flavor of personality

Disaster? I have the recipe

It’s time to eat

Although part of me feels that remorse

The rest feels unbalanced yet unbothered.

And in my throat grows gorse

I can’t breath

But I loved to be smothered

It’s time to eat

We hold hands for prayer but god has abandoned our dinner

Yet I dont want to eat

I weeped while flowers grew rapidly underneath the table

I caved and finally had a serving so,

Goodbye and welcome back with such sadness I left it all behind in the next moment to that i say

it’s time to eat