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Maybe I’m a bad person but I wish my parents would divorce. My entire life they were staying together “for the kids” but now that all of us have said we support their divorce, they still refuse. It’s not my relationship so I feel like i shouldn’t have a say but at the same time my dad is an asshole and it’s ruining mine and my siblings lives. My dad quit his job because he “doesn’t want to have to work for someone else” and now we are literally poor living paycheck to paycheck solely on my moms money (who gets 400$ a week) and there’s 6 of us😐 on top of that, when he quit because he wanted to “work for himself” he had like 5 different buisness ideas and we all told him they aren’t realistic but he told us to shut up and he used all of our money investing in these projects that he never finished and never made any money off of. So now we are poor and I’m so mad at him he says he’s trying his hardest but he’s so fucking stubborn and refuses to take advice from anyone. And every time he talks to me he’s just so rude and I didn’t do anything, I keep my grades high for him, I don’t get in trouble for him, I have dropped so many people because he told me it would ruin his reputation if his daughter hung out with bad influences. I’m in BETA club, I already have all of my classes picked out for high school, I don’t eat so he doesn’t have a fat ugly daughter, I do everything for him but it’s never enough. I try so hard yet my shorts are always too short, or I’m always raising my voice at him, or I’m spending too long in the shower. I’m not even allowed to skip school for PMS but I’m also not allowed to take pain killers because he says I need to stop “letting it get the best of me”. I don’t know what to do, it seems like I’m always crying because of him but any time I tell him he’s rude and that’s why none of his children talk to him, we’re just being sensitive, or I’m on my period, or I don’t know what it’s like to hurt. And I’m so tired of it I’m gaining back my weight I worked so hard to lose over the winter, and I physically can’t cut anymore or else it won’t heal in time for summer. All of my highschool registration and ptcs are next week and we just finished our Q3 exams and I don’t even feel happy about the fact that I scored mastery on all of them because I know my dad wanted me to do better and I know that I can. Maybe I am being sensitive idk it’s just so tiring.

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BRUH WHAT THE FUCKNI CANT DO ANYTHING THIS SHIT ISNT FUCKING WORKING

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Bruh who else’s legs ache like a bitch at night cuz my legs hurt so bad rn and I have a heating pad😭

Low key wanna do another cardio day tmr despite the cramps💀

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My childhood friend and I haven’t been hanging out much for the past month or 2, and a few days ago I went to her house and we hung out and her mom and grandma both were complimenting me so much on my weight loss. Her mom was like “wow you’ve lost so much weight! Not that you didn’t look good before, but now you’re rocking!!” And her grandma asked if I’ve been dieting. Then at one point her mom said “come here, ms. Skinny” and it was so nice cuz I’ve never ever had someone compliment me on my weight- like ever, I’ve always grown up overweight. I sort of feel like they’re lying though because on that day I felt like crying because my thighs were so huge like abnormally huge and jiggly so I don’t really understand how they would think that’s skinny yk? Plus I wouldn’t be surprised if they were lying because they all sort of know about my Ed? I mean since I’m not their kid and I’m in 8th grade, they don’t worry and they brush it off as “just being a girl” but occasionally they become somewhat conserned like when I don’t eat all day and they notice, but then I just eat something and they’re fine🤷‍♀️

Regardless of whether or not they were lying, this is your sign to do that diet you’ve been postponing. this is your sign not to break that fast when you’re so close to finishing. This is your sign to order the salad over the burger because while that burger is definitely gonna taste amazing (I’m not even gonna lie) it won’t be worth it because the taste will only last seconds then you’ll be left with a nearly permanent sludge drooping from your thighs and arms and stomach. Choose the better option and you can get those compliments because they literally make you feel so euphoric. 💙

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🌸pinned stats🌸

Height: 5’6

Sw: 180lbs 🐽

GW1: 160lbs💔✅

GW2: 150lbs💔

GW3: 125lbs👎

Gw4:100lbs🦋

Ugw: 90lbs🦋🦋

UGW2:80lbs🦋🦋🦋

*✅= goal met

🐽=obese weight

💔=over weight

👎=normal weight

🦋=under weight

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Day 4 (December 24)

I’m afraid to go to the hospital and forced recovery, like that’s so embarrassing specifically being there and having family visit because I can already see it; my parents wanting me to have some big, cinematic, heart touching reason that I’m starving myself and them crying because their “baby girl” is dying, but in reality they’re the ones who gave the disorder to me and I’m just sitting there like what u want me to tell u cuz it’s the truth or nothing and ik you’re gonna start guilt tripping me if I give u the truth💀

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Big vent but I need to get it off my shoulders so like my parents have never really gotten along and they’ve been in fights both big and small, some just arguing and some involving guns lol. So you can imagine how I felt when I got a text from my sister saying “mommy and daddy got in a fight” while I was at a friends house. I honestly laughed a little because it happens all of the time they’re always in fights yk? But then I get home and my moms nowhere to be found. I ask my sister and she says our mom left hours ago and hasn’t come back. Now to some people that sounds terrifying but to me I didn’t care, our mom is always doing that where she runs off after a fight/argument and leaves us without warning. But then more than 24 hours pass and it was like 30° so my dad files a police report and everything and I’m freaking out. Yes she has left before but never more than 6 ish hours. The scary part is that she didn’t have her car. So she either found somewhere to spend the night or spent the night in below freezing temps with no heating.. so at this point I’m freaking out ofc. Like wtf mom, where the hell are you?? And I honestly thought she had committed suicide because she suffers from many mental disorders but then my sisters and I get added to a gc with our aunt and she says “your mom just called from an unidentified number and says she’s in a women’s safe home and she’s okay but she won’t tell anyone where she is exactly” and when I tell you I was PISSED. And your probably thinking; Zoey, why are you pissed, your moms alive!! I’m pissed because my mother- a 45 year old woman (fully fucking grown) decided to leave her 5 children out of nowhere WITHOUT SAYING BYE to a woman’s safe home- if you don’t know what that is, it’s where women go to seek safety/shelter specifically from domestic abuse, not small arguments with their husbands, I mean like full blown abuse like they have nowhere to go and are in a crisis type situations- and the problem is, why did she go there after just a small argument and decide to call her sister who literally never talks to us?? Why didn’t she call any of her children? I get not calling me cuz I’m only 13 but she could have called my 17 year old sister, or my 18- almost 19 year old one??? And on top of that, why didn’t that bitch even say bye? And why did she go to a woman’s safe home acting like she’s being physically abused when in reality SHES JUST LOOKING TO RUN AWAY FROM HER FUCKING PROBLEMS. And I can’t blame her for wanting to run away from her problems because I get that as well and she was never taught that running away from them is bad, but at the same time, she decided to run away from them in this way RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS and leave all of her children alone?? WE GOT HER CHRISTMAS PRESENTS AND I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO IT MY SISTER GOT HER A PERFUME AND SHE FUCKING LEFT US WHAT THE FUCK??? WHY CANT SHE JUST GET A GOD DAMN DIVORCE AND MOVE ON???? I’ve never felt this way towards my mom, I’ve been mad at her before and I’ve said I hate her before, but right now I feel a sense of rage and resentment that I’ve never felt towards her before. I want her to come back of course but at the same time I don’t think I’m ever gonna be able to see her the same way you know? I don’t know maybe I’m over exaggerating but no matter how many runs I go on to clear my head, I can’t stop thinking about how she didn’t even say goodbye and about how she let me puke myself to sleep because I thought she was dead and in reality she was just taking a “mental break” in a little home with people taking care of her. What the fuck mom?

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Probably tmi but

Yesterday I walked like 15k steps on a walk around town so my friend and I stopped at a Walgreens and I got a monster and some takis. I decided I wouldn’t have to workout as long as I only eat that all day. I did that successfully but now it’s 4:50am and I’m shitting my guts out and my ass feels like it’s on fire💀 lesson of the day: don’t eat takis on an empty stomach if you have a weak one to begin with😃

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Day 3 (December 22)

Those thighs, they’re so perfect and small but not complete twigs. I honestly don’t want to be bones, I just want to be underweight enough to make people worried but also proud and jealous. The way those shorts fasten to her waist so perfectly even with the sweater tucked in and she looks so effortlessly skinny with LAYERS— the things I would do for that omg.

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✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.

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Don’t you just love being the middle child at the dysfunctional family dinner? Parents fighting, mom threatening to commit unalive, dad yelling but not knowing what he said because his voice got so deep and loud and tramatizing that you had to use every fiber in your body to focus on not crying. Siblings either trying to make the parents stop or trying to eat as quickly as possible, and then me trying to subtly eat as little as possible while scrolling through Ed tumblr👏😃

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Bro I have to stop cutting and pray to Jesus that me scars heal in time for summer cuz I’m gonna have to wear a swimsuit at least once his summer- it’s already December so I have like maybe 5 months

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Reposting to save some lives lol

Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

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Day 2 (December 18, 2021)

Height:

5’6 (167cm)

I like my height to an extent, I’m only 13 and I’m already this height which is kind of good because I want to be tall and thin because I like that more and because I know models are tall but It also sucks being this tall because when I hang out with other girls my age they’re all so much shorter and I’m already fatter than them all so being taller just draws even more attention :/

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Day one (December 17 2021):

CW: 160lbs

Height: 5’6

GW1: 140lbs

GW2: 115lbs

GW3: 100lbs

UGW: 90lbs

UGW2: 80lbs

Dream BMI: 16.00 or less <3

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PSA:

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Not pro just recording my own thoughts and feelings, I do not condone this disorder and if you are struggling I do support recovery 1000% however, forcing recovery is unrealistic and won’t work so I refuse to do that to anyone.

If you are looking to recover, please do not interact with my account for the things on here are not very recovery friendly and I want you to be successful in your recovery

That’s it, please take care of yourselves and drink some water loves🤎🤍🤎🤍