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Freaking myself out

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Hi I'd wish to have a good future please vote :D

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😮‍💨 I think high school is cursed

I am overstimulated like...all the time I feel sick and not hungry because of it

I don't understand people's Mannerisms and it's making me a fool

Because I lack understanding of...people I just end up not talking to people which makes me just end up on my phone all the time texting my sister which if you didnt know that's what I'm doing you would just think I'm an moody teen girl who's on her phone all the time but really I'm talking to the only person who gets me

People are just plain stupid, that's just fact. In theatre we did the 'Statues' game and I was pretty good, last of 2. Well the 'guard' never turned around so I never moved, neither did the other statue. Well the kids who are already out are watching this and tell me and the other statue that WE are playing wrong. YPU NEVER TURNED AROUND, IF YOU NEVER TIRN AROUND I CAN NEVER MOVE ITS NOT HARD TO UNDERSTAND

I have classes I just...weird. last year I had inclusion classes because I understand regular and (pre)ap classes It's just too much of a workload for me so I'm put into inclusion classes which get a less workload. I'm in 0 inclusion classes this year and in order to change that I have to go to my councilor but she's busy so im stuck in classes I just feasibly can't do.

And the worst part is that when I go home I can't nap 😭 I'm so tired and drained and all I want to do is nap

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School ends in like 3 days (today included) and im pretty sure the second it's over and I stop fearing for my life every second I'm alive ill pass out

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Co-owner Amethsyt here

Let's talk dress codes. Now for those unaware me and Fang are very alternative people. We wear excessive clothing (skirts, shorts, fishnets, ect). For 3 years I've dressed this way with no one paying me no mind

This morning, my principal stopped me and Fang on our way to first period cause we were out of the dress code. We were both wearing skirts that go right to my knees and fangs that go a little longer than mid-thigh, but she had tights on.

They proceeded to keep us in the office the entirety of first period.

You may be asking, we're we breaking the dress code? Well yes and no

My schools dress code says no skirts except for the first Monday of the month and that skirts must be to the mid thigh and tights are optional. We obliged to that but just not on the first Monday.

Here's the thing, I'm never gonna listen to the dress code cause my clothes aren't hurting anyone. My parts are covered and it's not offensive, that's all that matters when it comes to school appropriate clothes.

The dress code also prohibited open toed shoes but Where's the long line of kids in crocs, Pajamas are banned but where's the group of kids in Pjs?

And it's not like they're hiding either, Since for so long no one has done shit about the dress code,it's so easily broken by everyone in school. I could walk out and see three people breaking your dress code.

This dress code is more or less useless.

The most stupid part of this all is that basketball shorts are on the dress code but must be mid-thigh or longer.

IF MY SKIRT WAS SHORTS I'D BE FUCKING FINE!!

And I'm wearing safety shorts that go to my mid thigh, and according to their stupid dress code, they'd rather I walk around in the shorts then the skirt.

Everyone can see how stupid that is

And a lot of what's on the dress code is subjective. They ban excessive earrings, but what makes it excessive? The ban baggy pants but makes pangs baggy? Are bootcut pants baggy, flare leggings are baggy?

Ik people can agree that dress codes are stupid and are just here, so you can feel a false sense of control over a school that hates you

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I'm actually wonderful now

All issues are gone I'm a wonderful person with a great mind

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I'm always so scared of dying (due to...the thing I always talk about on this blog) and it makes me never want to leave my house, or even my room.

I've been told that "if you're scared of everything all of the time you will never do anything"

My fear is not an irrational fear

This is a very real fear and a very real threat to adolescents and just brushing it off and telling me to get over it is the worst thing you could do (in terms of this situation)

I see Americans get upset when non-Americans always bring up school shootings...really?

Maybe instead of getting mad when people say that, fix the issue.

If you want people to not say that about America then make them stop.

If you never tie your shoes, and always trip on your laces, don't get mad when people refer to you as "the one who falls all the time". Just tie your damn shoes.

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being paranoid is funny bc like well what if i'm right

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Lotta prolife and far right billboards the more we got to bigger cities

I appreciate my boring ass city a little more

I don't think you guys realize how far we drove and to still be in texas

We drove six hours

In other places you would not be in the same state

We went across this hell and WE'RE STILL IN THE FUCKING STATE

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X

Don't look away from us. Don't ignore the Oklahoman queer community. Don't ignore the indigiqueer community. Don't forget Nex Benedict and the future they should have been entitled to.

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palestine masterpost-masterpost

i've been trying my best to collect a bunch of links to other, more structured resources about the genocide in gaza, and what you, reading this, can do about it, that i'm going to compile here.

DON'T SCROLL PAST. LOOK THROUGH THE LINKS. REBLOG.

less and less people are talking about gaza every day, but it is still a very real crisis.

education, donations, speaking out, global links (masterpost)

links to contextual articles

for americans - state/congressional contacts

how you can help palestine - donations, petitions, campaigns, upcoming protests (masterpost)

non-politically motivated charity links

canary mission

petitions and congressional contact (masterpost)

education, current news, taking action, direct action and donations, current protests (masterpost)

small monetary actions

2700 ebooks on israel and palestine, available for free

thorough article by storiesfromgaza, dated 10/30/23

targeted boycott + bds

how to find state/congressional contacts, bds, email template, donation links

sudan and congo

egypt, us/uk/canada/europe congressional contacts

direct links to help palestine

educate yourself (twitter links)

translating gaza (instagram link)

bds/targeted boycott information

compilation of palestine info and how to support it (masterpost), dated 10/28/23

latest info as of 11/3/23 and large amounts of immediate action to take (masterpost)

history of palestine and israel - articles, books, films, social media (masterpost)

socials to follow

journalists in north gaza

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I feel about my school work like it's happening to someone else

Like wow they should really work and get ontop of their stuff

Eh it'll work itself out

I'm behind on so much work and it's only 3rd period

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Dawned on me that high school is getting more harder and alot more real

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Nex Benedict's death wasn't just for being transgender, it was for being native too. 2 Spirits are revered in many native cultures and it is a native-specific identity. This wasn't just a hate crime against trans & NB individuals, this was also a hate crime against Natives of Turtle Island.

You cannot separate Nex's trans identity from their native identity - this is a case of MMIWG2S (Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women, Girls, and 2 Spirits).

Native children being killed at school is nothing new, so it's equally important to talk about Nex's native identity and being intersectional, this is a devastating tragedy for indigenous people, the queer community & especially those of us who are both indigenous and queer.

May Nex rest in peace 🪶

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nex benedict, a 16 year old nonbinary student in oklahoma, was beaten to death by three of their female classmates in the same district libs of tiktok has been targeting. not only is this heartbreaking for us to hear about, but i can’t even begin to imagine what this must be like for the family.

too many trans children have died and too few people are talking about this

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PLEASE WATCH AND REBLOG - DON'T JUST LIKE - THANK YOU

BISAN IS AFRAID THIS MAY BE HER LAST VIDEO. THE OCCUPATION IS PLANNING TO INVADE NASSER HOSPITAL IN KHAN YUNIS, THE LAST FUNCTIONING HOSPITAL IN THE GAZA STRIP.

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So im getting pretty sick and tired of professionals I'm seeing not doing anything because of bias

I asked my doctor if I could get tested for autism and he said no cause he didn't want me to be labeled. He didn't think of any of my concerns and reasons he judged it solely off of his views of autistic people.

Another thing is I asked him today about ADHD meds and he said no and that i need to be retested. INFACT he said "I don't think anything is wrong with her and that it's a lack of sleep"

He blamed my phone and my lack of sleep. If that was really the case, then how come I struggled in elementary when I had a perfect sleep schedule.How come I struggled in 6th grade when i had no phone and a not sucky sleep schedule.

IF IT WAS TRULY MY SLEEP AND MY PHONE, THEN HOW COME HOW I STRUGGLE NOW IS HOW I STRUGGLED MY WHOLE LIFE WHEN I DIDNT HAVE ANY OF THESE THINGS

When I had my IEP meeting, The admins blamed my phone and that's the only thing distracting me and I just need tutoring. Like my whole life I've been distracted, In elementary, I would just read my books and talk to people. In middle school, I would just read my books. In elementary and middle school, instead of sleeping, I would read and do arts and crafts. I've simply replaced that, with my phone and that's the issue. My AUDHD caught up with the times and now I'm an issue.

People my whole life said that I should self-advocate for what I need and what's wrong with me but when I did, they said no. I said that i think I might be autistic and that I truly don't know what I need but I know I need help. They flat-out told me no, that's not it that cause they said so without even hearing me out.

I have a therapist now and I wish I could say she's helping me but she's old and senile, she fell asleep mid session and forgot key things she told me. I brought up a couple sessions agohow I think I might be autistic and told her my proof and she said "yeah, that might be a plausible" but now has the audacity to tell me last session that I might not be and im just a little wierd. Wow, I would've rather you just chucked me out the window.

My whole life, I've felt lost when it comes to help avaliable to me cause my parents didn't know how and my school counselor could only bring me a schedule change but no real help and my SPED department practically told me to go fuck myself because I didn't know what I needed and therefore wasn't gonna get any help. (That's like me saying I'm hungry but idk what I'm hungry for and someone telling me that I'm not getting anything to eat because of that). My doctor said he wouldn't test me cause he doesn't want me to be labeled and in fact he thinks it's my phone that caused all this. My therapist is old and dying right before my eyes and can't even open box, how the hell is she supposed to help me?

Despite self-advocating like everyone told me, the same people are now telling me that I'm invalid in my feelings and thoughts.

There's a certain level of lost you hit before your like "what's even the point? I should just give up" and I'm fighting everything to stay away from that, but I fear I'm at the line just before it

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