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[exyabram]

i want to die i have nothing

[exyabram]

i dont want to be here anymore, i want to die. i dont have anyone, everyone hates me and thinks im boring and annoying and every fucking thing i say to anyone only makes them hate me more. ive lost everyone who has ever loved me because im such a fucking poison. i destroy everything i touch and i will always be a second choice and a burden. i just want to end it. i wish people would stop lying to me and just leave. i dont think anyone would care for more than a day if i died, and i dont want to be anywhere. i dont belong and i never will and thats my price to pay but i dont want to pay it anymore

[exyabram]

i will never belong anywhere i think. i will always be an outsider. people will always lose interest in me because i just dont belong or fit in anywhere

[exyabram]

i want to beg him to stay up with me even if it sounds pathetic and stupid but i also feel so guilty making him stay up and i want him to sleep when hes tired but i feel so alone and it hurts

[exyabram]

im so sad i just want to stop crying and feeling like this all of the time always

[exyabram]

going home is going to be so horrible, i might have to kill myself but i dont know

[exyabram]

i dont belong anywhere. i never will, ill always be an outsider and not good enough for anything. why do i have to lose everything

[exyabram]

i just dont want to be here anymore everything is bad and it will never get better and im wasting everyones time

[exyabram]

i just want to die

[exyabram]

i feel so dumb and stupid and small and alone and unimportant and it hurts and i just want to be normal

[exyabram]

im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything im ruining everything

[exyabram]

it will never be me i will never be happy i will always just be stuck like this and hurt everyone i come into contact with its the price for me staying alive past 18 and it always will be so i just need to be alone or die

[exyabram]

i genuinely dont know if i can do it i want to last until august to see him again but i feel like every day gets worse and i dont know if i can take it

[exyabram]

i just dont want to be alone anymore it hurts i want to be important im so tired of just being an afterthought thats so easy to get rid of

[exyabram]

im so fucked up and broken and useless and alone

[exyabram]

i just want to kill myself bro i cant handle any of it anymore

[exyabram]

i just want to die. i dont want to do this anymore, every day is worse than the one before and nothing good will ever happen