eustoli

[eustoli]

[eustoli]

i’m so sad. i just want to be healthy but i cant. i cant. i cant. i cant. i just want to be skinny. i hate the way i look. i hate the way food makes me feel, but at the same time i cant stop eating. i hate myself. why can’t i just feel good about myself?

[eustoli]

day 2: well, i’m 5’2 and i wish i was shorter because i wana b small 🥺

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wasn’t a good day today. i wanna try and eat under 1000 cals tomorrow:/ i went on a 2 mile run and walked 4.6 miles. yesterday i weighed 134 lbs and i weighed myself again today and i weighed 132 lbs! so i lost weight which is good:D

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i’ve been doing the chloe ting workouts for a week now and i see NO DIFFERENCE. i’m so frustrated with myself. i’ve lost 3lbs after throwing it all up but i’m not sure if that’s right so i’m just going to weigh myself tomorrow and seee. hopefully it is right. my weight is like always increasing and decreasing like bruh. I JUST WANT 2 BE SKINNYY. my throat hurts :/

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can anyone give me tips on how to resist my urge to eat everythinggg? like i hate eating so much and then making myself throw up. i just can’t say no. i hate myself :/

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i am

✨ugly✨

i really hope tomorrow is a better day. i’m on my period rn which means i want to eat EVERYTHING. like i ate sooo much today (which i threw up yaaas) and it’s hard to restrict when i’m not home. tomorrow i already have a plan so hopefully i don’t mess it up like how i always do :( today i weighed myself for the first time and i GAINED EFFING 8lbs. i hate myself soo much.

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hii okay ima do this ..

sw: 137lbs cw: 137lbs :( gw: 110lbs ugw: 105lbs

age: 15 height: 5’2 1/2 waist: 28 in

i dont really keep track of any other stats.

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so rn i’m with my grandma and i’ve been eating like crazy :( i’m going home tmrw and i’m going to start working out and fasting! rn i feel disgusting and just the thought of my body makes me wanna cry :/ i’m also so scared to weigh myself but the last time i weighed myself was like a month ago and i weighed 129lbs and i’m 5’2 1/2. my gw is 110!

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hiiii, ima vent on here cause i got no friendzzz. i’m also rlly new to tumblr:) anyways vadavada