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The one person who I thought would always love me? Doesn’t anymore. And it’s nobody’s fault but my own. I pushed them further and further away, they tried to come back and I only pushed harder. They’ve moved on. Everyone around me has moved on. I have nobody. Mental health can suck my balls.

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Grace Elizabeth for Victoria’s Secret x For Love and Lemons S/S 2020 Campaign

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Ideal Me

Okay so I think a lot of people with Ed's have an ideal version of themselves at their UGW so I want to share mine.

I want my legs to look like sticks in baggy jeans. I want to wear oversize band tshirts and look nice. I want my pale skin to be covered in bruises. I want to look so deathly pale that people think I'm a ghost. I want my under eye bags to be so prominent people wonder if I ever sleep. I want to dress alternative and have people give me weird looks as I pass them in the halls. I want to sit in my English class reading a book and look otherworldly. I want to look like I came straight out a Tim Burton film. I want people to be so weirded out by me that they leave me alone. I kinda want to look like L from Deathnote or Yoonbum from KS. I want to sit in the bath, look down and see pale bruise covered thighs. I want to always smell faintly of soap and cigarettes. I have no real desire for people to like me or find me attractive, I'm just doing this so that I like myself, so that I think I'm cool. I dont really care what other people think.

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Looking for an ana buddy!!!!

Looking for anyone but preferably someone who has similar stats to me!

💛Height- 5’5 -5’8

💛Sw-170-140

💛Gw-130-100

💛Willing to fast and eat quite low cal(under 1000)

💛we encourage eachother to not binge and to restrict

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People always mistreat me and treat me like shit so I figured if I ever end up in hospital and they diagnose me with an Ed people will start recognising how shitty my life is and give me at least a bit of sympathy and I want them to care and appreciate me 🥺 I’ve been chubby all my life so I’m craving for comments like ‘oh my god she so skinny she looks sick’ or ‘she’s freaking bones’ cause hearing that would be the best thing ever.

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June 1st: going to be doing this back to back until the end of June hoping to lose 20 pounds this month.

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me: *eats nothing by 7pm*

my mum: you have to eat something, starving yourself isn't healthy.

me: i'm not starving myself, i'm just on a diet.

me at 10pm: *binges on popcorn, chocolate and all of the junk food we have*

mum: i thought u were on a diet.

me:

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🌿✨DAY 4✨🌿

My biggest fear would probably be gaining back the weight and constantly worrying about it. Also if there would be any loose skin. Not many fears as i don’t really see that many negatives to it :))

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the universe has no right putting the perfect man in my life rn when im still this fucking FAT

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🌿✨DAY 3✨🌿 thinspiration

I like the way her hips are still slightly big aswell as her thighs but still skinny because I have big hips and thighs except they are FAT. They also both have a small waist and are tall like me.

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🌿✨DAY 2✨🌿

I’m 5’8. I have a love hate relationship with my height because I don’t have to get down to a really really low weight to be skinny and also my BMI is lower and bmr is higher. But I’m taller then all my friends and is known as the “tall one” when I ament even that tall haha lol.

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🌿✨DAY 1✨🌿

16 years old

5’8

CW:160 GW1:125 GW2:115 GW3:105 UGW:93

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Was 164 two days ago had some fries,ice cream and cake that day(wasn’t a lot and was all I ate but still it’s not healthy) and have water fasted since then so like 41 hours in now and have lost 4lbs lol

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reblog if you need to lose 40 pounds (18kg) or more

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