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WE RIDE AT DAWN FOR MAMA AND PAPA WITH THEIR FACES ON OUR BANNERS TRUST

AND THE UNIVERSE SAID LONG LIVE THE ETERNAL HOLY GWEMUS.

a rambling of the gwemus state.

gwemus... gwemus gwemus gwemus, remwen? lupintine? GWATT. valenhitt.....

long live gwemus eternal, gwemus propaganda be spread!! rejoiceify!!!

you may find gwemus in Agnes & Kristofferson(Fantastic Mr. Fox), Elle Woods & Emmet Forrest(Legally Blonde THE MUSICAL!!), Gwen & Peter(Spider-Man), Chica & Bonnie(FNAF), Princess Cadence & Shining Armour(My Little Pony....)

what is gwemus? the sun and moon, a bunny and werewolf, the concept of sunshine liquefied in a little box, the blonde and mr brightside, john deacon appreciation.

mmmm matt, who is remus, and remus is matt only i don't speak of him much on here because he is real here.. he is a guy who exists and i'd rather not risk making him uncomfortable, but I love him very very dearly i am the number one drowners fan ever, number one supporter over here ! ! !

he's everywhere i am, he follows me around like a little lapdog 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ and he brings EVERYTHING with him, put the charles dickins down remus, bookworm final boss i say but that also allows for reading glasses remus which......

the stars aligned(gwemus met) in 1971 ! ! !

on the hogwarts express because I.. ran.. into.. him.. right into him... like.. embarrassingly... and CHICA GOT LOOSE, she was only in the next compartment tho we live, we move, and little antisocial shy gwen was lowk afraid of already giant remus but he was really really sweet and I sat in the compartment with him and the boys squeezed between him and James(honorary girl bff) :3

he also told me abt his Lycanthropy on his 12th birthday, I believe I was the first to know?? I was the first he outright told anyway🙂‍↕️ I hugged him and kissed him on the cheek #boldgwenohmy

MY FAVOURITE THING ABOUT HIM is how genuinely good hearted he is, I love everything about him it's so hard to actually pick, but he's so good to his bones and he somehow doesn't see it I love him, his voice too, and his stupid LITTLE LAUGH AHJJJFK

he reads to me, I get full princess treatment he's my own person audiobook and I eat it up every time🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ or naps especially the week after the moon🙂‍↕️ Madame pomfrey never tells on me for skipping Potions🤞 a real one

THE SLOWBURN OKAY OKAY, we are officiall after the Yule ball that's a whole story in itself, but we have always been.. like.. yk.. unspoken.. like I've always been remus' girl and that is KNOWN!! but my first shift is middle of August and he's at mine and we are uhh together for all intents and purposes but not officially because mr Lupin has some self esteem issues and I have to do some begging but when I ask oh is he there and willing🙂‍↕️

his love language hmmmmm.... words of affrimation or physical touch maybe?? also acts of service?? IDK IDK THATS A HARD ONEEE, he is the perfect boyfriend ever tho!!!!!!

if physicality mattered then i would be a-okay becauseeeeeeee helloooooo this man is my exact type, he's LANKKYY, he has great hair and no I will not fall for the buzzcut propaganda. looking at you EMMA.

freckles/moles drooling, and the scars match up like?? hello constellations, my bf is a walking night sky, he has these big soulful deep brown eyes that I sometimes suspect are secretly boba and long long limbs and... nose...... I value his nose.

omg ALSOOO if you look hard enough at his mouth when he smiles it's literally a :3 shape, he is literally :3 he's also like deathly pale but somehow tans so beautifully?

this has no direction idc idc, gwemus is sunshine x less enthusiastic sunshine, I wouldn't necessarily call him grumpy... when he is I believe it is completely justified because you try having your bones malform and change shape and rip your skin once a month😨 he knows how I take my tea, he's bonded #4life with chica, the only marauder who knows I sleep with my bunny plush(who is in my cr too BTW, her name is bunni she is mini gwen), let's me lean for I am a sleepy soldier, in first year he got me fantastic mr fox and it is my fav book ever, shares his cigarettes but not very enthusiastically, this boy has THE death stare btw.

he likes hobnobs tho #redflag wtf is that about lupin

yap inspired and enabled by my loves my shaylas my twins @emmanation @raven-shifts @timelostheart

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hello emma. tis i. the sender of the "put coremma in your ask" ask. being that it was my first ask that i ever sent you, it was not my intention to be rude or backhanded. in my humble opinion, it would be very real if you did answer the coremma asks first, because everyone else would probably do the same. however, it was a mere jest about a somewhat inaccurate observation. i hope i was not out of line i was just trying and failing to be funny. i wont do it again i promise 😭

SEE I KNEW IT IT WASSSSS IN GOOD HUMOUR

don’t fret nonie ❤️

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Coremma nation rising.

How do I go about having to do stuff in my CR, that i wouldnt do in my dr? I SOOOOO don't want to go to work tomorrow, to even wake up here. I am tired of opening my eyes and being "here we go again", even though i was sure I would wake up in my Dr. How did you deal with that? Because I suppose everyone was in the same position? I think you said that shifting saved you (if not i am sorry) and I am in the same position. I want my desires uuuuuuugh

you saw the ask where someone said that i only apply to asks with coremma mentioned and decided to shoot and you know what desperate times call for desperate measures

n e ways

i WAS in the exact same position

the whole here we go again cycle is honestly ! what used to drain me more than anything else, because it felt like i had no agency

what helped was to stop giving this reality authority over me

sayyyyyy. yes i still have to show up to class or nowadays a shift or whatever

but i'd already decided where i actually was, so anything in this cr became just ........ whatever.

you dont have to like the obligations here

dont keep letting them tell you where you are because you can drag your body to work while your awareness is somewhere else entirely

i literally sat a biology exam and repeated to myself "im in my dr right now, regardless"

for me it was the only thing that broke that constant disappointment loop

the exhaustion is normal and everyone who shifts has been there

but if youve set a fact, then youve already shifted

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Anons when a reality is more than a fairytaley flashy load of bullshit and has complicated worldbuilding with real politics that we get in-depth posts about For Free.

Doing anything but shifting themselves... 🥱

NONNIEEEEEEEEE

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consider this a courtesy notice, you're about to chew through 100k of dragonless lore. pace yourself

im not a zookeeper if you want dragons you are WELCOME TO SHIFT TO A DR WITH THEM !

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hello!! for some reason, i have been struggling with sending asks and messages on like every blog, both on and off anon so i hope this goes thru T_T for the hemmaco discord, do we dm the hemmaco account for the link? tysm!!

if you have problems with dming you can send me one on my tiktok @ lovedathunderbird OR on discord at ema004195 <3

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im not a zookeeper if you want dragons you are WELCOME TO SHIFT TO A DR WITH THEM !

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hello hello, i asked you some time ago about living in lithuania/latvia since i thought about applying to a college major in baltistics and you answered it and said brb... are u back yet?? pretty please come back i need life advice and also im curiours what life is like there / if its worth it

HI IM BACK IM BACK I WAS !!!!! IN FACT !!!!! THINKING ABOUT THIS ASK YESTERDAY

so

hi

the thing is that i am from vilnius and therefore i know embarrassingly little about riga

the thing about riga is that compared to vilnius i found it pretty.........dry?? i was there in, i think, april maybe. and it was so empty

life here…… i wouldn't call it glamour

the baltic countries (including estonia!!) are not berlin, not paris, not even prague (which is why i decided to not go to university in here yet. im waiting a year and !!!IF!!!!! i dont choose to permashift by then im going to study abroad in paris when i turn 18 because i dont want to be in uni by 17 that's a lot of ....... gap . i was already feeling off when i was 15 amongst 18 year olds)

i would call it ............ humble

its like. provincial, sometimes. everyone knows everyone but there's also constant double exposure of collapse and rebirth

in vilnius, you WILL get the catholic baroque bleeding into modern hipster cafes (the good ones such as sayyyyyyy that icelandic one will charge you 4 euros for an americano, which here is highway robbery)

and the student scene is actually kind of electric

the libraries are haunted, in the fun way

with nightlife you'll end up at some half empty club where the dj is playing eurotrash

as for baltistics: you'll basically be signing up to live inside a language morgue, and i mean that affectionately

it's niche as hell, but if you're into niche, you'll thrive without a doubt

vilnius is definitely beautiful, especially the oldtown or the more new office parts across the white bridge

although in the offskirts in such as places as the tv tower or neighbourhoods such as lazdynai and karoliniškes.......well i would call it pretty soviet escue and it's not a nice place to be in

in vilnius it is most definitely way way way way way more safe than a lot of other european cities, it is definitely more calm and i remember even being in brussels in july and thinking (for the first time in my life in my cr probably) "goddddddd i miss vilnius this place is too much"

the food scene is really good because juxtaposing other countries, there's one of everything and if you're back at that, you get closed down

but if you're applying to vilnius university or ISM then you're pretty much in good hands it's not like the education is shit here

is it worth it, though?

depends on what you're expecting

if you want prestige, no

if you want stories, sure

you'll get loneliness but you'll also undoubtedly get texture

and by texture i mean the kind of texture you don't get in glossy western europe

i cant tell you it is glamorous but it is absolutely alive

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ANNA KARENINA DR SON OF A WEALTHY AMERICAN INDUSTRIALIST CORIOLANUS MEETS FRENCH RUSSIAN COUTNESS' DAUGHTER EMMA

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user one girl office worker emmanation is in despair to report that she has gathered one zero zero zero asks in the span of a month and a half

i WILL somehow get back to you on that. . . .

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Hii <3

I have a question about your better cr. You mention that you can justify coming from exteme wealth because all types of socioeconomic injustice and predjuces don't exist. I agree with this but have a dilemma with my singer dr.

I also want to live in a world without that obviously but I'm a black woman and don't want to erase black history. I want to sing about my experiences and maybe have a little revenge fantasy where idk trump loses by a landslide and hateful right wing movements fail. However this wouldn't stop all suffering because I wouldn't have scripted out racism, homophobia, capitalism etc and that feels super selfish.

Can you tell me what your dr without racism, sexism, classism etc looks like? Or any ideas for my dilemma?

Yours truly,

A long time follower and coremma stan <33

hi hi for me in my dr none of those things are disadvantaged positions

there is no hierarchy attached to minorities or being a woman. so you can still talk about being a black woman, still talk about your lineage and culture and all of the things that make you, you, but it doesn't come with pain automatically baked in

soooooo

for your singer dr it doesnt have to be this all or nothing situation

you can keep black history black art black culture black joy. whatever

you can keep politics as theatre (trump example) and you can keep the drama of movements failing or justice swinging back around but now you just don't have to keep racism as a permanent fixture

in other words

you can script in legacy, culture, personal stories, generational power

and you can still have that revenge fantasy of public failures for hateful figures. the difference is: you wont be living in a world that is stacked against you

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lol? the hack to get emma to answer your ask is by saying "coremma forever" before asking your question

oh no no that was very coincidental

i try to answer to every long ask or else i feel bad

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EMMA HII!! I ADORE YOU. COREMMA FOREVER. DOMINATION.

anyways.... i wanted to ask how to ignore the deadline and time in general? (I KNOW I KNOW typical.. but hear me out) Right- so everyone has anxiety and doubts, also worried about time as do i.. so even if i tell myself time is an illusion, there is no deadline I AM INFACT GOD. butt.. i still can't completely ignore it and i'd be absolutely miserable and wallow in sadness if i don't shit by the deadline.

Althought i'll shift by the deadline, it's getting closer and closer overthinking everything being selfish not wanting responsibilites or be miserable. It's kinda scary and i want to overcome this fear since i know overcoming your fears help. Thats why i affirm things like "there is no deadline, i technically already shifted, i'm not in a rush, i'm pur conciousness etc." but i'm still stressed since EVERYONE around me is reminding me of the deadline.

SORRY FOR RAMBLING i'm NOT good at this. In short, i want to know how to ignore the deadline and some tips.. and how i can shift by a deadline(?)

If you see this and reply tysm (cause i know how many asks you get..)

nr uno of all coremma forever domination yes hi mwah. second !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deadlines

deadlines aren't real here !!!!!

the second you let the deadline scare you, you're internalising the i haven't shifted yet, and i might fail if i don't beat the clock thing and that is literally the only thing pinning you in your cr

refuse to give them POWER

you've already shifted so if you want to beat the deadline, the only move is: stop waiting for it

matter of fact

stop waiting for anything

anyways

stop putting the outcome in the future. you're already there one and the deadline becomes irrelevant, because what can a countdown do if you're already done

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@versailleslamb being my everything like ....

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｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ. regardless, everything always aligns for me ﾟ･｡･ﾟ

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everyone stopped believing in santa claus when i did

i know it sounds ridiculous until, just maybe, it doesn't: maybe i'm the only consciousness in this room, and so maybe i'm the projector and the audience and the usher with the torch.

i'm smiling while i say it because i'm fully self aware of how grand it sounds, and yet, when i audit my life, the pattern keeps repeating.

the moment i drop a stance, the scene around me changed. the moment i choose a stance, the scene hardens, like, say, plaster setting.

when i was little i fully believed in santa. belief as such isn't the engine in loa, i know that, still, i'm using the santa chapter because it is clean and everyone remembers the feeling.

in that phase, it looked like the whole world believed with me. adults leaned into the bit, tv agreed, shops agreed, the sky practically agreed. the entire fabric of december carried the same assumption i held.

over the years, when my belief in deities and myths had dimmed, one weekend i found the wrapping paper in the garage, identical to the paper this asshole "santa" used, and the spell fell through a trapdoor.

now i wish i could say i did something, but alas i was 9, and so i didn't make a speech about it, didn't lobby anyone, now i had just just…..... withdrawn the stance.

afterwards, the world around me answered back with the new stance. the adults started winking and the tv looked cheaper and even the sky, the sole traitor, was regular weather again.

the exact moment i stopped, everyone around me seemed to stop too.

this is the shape of god of your reality logic.

and so because of that, the root is your assumption. the branches are what you call events and people.

you keep feeding the root, you keep getting that fruit. you stop feeding the root, the tree dries up.

my point is that acceptance of a fact is the only authority here. choose a fact, accept it as given, relax into the given-ness, the whole shit around you conforms.

proof lives downstream.

like, honestly, you didn't demand documentation for santa before you let yourself feel the stockings-and-cookies mood.

you just lived it, so the house configured itself to match.

in grown-up life we start auditioning the outside for permission slips, we make the outside the judge. we say, show me evidence first.

and then evidence stays politely out of frame, since that's the rule we set.

ease matters.

remember how believing in santa didn't require rituals, it's not as if you micromanaged december to keep him alive.

the stance did the carrying. manifestation feels exactly like that ease when you let it.

the difficulty i experience appears when i start fussing, when i check, when i run diagnostics. the checking says, in clear bold red letters, i don't trust the stance, which instructs the scene to crack and wither, which invites more checking.

you can break the loop by choosing the fact and going quiet, since silence is a stance too.

responsibility, then.

the title of this post is the whole lesson in one line.

i dropped the santa stance, and so (!!!) my world mirrored the drop. same with money. same with love. same with beauty. same with friends who i started considering as enemies and so that got reflected back to me.

when i hold i am chosen as a settled fact, people in my world display that truth as if it's their idea.

when i hold i'm always behind, everyone suddenly needs something from me and the clock becomes a cat i can never catch.

i don't need them to change their minds in any heroic way, what happens is that i just watch my stance, because that's the mouth that keeps speaking the scene into shape.

people always ask about the collective. okay, fine. the collective in your world is your stance in plural exhibits.

what i mean is: the crowd is an echo chamber you authored.

the friend who doesn't believe in manifestation shows up in front of you because you're running the assumption that resistance exists and must be handled.

if you remove the expectation of resistance, she becomes neutral, or supportive, or absent.

and yes, i'm talking about myself, because first person is the only instrument i can actually play. i get how solipsistic it reads. maybe i am the sole consciousness. maybe i'm not. practically, the script doesn't muss.

decide the fact you want, don't check. that two line protocol looks too small to matter, and yet it rearranges entire weeks.

decide: i am accepted to the programme. don't check: no refreshing your gmail account, the letter is there with a "welcome...."

decide: money moves to me on practical cue. don't check: no counting pennies for sport, you take actions that match someone whose finances behave.

a quick diagnostic i use when i get fidgety: where am i trying to negotiate with the mirror, it's not like the mirror ever leads.

if i want a different sentence in the reflection, i change the sentence i'm mouthing. if i want a different background, i move, and then the mirror shows a new wall. i keep catching myself pleading with the reflection, and then i laugh, and then i change the stance.

this is why i keep coming back to the santa moment.

a child didn't conquer the collective, a child didn't mount a campaign. what a child did is simply shifted (ha) stances, and the entire household relit the tree.

so yes, everyone stopped believing in santa claus when i did.

that line sounds grand, and maybe it is.

and if i am the only consciousness, then of course it works this way. and if i'm not, the method still runs. choose, stop checking.

so let december decorate itself around you.