ducklingmother-blog

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You must understand that when someone no longer positively affects your life, you must let them go.

[ducklingmother-blog]

My Duckling

Life is imperfect.

People make mistakes.

My duckling is not a mistake.

I am a single mom at 21. 

My daughter was not planned, but that does not make her any less important in my eyes. 

She is the light of my life and the joy in my soul. 

I found out that I was pregnant in October of 2013. I was 19 at the time and scared shitless. I was still living at home with my parents and my boyfriend at the time (who shall remain unnamed) was definitely more excited than I was. I never wanted kids. I never wanted to get married. I didn’t want the “fairy tale life” that little 8 year old girls dream about. 

I knew my life was about to change but I never would have expected the change would be so wonderful.

I was putting myself through school at the time so that I could at least graduate with my Associate’s Degree by the time my daughter would make her grand entrance into this world. Through the morning sickness, the heartburn, the discomfort, the Braxton Hicks and the constant yearning for just one day off (I was also working 40+ hours a week at my local Walmart), I did just that. I graduated from community college with an Associate's Degree in Chemistry (my beloved subject). 

On the morning of June 29th, something felt different. I woke up at 3 am with the worst feeling an expecting mother can have; labor was upon me. After two trips to the hospital, constant walking up and down stairs, and a desperate plea to get this child out of my body, my beautiful duckling was born was born at 12:15 am on June 30th, 2014. 

The second I saw that beautiful and flawless face, I fell into the deepest love one can imagine. I regretted every negative thought that I had during or about my pregnancy. I knew that this child would be my soulmate.

I may not have wanted this beautiful soul at the time I found out that I was pregnant; but she chose me to be her mother anyway. 

Every second of my life since that glorious day has been devoted to being the greatest mother duck to my perfect duckling.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.