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One of my biggest desires is to have Shark Villagers in Animal Crossing!

But since no one recognizes the cuteness of sharks, I decided to create my own villagers! Edit: Nurse just won a little pup!

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Time

Interesting how time can play such a role...

Yesterday you called... And we chatted. You asked me what I was doing... And I was watching a movie.

You could tell when I fibbed. In every tone I made. That's time hun.

That's time. Two and half years. We can tell with every tone in each other's voices.

I'm so happy to have had this time with you... So we could get to know each other. I cherish it. So happy that I got the time in the first place.

You mean so much to me.

I really do love you. I really believe you're my other half.

The way you talk, the way you know how to speak to me. Catch me when in fibbing... The way you can still make me laugh.

I do. I love you. I love how we are together. I feel safe, I feel like everything is okay when I'm with you. I love how much you bug me. You bring me comfort. Together, in person, it's like we dance.

It was an interesting weekend to have an ex come back and say they regret letting me go. I sat there... And I thought it over... I thought of you. How I'd choose you over anyone. Because we do have a special connection.

I don't wanna lose you, I don't want my life without you in it.

I hope that being so subborn about you, will pay off... That one day you'll see me as being serious about you. That one day you'll give in to loving me too.

I never want to hurt you again. I want the rest of my life with you.

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Nightmare

I had a nightmare last night.

I moved into another shelter. It wasn't much... The front walls were those calapsing walls. And only half way... The other half was velco plastic.

I remember putting the kids to bed and telling them it'd be okay. We had two rooms, a living room and a small kitchen.

It was storming and cold out.

I remember Mallory coming to visit me. I fell asleep on the couch, the next thing I know all these other girls were in my room and one of the directors, going over the rules of this place. I got up and freaked out that people were in my room. After people started to leave I walked out into the Hall way. They stopped me. Trish was there and said that they wanted to see my phone. So I started to take off.. I got outside and another director stopped me. She said she needed to see my phone. I handed it over unwillingly and she turned dropped it into her bag and pulled out another phone. Telling me that was my new phone and I couldn't have my old phone back. I freaked out screaming and yelling that I needed my contacts out of my phone. That I couldn't call Mikey.

She told me no, that it's better and safer not to have my contacts. I was so upset that I started walking down the street. I remember these two limos pulling up on the corners. Someone told me that they were motivational speakers.

I went down the block and was walking down... And there was a crowd... I stopped for a moment... And then I saw Ryan's grandma, mom and sister in law. I freaked out and turned my face away... I saw Ryan's in front of me. And his dad. He turned around and called my name. I turned around and looked at him and started yelling.

What are you doing here, you shouldn't be here. You're an awful person, I hate you, you'll never get the kids. He said "oh yes I will, I'm a better parent and I have statements backing it up.

I took off running. Back to the shelter, gathering the kids up. The next thing I know the directors are coming into my living courters... And their saying it'd be better for the kids to go with Ryan. His whole family comes into my room and sit down and Ryan and one of the directors and his dad go into the kitchen. They had me this huge binder of letters from all these people saying how great he is. I just started screaming and yelling and crying. I tried to rip it up.. but after a few seconds I throw it into the kitchen screaming. I had a moment I thought of just killing him... That way he couldn't have them. But then I thought I'd lose them too. I went for a knife though. I remember falling to the ground screaming and crying and calling out for Mikey to help me.

Then I woke. I started crying and got up. All my blankets and stuff was everywhere.

Those are the worst nightmares.

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“I’m a hard person to deal with, but also a person that would give you the world just to see your smile.”

-lunas-worlds-blog

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I dreamed of you last night...

Finally you were mine. We held hands and kissed. You told me you loved me. How happy you were to have me. We were finally a couple.

It lasted for awhile it seemed. Us laughing and joking but yet loving to each other. You kissing my hand, and me being allowed to touch you.

Then I woke... In a bed that wasn't yours. In a home I feel unwanted in. Hearing yelling all day long, made to feel awful for breathing. A burden.

That's the part that hurts.

Coming back to reality.

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“I’m a hard person to deal with, but also a person that would give you the world just to see your smile.”

-lunas-worlds-blog

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The key that I want...

Isn't a key to a house, or even to a car. I search for a key that has been lost. Thrown back at you. Misplaced by someone else.

It's the key to your heart.

I search through the rubble to find it, look through out everything, in hopes of finding it.

The key to your heart is all I want.

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“You looked at me like you were scared that if you looked away, even for one second, that I would disappear but baby there is no reason to be scared, I promise I’m not going anywhere.”

-Day 454

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Secret

.... I know people think I'm crazy.

But ... Something in me tells me to hang on. That something will change and that we'll have a future. It's just this feeling I have.

I have this feeling that I'm going to marry you.

I know I'll live in California again.

I know people think I'm totally crazy... But it's the truth. I can feel it.

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Dream wedding

I had a dream last night that I was getting married.

It was a huge wedding. Lavish and outrageous. It was an outside wedding at a very fancy place. All my family was there, and tons and tons of people. ... Mikey was there too. We all ate together and my soon to be husband talked to all my family and told them how excited he was to marry me.

We went on some kind of plane ride, Mikey sat next to my fiance, and my mom was sitting next to me. We were across from them. My fiance, asked Mikey for his Blessing of our wedding. Mikey said that he liked the guy, but that he couldn't, when he said that he looked at me. He didn't say it rudely or in a way that my fiance caught it... But I did. We were just about to land, and I told Mikey that I wanted to talk to him.

We were standing in a large grassy area, I remember taking his glasses off and started to clean them. He just looked at me and started saying he didn't think it was right for me to marry this guy.

He made it sound like I was supposed to marry him instead. And that if I married this guy, I'd never see him again. That this guy wouldn't make me happy and that it'd end soon.

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Are you ready for summer? ☀️

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Every Day Animal Crossing for Switch Is Not Released Is Another Day Wasted