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im having unneeded anxeity (heart rate is like 118 bpm my chest hurts-) so fuck all of you im yapping about my aus

OKAY I CAN EXPLAIN THIS ONE I SWEAR

yes it is nexus/Sun and Dark sun/Sun

Butbutbut Nexus and Sun aren't siblings in this au!

This is my Come as you Are au! (Au name a wip lmao). In this au Sun agreed to join Sol (dark sun) on one condition: that he didn't betray Nexus and kept him safe, and that Sun got to be with him again. Sol agreed, so now Sol, Sun, and Nexus just kind of live together

They, Sun and Nexus, got to reset their relationship just as friends, since Nexus isn't Moon. And it... grew to become more.

And its a teensy bit of Dark sun "subtly" competing for Sun's affection with Nexus, while Sun is just like "I have two hands" (but Sol doesn't want to share with a moon, but begrudgingly does as Nexus shows him more and more that he isn't a moon)

Edit: okay, uh- its like 2 days later and this has been sitting in my drafts. Im feeling a lot better but yall still have to hear about my aus

(I literally have no other drawings of these two help-)

Uh- Nexus gets redeemed and him and Moon move in together. They're science buddies and Nexus starts to get a crush on Moon and stuff happens and they experiment with each other. Idk I just really like the ship. Also Moon threatens Monty and they stop being friends!!!! And the family just kind of hates Monty, including Earth. Idk I just like them its neat

Okay thats it for now imma reblog this and add more aus. I'll probably add all my aus here eventually

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I feel like this should go without saying, but Dni if you're under 13- you shouldn't even be on here-

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I offer Kid au designs

I need to do Sol, Kc, Earth, Eclipse, and Old Moon's designs mainly

Also I decided Sol is like Nexus's other dad, and he's like a child of divorce where he visits Sol every once and awhile. Because yes

This is just my "babying my sons (minus eclipse) and getting to play with what they'd be like as children as well as the others would deal with raising them" au. Also my Kc is alive and Sol isn't really evil au

Idfk know but ill figure it out chat 😔

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Random au idea, buutt-

Kid Nexus and Solar au. With the rest of the family parenting, mainly Sun and Kc with the rest babysitting a lot (mainly Earth, and sometimes Eclipse is forced to)

My brain is braining rn

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“that one flower disease”

HANNAHAKI????

you’re so real on Eclipse and/or Solar

they’d never confess until they die chat

YES

Chat I have a whole.thing in my head- like Eclipse pining over Moon (old or nexus idgaf) and having flowers growing in him. But since he's a robot he can just open himself up and clean himself out even if its uncomfortable. But as he falls more and more in love with him it gets worse and starts tangling in his servos which makes it harder and harder to get it out and more uncomfortable. And he's suffering na due hates it and he hates himself from loving moon but he can't stop. And he's terrified to tell him, afraid he'll be disgusted and turn him away.

And maybe he is? Thats be good for angst ig. Or maybe, he walks in on Eclipse cleaning himself out one day, and he's terrified, but moon just sits in front of him and gently helps him clean it out and tells him he's not mad and already kind of knew and would be fine with trying it out

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The show villainzing Nexus and trying to make us feel bad for Old Moon is really rubbing me the wrong way- eccpecialy because I've seen so many people actually feeling bad for him

Im not even going to watch the episodes. I dont care. Moon can rot. I dont like him as a person, and I can't even really enjoy his character because how much I see people saying he's done nothing wrong, isn't as bad as Nexus, and/or "well he's trying". It just- augh

I fucking hate Old Moon. If you like him, cool, thats great. Good for you

I just- i like my aus of him, he can be nice and I love his sass. But I just can't with him anymore. Hes such a fucking hypocrite too, Mr "You don't deserve how Eclispe treats you Ash, even though I do the same thing to him" go fuck yourself Moon. Yes, you're doing better, but I just can't anymore

If you can't tell I'm tired. Like- physically rn. And I'm frustrated and ranting

Yknkw what? I think Sol is fucking right. Fuck it, I'm on his side, Moons just fucking suck. Yes, even Ash. He's an excpetion for the most part, and he is amazing but not perfect and thats how people are. But I cant stand how he listened to Eclipse opening himself up and talking about his trauma and being so vulnerable, and retorted back with basically "I dont give a shit if you've been through so much i couldn't even imagine, I want an apology because you hurt my feelings" because yeah while its true I don't give ONE FUCK because that's is the worst fucking time for him to say that

Go fuck yourself Ash. God i can't even- i need to calm down Im just so pissed off. Moons in this how are passing me off. Old moon. Ash. Nexus. I fucking hate all of them even though I like the concept. Yes, I said it, I hate Nexus, but only because of thsi fucking arc. "I'm evil now" oh fuck off you're a young ass edgy ai who needs therapy, go calm the fuck down and come back to this later we've all fucking been there. I've been there, ive been convinced I'm the scum of the earth and evil. Guess what? I wasn't. Like God damn i-

Chat i can't even

I cant even with this show. I cant even with this fandom. And the only way I'm still here are the good episodes, the aus, and the people I surround myself with. So thank you Zee. Thank you Alex and Chills and Polaris. You guys make this show actually worth it

Now excuse me as I get ready for bed

And of course, cause I know this probably will piss people off, well have a good old disclaimer

This is just my opinion. It is not for debate, I'm just venting. I am frustrated. I mean no ill intent to anyone but fiction characters. im just ranting

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Chat, chat-

Space must have been hell for Nexus

No sound, no smells. Darkness on all sides other than the stars. Most of all no sounds

It would be literal sensory deprivation. I genuinely feel so bad for him. God that must of been fucking awful

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Chat im so glad Nexus exists so I can shove all my insecurities and issues into him

Bitch is so fucked up but its okay <3

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"Oh I'm gonna make an au where every character has a complicated dynamic with every other character! It'll feel a lot more real and interesting!"

*now dying becuase fuck there are too many characters*

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Im struggling chat

Nsjejehdbb probably going to post more about this on my alt once I start talking more about the lore, eccpecially about Lord Eclipse's dimension cause- yknow, toxic relationships.

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Okay uhhh, basic lore-

(Im obsessed with drawing him rn cause idk anyone else's designs for sure yet-)

Okay, so rundown of my new au

Basically its about healing and toxic relationships and the morally grayness of reality-? In a roundabout way lmao

Literally tho, it's about Sun, Moon, Eclipse, and Earth (and Monty ig). Sun and Moon were never created together, instead the Creator made Moon and Earth originally and put them in the daycare. While he was making Sun, he messed up and accidentally made Ecliose. He let him stay with Moon and Earth for awhile, before forcing him away and making him live with him

He lived with the creator for awhile but soemthing happened and he realized how awful he was and he ran back to the daycare. Sun was there now and he was confused but quickly got a crush on him

Uhh some drama yada yada more drama yada yada some shadowplanet at the end

And uhh- yeah!

Probably going to write a fic cause have sonmuch lore that idk how to just explain

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Wnsiendjd working on a new au

Its not tsams, but its tsams adjacent-? Like im going to be using characters and things from it, and they are going to be in the general world of tsams with like different dimensions and stuff, but none of them are siblings other than Moon and Earth

Idk yall were balling

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I got bored

Uhhh- posing

Idk bro

Also the sketch lmao:

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Bloodmoon design!!!

Still need to draw them separated!!

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Ahhh yes, the "I Can Fix Them" au

Genuinely just a comfort au where I play with relationships and things. The actually story/plot of the au isn't too important. There is one tho!! Thats what this post is for, and for exploring some of the relationships in the au!

The au mostly follows Canon up until around Solar being brought back (though there is already kind of an established qpr between solar and Nexus that was disrupted by solar's death and Nexus becoming a villain, but yknow-)

After Solar is brought back, immediately is worried about Nexus. He ends up getting closer with Moon, but he is working on a way to help Nexus. 

He does end up finding him. But he can tell something is wrong as he talks to him, and nothing he says helps. So, he starts panicking, and does the one thing he can think of: kisses him.

AND IT WORKS?? (True loves kiss lmao)

no one knows how to this day, but for some reason the virus in Nexus just breaks when he kisses him and Nexus is free. Of course he feels so so bad for everything he did, and cries for awhile in Solar's arms till he passes out. Solar takes him home, and the family is very apprehensive of Nexus being back in the family, but they eventually warm back up to him (starting with Sun). Moon hates him still, though him and Solar are friends. Soemthing Nexus HATES, but it's mutual because Moon hate state Solar and Nexus are now dating (how yeah and they started dating)

On top of this, but Eclipse has to move out of the dimension because of Solar. So he goes to another dimension and moves into an apartment with Puppet and works as security for a small fazbear's pizza (yeah were saying fuck you to eaps i don't have the energy to watch it 😔)

Nexus and Solar are grateful for bringing Solar back. Nexus visits him quite a bit, ectopically cause he was the one who talked Earth into forgiving Nexus, so he's even more grateful. The two end up getting close, and Solar and Eclipse exchange letters a lot. But they can't actually see each other.

Solar and Nexus realizing they're both falling for Eclipse.

Yada yada it all ends up fine and Eclipse gets a new signature and they all can kiss now 👍

They are all healing and things, cause oh my god they're all SO FUCKED UPPPP

There's also probably stuff going on with Dark Sun, I havnt gotten that far yet. Idk what happens to him after Nexus is save.d he probably just disappears for awhile and Nexus jumps every time he sees Sun, because he was abused a lot by Dark Sun.

Nexus honestly isn't that close with Sun, less than before. Moon doesn't want him around Sun, and Nexus doesn't like looking at him because it makes him think of Dark Sun.

Monty dies idgaf. Bitch dies, Moon realizes how much of a bitch he is and hat he isn't good for Earth and confronts him and Monty tries to fight him and Moon kills him. No more Monty <3 (second au I've killed off Monty now)

Lunar isn't the biggest fan of Nexus but he gives him a second chance. He hates that he's dating Eclipse tho.

Moon eventually starts warming up to Eclipse. And Nexus, though that takes longer.

Uh- Sun and Bloodmoon are in a qpr- yeah-

Qpr blood/sun:

They met after [insert dead brothers name here] died. The remaining bloodmoon brother was incredibly vulnerable and terrified without counterpart. Sun, against his better judgment, reached out with help to them. They were suspicious at first, but eventually accepted.

They grew closer and the twin practically became like a cat to Sunny. They slept in his bed with him, and was by his side often. The family repeatedly asked if they were dating, but they denied it each time, sometimes even seeming kind of grossed out by it. Cause they weren't dating, it was a lot more complicated than that

Eventually Eclipse helps and they figure out how to bring back the dead twin. They Are… unsure, at first. So much as changed since they're death, and him and their twin were still separated… and the person who killed their original virus was so close with their brother? It was an uncomfortable situation, but they ended up becoming comfortable with it too, though wasn't as docile as their counterpart, much more talkative, talking for their twin usually

Eclipse/solar/nexus:

If you know you know. I won't say more here, but-

https://www.tumblr.com/that-starry-freak/760369555440861184/okay-wow-uhm-this-is-my-rant-about-eclipse-x?source=share

Solar and Moon:

God they're beasties. Bffs. It makes Nexus really insecure, but they're still friends. They talk about their Suns and their inventions and things. Sometimes they'll just quietly work together cause they're both bad at talking

They mostly avoid the topic of Nexus and Eclipse cause Moon can't stand them, but once Moon accidentally slipped an insult/a bit of shit talking and Solar just snapped. And yelled at Moon about how he should empathize with Nexus. He stormed off after. 

Later he tried to anxiously apologize to Moon but he just reassure him that he was right, and tried his best to give Nexus a bit more of a 2nd chance

Solar once, as a prank, painted an aroace flag on the entirety of one of the walls of Moon's room with washable paint. It took forever to get off and Moon made Solar do it. Eclipse was laughing the entire time both at the prank and his bf lmao.

Anyway yeah they're stupid antisocial nerd beasties

Silly and sad au

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Guys here me out

Masm Monty x Freddy (im on "monty vs glamrock freddy" rn)

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Thinking about Nexus and Eclipse dates, and how they're both kind of edgy and stupid <3

Like them going to a club and drinking a lot and laughing and dancing nad being idiots, and then Nexus feels sick so Eclipse holds his hat back for it while he throws up. And they go home after and drunkenly get ready for bed and cuddle and pass out

Or them staying home and just sitting outside, sharing a smoke and leaning against each other and talking for hours. And they get to low battery and the atmosphere just had such a lulling, soothing affect, and they just can't stop talking, spiling so much. Nexus taking Eclipse's hand at some point and smoothing his thumbs over it, and Eclipse barely notices. Neither of them even know when he did it.

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