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Okay uhhh, basic lore-

(Im obsessed with drawing him rn cause idk anyone else's designs for sure yet-)

Okay, so rundown of my new au

Basically its about healing and toxic relationships and the morally grayness of reality-? In a roundabout way lmao

Literally tho, it's about Sun, Moon, Eclipse, and Earth (and Monty ig). Sun and Moon were never created together, instead the Creator made Moon and Earth originally and put them in the daycare. While he was making Sun, he messed up and accidentally made Ecliose. He let him stay with Moon and Earth for awhile, before forcing him away and making him live with him

He lived with the creator for awhile but soemthing happened and he realized how awful he was and he ran back to the daycare. Sun was there now and he was confused but quickly got a crush on him

Uhh some drama yada yada more drama yada yada some shadowplanet at the end

And uhh- yeah!

Probably going to write a fic cause have sonmuch lore that idk how to just explain

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Wnsiendjd working on a new au

Its not tsams, but its tsams adjacent-? Like im going to be using characters and things from it, and they are going to be in the general world of tsams with like different dimensions and stuff, but none of them are siblings other than Moon and Earth

Idk yall were balling

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I got bored

Uhhh- posing

Idk bro

Also the sketch lmao:

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Bloodmoon design!!!

Still need to draw them separated!!

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Ahhh yes, the "I Can Fix Them" au

Genuinely just a comfort au where I play with relationships and things. The actually story/plot of the au isn't too important. There is one tho!! Thats what this post is for, and for exploring some of the relationships in the au!

The au mostly follows Canon up until around Solar being brought back (though there is already kind of an established qpr between solar and Nexus that was disrupted by solar's death and Nexus becoming a villain, but yknow-)

After Solar is brought back, immediately is worried about Nexus. He ends up getting closer with Moon, but he is working on a way to help Nexus. 

He does end up finding him. But he can tell something is wrong as he talks to him, and nothing he says helps. So, he starts panicking, and does the one thing he can think of: kisses him.

AND IT WORKS?? (True loves kiss lmao)

no one knows how to this day, but for some reason the virus in Nexus just breaks when he kisses him and Nexus is free. Of course he feels so so bad for everything he did, and cries for awhile in Solar's arms till he passes out. Solar takes him home, and the family is very apprehensive of Nexus being back in the family, but they eventually warm back up to him (starting with Sun). Moon hates him still, though him and Solar are friends. Soemthing Nexus HATES, but it's mutual because Moon hate state Solar and Nexus are now dating (how yeah and they started dating)

On top of this, but Eclipse has to move out of the dimension because of Solar. So he goes to another dimension and moves into an apartment with Puppet and works as security for a small fazbear's pizza (yeah were saying fuck you to eaps i don't have the energy to watch it 😔)

Nexus and Solar are grateful for bringing Solar back. Nexus visits him quite a bit, ectopically cause he was the one who talked Earth into forgiving Nexus, so he's even more grateful. The two end up getting close, and Solar and Eclipse exchange letters a lot. But they can't actually see each other.

Solar and Nexus realizing they're both falling for Eclipse.

Yada yada it all ends up fine and Eclipse gets a new signature and they all can kiss now 👍

They are all healing and things, cause oh my god they're all SO FUCKED UPPPP

There's also probably stuff going on with Dark Sun, I havnt gotten that far yet. Idk what happens to him after Nexus is save.d he probably just disappears for awhile and Nexus jumps every time he sees Sun, because he was abused a lot by Dark Sun.

Nexus honestly isn't that close with Sun, less than before. Moon doesn't want him around Sun, and Nexus doesn't like looking at him because it makes him think of Dark Sun.

Monty dies idgaf. Bitch dies, Moon realizes how much of a bitch he is and hat he isn't good for Earth and confronts him and Monty tries to fight him and Moon kills him. No more Monty <3 (second au I've killed off Monty now)

Lunar isn't the biggest fan of Nexus but he gives him a second chance. He hates that he's dating Eclipse tho.

Moon eventually starts warming up to Eclipse. And Nexus, though that takes longer.

Uh- Sun and Bloodmoon are in a qpr- yeah-

Qpr blood/sun:

They met after [insert dead brothers name here] died. The remaining bloodmoon brother was incredibly vulnerable and terrified without counterpart. Sun, against his better judgment, reached out with help to them. They were suspicious at first, but eventually accepted.

They grew closer and the twin practically became like a cat to Sunny. They slept in his bed with him, and was by his side often. The family repeatedly asked if they were dating, but they denied it each time, sometimes even seeming kind of grossed out by it. Cause they weren't dating, it was a lot more complicated than that

Eventually Eclipse helps and they figure out how to bring back the dead twin. They Are… unsure, at first. So much as changed since they're death, and him and their twin were still separated… and the person who killed their original virus was so close with their brother? It was an uncomfortable situation, but they ended up becoming comfortable with it too, though wasn't as docile as their counterpart, much more talkative, talking for their twin usually

Eclipse/solar/nexus:

If you know you know. I won't say more here, but-

https://www.tumblr.com/that-starry-freak/760369555440861184/okay-wow-uhm-this-is-my-rant-about-eclipse-x?source=share

Solar and Moon:

God they're beasties. Bffs. It makes Nexus really insecure, but they're still friends. They talk about their Suns and their inventions and things. Sometimes they'll just quietly work together cause they're both bad at talking

They mostly avoid the topic of Nexus and Eclipse cause Moon can't stand them, but once Moon accidentally slipped an insult/a bit of shit talking and Solar just snapped. And yelled at Moon about how he should empathize with Nexus. He stormed off after. 

Later he tried to anxiously apologize to Moon but he just reassure him that he was right, and tried his best to give Nexus a bit more of a 2nd chance

Solar once, as a prank, painted an aroace flag on the entirety of one of the walls of Moon's room with washable paint. It took forever to get off and Moon made Solar do it. Eclipse was laughing the entire time both at the prank and his bf lmao.

Anyway yeah they're stupid antisocial nerd beasties

Silly and sad au

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Guys here me out

Masm Monty x Freddy (im on "monty vs glamrock freddy" rn)

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Thinking about Nexus and Eclipse dates, and how they're both kind of edgy and stupid <3

Like them going to a club and drinking a lot and laughing and dancing nad being idiots, and then Nexus feels sick so Eclipse holds his hat back for it while he throws up. And they go home after and drunkenly get ready for bed and cuddle and pass out

Or them staying home and just sitting outside, sharing a smoke and leaning against each other and talking for hours. And they get to low battery and the atmosphere just had such a lulling, soothing affect, and they just can't stop talking, spiling so much. Nexus taking Eclipse's hand at some point and smoothing his thumbs over it, and Eclipse barely notices. Neither of them even know when he did it.

Neidnjdnsjs

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Guys I'm cooking

(Im not im trying but I only have a little over 300 words. Augh why is writing so hard-)

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Would it be okay to ship my oc Aeolus with your nexus version? 👉👈👀.

This isn’t my art by the way- I asked someone to make fanart of them

ANYWAY, Basic info on them:

They are daycare attendant and theatre performer made from fazbear that wanted to make more money by adding a new animatronic.

They’re bigender, pronouns are she/he but mostly uses they/them

Their personality is kinda split, usually they seem gentle and awkward around people, plus they’re generally quite and they’re tone is very soft spoken but they’re also compassionate and friendly if they warm up enough. But don’t judge a book by its cover, when they perform they are a completely different person. They act all confident and show off their skills and become very alluring. They are fruity performer more than ruin-I mean *AHEM* They just don’t show it oftentimes when they are around people mostly because they’re too weak and insecure. They can be out of touch with their own feelings while they’re being overly sensitive at the same time.

They have a pretty aggressive side to them that ONLY gets triggered when you threaten their friends/family/partners. They are soft but do NOT get on their bad side.

They are intelligent and oftentimes they don’t acknowledge it sometimes but they are very honest and direct, speaks their mind and tends to see both sides of arguments. They are mostly just trying to keep peace and harmony but sometimes it’s hard to maintain balance. They’re so insecure and scared and they don’t know how to handle situations appropriately so they often feel stuck,,

They have many fears. Like A LOT of fears and mental health issues. Mostly they have anxiety, inner self doubt, and negative self image. They constantly fear and worry about what others think and sometimes they can low self esteem.

They are considered a family friend in tsams. They were a stranger to celestial family at first but they got use to them and now they gotten really close together, Nexus specifically. Aeolus and Nexus have a causal relationship, it’s not always perfect at first because Aeolus is socially awkward and is terrible at communicating and Nexus is still trying to discover himself and not very used to romantic relationships but they openly warm up to each other company and soon or later it blossoms.

SORRY this took forever I wanted to draw them and I didn't have the energy to lmao

Its giving the bride and the ugly ass groom

I loved draw Aeolus omg- they're so pretty-

Nexus's gay ass would be insane

My Nexus version already has 2 bfs but honestly I wouldn't put it past him to want to date Aelous too. They're so pretty

Also traditional one cause I had to sketch trying to draw them before I actually did

Im like obsessed with drawing Aeolus even tho its so complicated. Ansehssns

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God hes so pretty I fucking hate him

Blows him up with mind (he's a terrible person)

Im trying to think about the Save Me au but things just arnt clicking, I can't make decisions. Augh

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Au things!!

Different Eclipses meeting, and my different sun au designs

Tdsp Eclipse is aroace and (Relo Eclipse) Solstice is dating a Servant Sun, so he's understandably grossed out-

SM (my insane servant sun x kidnapped eclipse) Eclipse is uncomfortable as ICFT (my Eclipse x Solar x Nexus au thing) Eclipse is asking him about his yellow ribbon collar thing from Sun.

I think if all the suns met, TDSP and ICFT would just talk about how annoying it is to see their Nexuses dating Eclipses, while Relo would gush about Solstice, grossing the two out. And then HM would say something about killing his Eclipse and kidnapping another and then they'd all go quiet-

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God I love my aus- i should rant about all of them

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Okay, wow, uhm-

This is my rant about Eclipse x Solar x Nexus i keep saying ill do. Sooo- yeah. If you don't like it, just scroll. Or block me i don't give a shit- im just ranting about what I like *shrug* (btw this is 95% for/about my tol au, so-)

Cw i do mention abuse a few times, because of Solar's Moon, dark sun, etc.

God i love these three so much. There's just so much potential, both angst and fluff (and a bit of smut but that stays in my head that is NOT going on my blog)

Like Solar and Nexus are both such needs and idiots. They both stay up late working, and insist the other one goes to bed (Eclipse ends up having to drag them both to bed).

They love working on projects together. People arnt usually allowed int he workshop when their working together, because if they have each other they don't need anyone else to help or anything- but they let Eclipse in once, and he got to see how they danced around each other and worked together perfectly.

They're all nerds who love science and mechanics tbh, but they all like it in different ways. Solar likes the hard work, the mindlessly fixing things. He liked the manual labour, the more mechanics of it. Nexus loved the science. He loves asking questions and learning knew things. He loves questioning things and people. He likes building and creating and testing out code. Eclipse likes the results. He doesn't particularly enjoy coding and building, it makes him frustrated, but he loves the results. He likes having a job well done. And getting to enjoy whatever the product is, whether its a computer or a basic machine.

Eclipse and Nexus can also understand each other. They can understand the expectation of who you're supposed to be. To be a remake of someone dead, but not really being them. Yet everyone expects you too. They've spent long nights sharing a smoke and ranting about how unfair it is. About how they weren't v1 Eclipse, or Moon. That they were themselves, and it wasn't fair people pressured them into being their predecessors.

Solar and Eclipse can understand what its like to be an eclipse. To come into this world with Moons hating you. To be called vile, to have a Moon laugh in your face. They may not have always liked each other, but they understand each other, its one of the reasons they became close.

Nexus can also help them both heal from their trauma of Moons. Plus, he isn't really Moon. Sure, he is a moon, coming from he dame basic code. But he isn't an old Moon. He's kinder, he doesn't blow up as easily. Its reassuring to them both, being treated so kindly to someone who pretty much abused them both (Eclipse didn't deserve how Old moon treated him when he came into this world.)

Eclipse and Nexus also know what its like to be left behind. Eclispe knows what its like to be left behind by Moon, to be a piece of code that he doesn't care about. Nexus knows what its like to hurt people and lose them. Yes, its different, but that doesn't mean they can't empathize with each others pain, because it is similar in a way.

solar and Nexus can understand each other's pain of losing someone you care about deeply. Of blaming yourself for their death. Of course. They dealt with it much differently, but still-

Eclipse and Solar both knowing what its like to die, comforting each other, reassuring them that they're still here. That they're alive. That they're them.

Enough about what they have in common tho-

like oh my goddd. I have so many thoughts bro-

Eclipse smells like cigarettes and leather and faintly of the vanilla candles Puppet lights in their apartment. Solar smells like grease and oil and sometimes chemicals when he cleans himself off (and then is forced to take an actual shower by Eclipse because cleaning yourself with harsh chemicals every time cant be good for your casing). Nexus smells like lavender (because thats the scent of the detegerant Sun always washes their clothes with) and faintly of bleach (consequences of living in the same house as Sun) and grease a lot after he's been working. The other twos smells are comforting to all three of them, reminding them that they're safe and content. Nexus eccpecially loves wearing Solar's clothes, and loves being in his arms, reminding him that he's alive. Thats he's right here. That everything is going to be okay.

And oh my god don't get me started on the forbidden love. The fact that Eclipse and Solar can't be in the same dimension till Eclispe gets a new dimensional signal. Solar and Nexus both crushing on Eclipse, but Nexus is the only one that can actually see them both, having to pass messages between the two. Of course they do eventually get to see each other again, but for so long they won't be able to. Its just.. sad

And AUGH im always going to be insane over rmy true loves kiss idea. The idea of Solar kissing Nexus out of desperation, because nothing he says can get through to him and ohmygod he's panicking- and somehow the virus he has just disappearing. The kiss curing Nexus, and bringing him back to his senses. And oh my god, the chaos and angst that follows. Nexus sobbing becuase of what he's done, feeling so guilty. The family not wanting to accept him back, Moon being the worst one-

Solar and Eclipse being the first ones to accept him. Later being Sun, Earth, and then Lunar. Maybe one day Moon, but thats a day far in the future.

And auggh, Solar and Moon's friendship. Moon hating his boyfriends but midly tolerating them for Solar's sake. Solar aclimating him to Eclipses, and he starts tolerating him a bit more. Hearing him say so many good things about Nexus makes him hate him more, though, insecure about Nexus being back in the family. Afraid of being replace.

Sleaking of being replaced, Nexus feeling like he's replaceable. That he's disposable. That one wrong move and he'll be thrown out again. Solar reassuring him that even if he is hell go with him. That he refuses to let Nexus be completley abandoned and manipulated again.

And god, all three of them have such communication, trust, and attachment issues-

Solar feels like he has to be useful to be loved. That he has to prove himself. That he could also be thrown out of the family because he's not from this dimension. He's afraid of being a burden. He's afraid that if he complains he'll be seen as a nuisance. That he doesn't deserve help or to get anything, that he barely deserves the celestial family as it is even if he does so much for them.

Nexus also feels like he has to be useful. That if he isn't, what is he for? What was his purpose if he can't help? He compares himself to Moon a lot, feeling like he has to match up to his standards, even if they're impossible. Moon has years and years of experience on him- he also struggles to talk about his own feelings. He bottled them up so much because he felt like they were stupid that he just doesn't know how to talk about them. The only time he can is in the middle of the night, and is usually with Eclipse. Solar will try to comfort him and almost baby him when he tries to rant to him, Eclipse will just complain and rant right back though, and he prefers it.

Eclipse didn't really ever have any healthy relationships. He's used to pushing people away and bottling all his feelings up. To lashing out at people. Yes, this version is much calmer, but he still has the memories of the ones before him. Hes still used to that being what Eclipses in this dimension did. He doesn't know how to talk to people. Earth helped him open up though, and Solar and Nexus helped him more. He's a lot calmer now, and it helps that they both enjoy listening to him rant. Solar will listen to him and gives advice, while Nexus will just complain with him in the middle of the night. He loves both, though it depends on the situation for what he wants to do.

Their relationship isn't perfect, though. Nexus will still sometimes yell and freak Solar out, and he has to frantically apologize while Eclipse calms him down. Eclispe sometimes will push them away, and will sometimes use their insecurities and trauma against them when hes frustrated eith them. Solar refuses to talk about his own issues, and it worried the other two to no end. Nexus sometimes will hit himself or bite himself to the point of denting his casing when he's frustrated or having a breakdown, not wanting to lash out at anyone, and this worries the other two so much but there's nothing they can really do to stop it, just comforting Nexus the best they can and restraining him when they see him doing it. Eclipse will be rude to Nexus, treating him like Moon, and they'll get into fights about it that they both always regret later.

The hallucinations Nexus suffers from also doesn't end. He still sees Solar telling him he isn't proud of him. He sometimes gets vivid hallucinations that Solar is still dead.

They also all suffer from horrific nightmares

Solar dreaming that he's still in his original dimension. That he's still being abused by his Moon. That he still has no one to love him. He has nightmares that he's still dead, that Nexus never got better. He has nightmares that he ends up like Eclipse, that he hurts people. He has nightmares that the family shuns him and kicks him out. He has nightmares that old moon shows up at his dimension again and he can't stop him this time, and he hurts him and everyone he loves.

Nexus dreaming of Solar still dead. Nexus having nightmares that he actually killed his family. He has nightmares that he's still under Dark Sun's control. He has nightmares that he never was saved from space. He has nightmares of Eclipse betraying and killing him, never having truly gone good. He has nightmares that the family kicks him out for not living up to their expectation, for not being good as moon.

Eclipse dreaming of Moon. Nightmares of Bloodmoon torturing him, of Moon hurting him, of Lunar killing him again. Nightmares of him betraying everyone, even though that's the last thing he wants to do. Nightmare of Earth hating him, of Solar an Nexus hating him.

They often have to comfort each other from these night terrors, holding them close as cooing to the and rocking them.

Solar panics and sobs when he wakes up from one, but refuses to talk about it. He shuts down once when calms down, and often gets up in the middle of the night after to mindlessly do work to get his mind off of it.

Nexus wakes up screaming and crying and often hallucinating. He ususally has to be restrained so he doesn't accidentally hurthimself. He always feels bad about it after, and just wants to cuddle and feel loved, reminding himself that his partners are here and they're real.

Eclipse wakes up in a cold sweat, quiet. Hell just sit there for awhile, before getting up to take a cold shower to clear his mind.

they all overwork themselves, Solar and Nexus eccpecially-

solar because he needs to feel useful. Also because working helps him not think, it helps him "relax", even if it stresses him out more.

Nexus because he'll get so caught up in what he's doing. He'll start working at like noon and he'll zone out and suddenly its midnight and Eclipse and Solar are coming down to drag him away from his lab. Or Sun, sometimes sun has to come after him.

They're just so sad and gay and such a polycule i love them <3

Im so normal about them, clearly (im sorry this is too long im not going to go through this and edit rn- there probaly really a lot of grammar errors and typing errors and spelling errors but im tired soo-)

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Non-stop from Hamilton is kind of like Eclipse (burr) and Moon (hamilton)

Though the excitement from Moon is more Nexus

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going insane

I love this poor traumatized man. He just wants to see his bfs but instead he's all trapped <3

This is the Eclipse design for my au where he was exploring dimensions and found a dimension where a servant sun snapped and killed his Eclispe, and the wither storm ended up killing the rest of the world so he's the only one left. And he traps Eclipse because he's lonley. Its kind of a really dark au- I've like purposely not thought too hard about it because the kind of vibe I have for this au makes me sick <3

Eventually tho he does get to go home and his bfs (nexus and solar) help him heal

Also!! The crack in his ray was an accident from Nexus, and he refuses to let Sun fix it because he wants that memory of Nexus. Even if it kind of hurts to touch and aches a lot

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Yes!! Yesyesyes!!

Its from the star! When he brought his family back, he held it in his hands and clutched it to his chest, causing the star to make marks there. His use of the star is also why his eye looks like that.

Also, because he brought his family back using the star, they also all have marks on them!

(Second part was sun and moon redesigns)

Earth got it on her hands, Lunar on his forehead, and Moon on his face

I forgot to post this when I made it-

Silly little guy. Relo au Sun!

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I forgot to post this when I made it-

Silly little guy. Relo au Sun!

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I can finally draw Sunset and Nexus together!!!

Yippie

Should probaly color it, but yknow