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"You're not 17 anymore you can't do those things with your hair." "Don't you want to be taken seriously."

No not really. I want something new i want to feel good inside my skin again, i so rarely feel like i can even call myself me. I want to be authentically myself in all aspects but when I weight the consequences or possibilities I get freaked out. It's not the best or worst that could happen its that in between of job rejections, pearl clutching, and the way my appearance can affect others wanting to learn or get to know me. I'm okay with being different and strange looking scary but unapproachable scary doesnt feel good. I try to be kind to everyone and to be denied that because of how i dress or my hair is depressing. Sometimes I don't know if its my discernment or the fear of not having it becoming overthinking that is this wrench. Hair is not a small feat when you add on layers of personal and perceived identity. My aunt tells me outside doesn't matter much if you're not looking in to figure out why do you want to look radical or when others want gender affirming things. But there's not always a because that's some deep revelation about society and *speaker voice* why do we care about what society labels us so we shouldn't need to change ourselves and should be happy as we are. Or connecting to the ancestors thought logic even though being black, hair is deeper than just hair often. If I say I want to, it doesn't always have an explanation. Simply it looks cool, it's less weight on my head, and I want it. I've wanted to be bald since I was like 7 and I saw The fifth element and the character had a cool dragon tattoo on their dome. Always loved alternative things and hell I was like 11 reading piercing magazines in the library or Barnes and noble alongside teen vogue. But once i left college that suddenly stopped being okay and now im constantly told im stuck in college mode for daring to be different or resisting any pressure to be one way. It may be normalized to manage one's outside expression of self to just get through the day but it sure doesn't feel good.

"I really want a skullet."

#hair

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Fka Twigs in her eusexua era.

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cat I drew for a tablet review that I had to post all over my other social medias n I'm an embarassed sellout

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Aisha aftonsparv

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alien cats 💚‼️

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little starlight dreamer ✨️

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I mean this without a hint of irony: this throwaway line from the Neopedia about Fyora doing money embezzling to help pay for her burrito addiction is more characterization than she's had in the last 10 years

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Normal Neopets players: so what are your Food Club bets for today? I'm thinking Tailhook but IDK

Neopets players that are invested in the lore: King Skarl should be assassinated

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aftercare :)

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End of the Chase

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“I’ll take care of you. Come, let me comfort you”

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Lost in harmony

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Harrison Wood Hsiang