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reblog for good luck!

so basically i was shopping with my mum because i have no friends and i needed new shorts for summer. i found the type that i liked and i grabbed them in a size 34. bitch guess what. they were so big, my mum had to bring me a size 25 and they’re still big on my waist. AND I THOUGHT THAT I GAINED WEIGHT (haha- BITCH YOU THOUGHT). i felt so blessed omg. also some thinspo so the luck would follow me and u even further

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Do I really need to have this much fat on my inner thighs? Is that necessary?

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white thinspo🌻

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me: I’M GONNA GET BETTER

me, 2 mins later: nevermind let me die

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Need more ana blogs to follow!

Reblog if you qualify any of these:

💜 You're an active blog !!

💛 You're 17-21 years old

💜 Your sw is 70kgs/154 or higher

💛 Your height is under 5'5

💜 You live with your parents/not alone

💛 You're down for an ana buddy

I normally follow back any ED pages, but reblog this and I'll follow you ✨

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I’m going to be thin for 2020

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Discord server!!

Helloooo.. I have an ED centered discord server and it’s been dead for a while since my last tumblr got deleted so I’m trying to get it hyped again.

Here is a little bit of the chats there are. I’m really trying to get it active again. So please join! If you wanna join either dm me and I’ll give you a link or you can reblog this for the link!!

It’s a really nice community to make you feel welcome and so you’re able to make friends!!

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6/6/19

I’m such a failure....I can’t stop the urges to binge...I always end binging...I need to regain my discipline...maybe making rules will work

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03/06/19

First day of relapse. 

I just can’t stand it anymore, i need to starve myself, i need to restric, i need to control. I’m going hard this time, just finished my scholl year, so I’ll have all morning to exercise and go for long walks on afternoons. I’m going to make a list of safe foods / snacks and try to write calories of every thing. I’ll update weight and measurements on monday.

Weight: 84.2 kg

Measurements:

Bust: 108

Waist:105

Hip:118

Thighs:71(L) - 70(R)

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FOOD RULES 💜

💜 never eat alone

💜 max 1200 calories a day

💜 eat only when really really hungry

💜 spray rice water on my hair - to make it grow faster

💜 don’t binge

💜drink 2-3 litres of water per day

💜 measure my waist, thighs, arms and hips every week

💜 weigh myself every week or everyday

APPEREANCE RULES

💄 shave my body every week

💄 apply lashes conditioner

💄 dress nicely

💄 make face masks every week

💄get eyebrows done every week

💄always have nice nails

MENTAL HEALTH RULES

⭐️ don’t hate yourself, think positive

⭐️ when the depression kicks in, make a day for yourself (home spa, listen to some music, read a book, chill out)

⭐️ don’t overthink too much

⭐️ try to tell yourself you’re beautiful and you’ll find some friends eventually

⭐️ try not to stress about everything

SCHOOL - EDUCATION RULES

📚 Don’t skip classes anymore

📚 Don’t skip internship anymore

📚 Try to study (I never study :().

📚 Make your homework

📚 Keep your school stuff clean and neat + organised

💗PERSONAL RULES 💗

⭐️ draw something at least 3 times a week (I want to make tattoos in future but I suck at drawing)

⭐️ get better at doing make up

⭐️ visit the library at least 2 times a week

⭐️ find some friends

⭐️ save money

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How to be perfect

School

Study for at least an hour every night

Never show up late

Talk to everyone that you can without being rude

Always thank your teachers after class and when they help you

Hand in all assignments on time

Pay attention in class

Home

Keep your room clean. And if it is messy, then get rid of the rubbish.

Always rinse your own dishes.

Turn the lights and tv off when you leave the room.

Appearance

Wear little makeup to keep your natural appearance.

Wash your clothes in between wearing them.

Keep eyebrows neat and plucked

Hair always brushed and tidy

Use chapstick to stop lips from being chapped

Wear what you’re comfortable in

Exercise

Go to the gym 3-4 times a week

Little muscle building

Cardio is key

Running

Running

Running

Ab workouts at home (sit ups, leg lifts, planks, etc.)

Jumping jacks

Diet

Never go over 1200 calories

Eat little sugar

Have less carbs than anything else

Fibre is very important

Green tea 🍵

Only eat fast food around family, friends or significant others. This is also when you can eat whatever. It can boost metabolism and makes your friends less suspicious and lets you feel okay about eating.

Hygiene

Shower once every day

Wash hair every other day

Brush teeth twice a day and before you leave the house

Wash face when you wake up and before you go out

Shave legs 3-4 times a week

Sleep

In bed by 10

Asleep by 11:30

Wake up by 9 in the morning. 6 on school days.

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Here’s a cute little thing I made (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

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NAME A MORE FRUSTRATING THING THAN WANTING TO EAT, BUT THEN THINKING ABOUT ALL THE BAD STUFF THAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU DO, BUT STILL WANTING TO EAT AND ROAMING AROUND YOUR KITCHEN LOOKING AT ALL THE FOOD YOU COULD HAVE WHILE CRYING BECAUSE YOU CAN’T EAT ANY OF IT.

or just me…?

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Rqequested by anon : pastel thinspo

Don’t forget to send me your requests

Stay safe xxxxxxx

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PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you