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six weeks post top surgery - i went for a run for the first time in 4 years. 

i used to run nearly every day. from around middle school to the middle of my time at uni i ran almost daily. i rarely missed it. i ran on roads, trails, the track, and almost always with my dog. he’s gone now, but he was my favorite running and adventuring company.

as my dysphoria worsened, running got harder. it brought me too close to my body. made me too aware. i couldn’t bear to do this thing i loved so much. at some point, i stopped running altogether. i found other ways to be active, but i just couldn’t run.

i ran today. not very far, and with a pause to cry and celebrate and catch my breath, but i ran. my body isn’t a cage anymore. i feel at home here now. i belong here.

i ran to the woods, and followed a trail that leads to a gorgeous overlook. i stopped there and i looked out at the mountains and the golden autumn sunlight on leaves, and i hugged myself and i cried and expressed my gratitude to the wind and the trees. i was always meant to be this way.

i wore a tshirt and cargo shorts and sunflower socks with the sneakers i hadn’t worn in 4 years. i used to have a small supply of running clothes. i’m not sure where they went, but this will do for now.

trans joy is important. it is essential. don’t give up on it. please. it’s worth it.      

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“in my slut era” and i look like this

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How it feels to be autistic and work customer service

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this is the most horrifying thing I’ve ever seen jesus fucking christ

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Miku from Boston

alt titles: Jermiku, jermsune miku, why???, miku its your birthday today.

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logan's two little hair tufts make him look like a meow meow :)

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watching The Boys gives you the same feeling as having a cold

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hey remember when i said that deadpool and wolverine was like pride and prejudice but they’re shitty and smelly and covered in blood

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Now what the fuck is this?

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Feels like my phone is going to blow up thanks to the large ammount of ads in those recepie websites

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I wish you could just block acc on youtube

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Please save the pure creature

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Imagine us fighting the 2014 tumblr softgrunge wall kids who would win

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UGH SOMEBODY SEDATE ME