ddarwen

[ddarwen]

How do you tell

How do you tell someone That you love them so? But how does one know If it's really love then? It's easy to tell someone You love them When he is your brother Who has always been there It's easy to tell someone You love them When she is your sister Who lived all the way in America It's easy to tell someone You love them When she's your mother Whom you lived and taken care of all your life But how do you tell someone You love them When it's only months That you've known them How do you tell someone They feel like home When you're near them And feel safe with them even for awhile How do you tell someone That they're the lightness to your heart And their presence alone Melts all that was hard How do you tell someone That their voice alone brings a smile to your face And their smile Simply makes your world seem right in place How do you tell someone That they're the one The one person you suddenly see a future with Waking up and going through the stresses of life each day beside them How do you tell someone All these When at the same time you're so afraid That you'll lose them in the end

-Fidz *written on 17 August 2024

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Stepping back version 2

I know the things I say And the questions I ask May seem silly to you Honestly, I often don't even know why I do that too I hate it when we are like this When there's this drift between us I know you say you're cold Not so long you must hold I want things as before And not this nasty draft You my Habibi, am I still your Mawlana? Can together we laugh? I miss our texts I miss our talks I even miss Seeing you in your thoughts I know almost a week has passed Perhaps I shouldn't ask But I don't quite understand now This step back that you've asked Step back from what I would like to know From the hugs and kisses? Which I miss though I know deep down Walking away was wrong But crying me was weak And I felt frowned upon Apologise again Mr Ahmed, I must to thee Forgive me again Mrs Ahmed plea -Fidz

*written on 10 September 2024

[ddarwen]

Stepping Back

I hate it when we are like this When there's this drift between us i know you say you're cold And I hope it'll pass

I know the things I say And the questions I ask May seem silly to you Honestly, I don't even know why I had to ask

I know a week has passed Perhaps I shouldn't ask But I don't quite understand now This step back that you've asked

I want things as before And not this nasty draft You my Habibi and I your Mawlana Together we laugh

Step back from what I would like to know Coz it's breaking my heart That I know for sure -Fidz *written on 31 July 2024

[ddarwen]

Am Not Him

Your words were a mirror, reflecting a face that's not mine.

A label that cut like a knife, a weight that pressed upon my chest.

I felt erased, like my identity was lost in the jest.

In that moment, I felt like I was living someone else' rout.

But I know who I am, a soul that's unique and true.

Who would not do unto you as he did me.

The pain upon my chest, and a shattered heart.

Your comparison was a test, one that I'll rise above, anew.

Just so you know the difference that I am not him not even a few.

[ddarwen]

A wish

A prayer

A hope

For us to be together

Now and forever more

In this life and the next

-Fidz

- written on 2 July 2023

[ddarwen]

Apricot Couscous Chicken Salad

[ddarwen]

Wanting you

I walked pass the place that we first met

And a rush of memories washed over me

Evading every pore of my being

Bringing me to that exact moment.

The tight bear hug when we embraced that first time

The smell of your cologne lingered on me

As you went to get drinks

I knew then that I wanted you

Listening to you speak

About what’s dear to you

And showing me all the pics

As you reached out your hand

When we were leaving

Though it was our first then

It was so natural for me to reach and have my hands in yours, feeling the calloused hands for the first time that actually brought warmth to my core

Comfort by your presence

I knew I wanted you

When you asked if you could kiss me

I knew I wanted you more when our lips met

Too fast it may be

But you’ve got me

Got me wanting

Hopefully, to be your forevermore

[ddarwen]

Am so full from dinner! https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp4_TjShmdep7NALb4FSSZHmzPzas3lqgo6EPQ0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[ddarwen]

Tired

I’m tired

I’m tired of being someone’s side chick

I’m tired of being someone’s secret

I’m tired of being someone’s second choice

I’m tired of being nothing and unworthy to someone

I’m tired of being lied to

I’m tired of being cheated on

I’m tired of being put down and told off for something that they did and not offering the slightest remorse

I’m tired of being the punching bag of words

I’m tired of feeling the love to only see it fade

I’m tired of having the hope

I’m tired of thinking that I’m going to be the one only to end up being not

I’m tired of being played

I’m tired of looking

I’m tired of searching

I’m tired

Just very tired.

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Dinner @pestlemortarsociety https://www.instagram.com/p/CpnDaEZBnkoN7DU3K0lNoiOezlMQVkHLxuAg0g0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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My love for the #sky https://www.instagram.com/p/CpH1jRxOJW59Db1YX0GQP_bM6MFCBL7FX2f85Q0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Good morning from Bangkok! https://www.instagram.com/p/CpEDJk6BQnd09OHk6F_6vXtcXFEgR8hGPoq4Bk0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Rice pudding done! https://www.instagram.com/p/Co1HhPXBx9uP8_wna788VTZIxo7-y5o5b9P7Ms0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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A lovely lunch! https://www.instagram.com/p/CozI2LUONDJ9-0lLTQXUi8s4BoDDsrnpbAMnxg0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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The #sky is as cloudy as my heart. https://www.instagram.com/p/CoqZXjjhc7afZGqeBx98wAacq0jpPBIpnHd-pQ0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I was craving for boat noodles so had it for lunch with mum at The Original Boat Noodle in Bugis. https://www.instagram.com/p/Cohqo7ahY6MzfBC1UTyUdAs6_yKqdnHp7WtkKo0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=