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[darkpartsofmythoughts-noone]

I Wish

The one thing I want the most is to see you walk through that door, surprising me. But I know that’s a 1 in a million chances, traveling is expensive. How would you even know where I was? You don’t know my work schedule, don’t know where I work for that matter. You don’t have my address, so I know it will not happen, it is just wishful thinking. I wish I wish I wish to see you though. I miss you, I lost everything I loved after my mom passed. My friends, my home, YOU. My heart hurts daily and has not stopped hurting, my world was completely shaken up and it almost doesn’t seem to be real. 3 years and some odd months without you, I watched you through social media. You fell in love with someone else, had a daughter and I also watched you lose all of that. And my heart still broke for you, I wanted to see you happy. That’s all I have ever wished for you even if it wasn’t with me. But right now I wish to see you more than anything in the world, I love you, I will always love you.

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Why?

[darkpartsofmythoughts-noone]

I Will Never Know What This is Like

“I'm glad that it happened, I mean it

Between us, I think there's something special

And if I lose my mental, just hold my hand

Even if you don't understand,

No matter what you say or what you do

When I'm alone, I'd rather be with you

Fuck these other niggas, I'll be right by your side

Till 3005, hold up”

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I used to care what people thought, but now I care more.

Man, nobody out here's got it figured out.

So therefore, I've lost all hope of a happy ending

Depending on whether or not it's worth it.

So insecure, no one's perfect

Childish Gambino, 3005

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I did too

I fucking relapsed

[darkpartsofmythoughts-noone]

The Inevitable

Death is inevitable, we all know this. We know that everyone you have ever met will be dead one day. Wether young or old. So why are we shocked when someone dies? Is it because of the way they died? Shit happens. It’s a scary topic honestly.

[darkpartsofmythoughts-noone]

Mine is a fucking novel. So here it is.

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Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh

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Who gives a shit anymore

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“The air begins to feel a little thin As I start the car and then I begin To add the miles piled up behind me I barely feel a smile deep inside me And I begin to envy the headlights driving south I want to crack the door so I can just fall out” -Twenty Øne Piløts

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No one notices

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Now I just sit in silence

Twenty One Pilots

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The Dark Parts of My Thoughts

I’m fine, I just needed a place to let the dark parts of my thoughts out. They build up, it gets overwhelming. No one here knows who I am, I am no one here. That’s why I chose this. My depression is at an all time high, everyday hurts. And I can’t speak to anyone. Why? Because there is no one to talk to. Everyone has their own life and their own problems, why should I put that on someone? It doesn’t help, either way, even if I could turn to someone to talk to...I don’t have anyone like I said. It’s okay though. So I’ve bottled the shit up and I just need to get it out. Don’t worry, I’m fine tho..really?

[darkpartsofmythoughts-noone]

‪Everyone says happiness is a choice. I don’t choose to be completely alone and fucking depressed but here I am, if I could be happy I would be. But idk how to do that. I’m Falling down a hole that I cannot get out of. ‬

A hole I dug?