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"Neptune, you're a textbook narcissist!"

"Oh please... I am an exceptional narcissist, Sun."

More incorrect RWBY bc I'm bored and I've been rewatching community

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"look, I might be broke, desperate, and nearly homeless, but I still got one thing deep down inside that gives me power-"

*Glynda confiscates his glass of wine*

"-that was it. That was all I had."

-Qrow Branwen probably

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Loki in every Norse myth

Bonus:

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Oh gif no work

You listen to me and you listen good!

I LITERALLY DO NOT GIVE A SINGLE FUCK HOW YOU IDENTIFY YOURSELF AS!

I never have and I never will because it doesn't matter how you identify yourself. You are a good person! You are a sweet, kind and caring person. If if you want to use she/her pronouns then I am happy to accept you as my sister!

And let me tell you hun, it takes a damn strong person to decide to persevere after everything you have been through. And it takes an even stronger person to own up to it and try to mend things with themselves. I'll always be here for you

I love you hun.

Thank you And I’m sorry I didn’t mean to leave you on read Tbh I read this and teared up a little and just didn’t know what to say or how to respond I appreciate this so much, though And you know I feel the same Even if I’m on discord way more often than I am on here

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You listen to me and you listen good!

I LITERALLY DO NOT GIVE A SINGLE FUCK HOW YOU IDENTIFY YOURSELF AS!

I never have and I never will because it doesn't matter how you identify yourself. You are a good person! You are a sweet, kind and caring person. If if you want to use she/her pronouns then I am happy to accept you as my sister!

And let me tell you hun, it takes a damn strong person to decide to persevere after everything you have been through. And it takes an even stronger person to own up to it and try to mend things with themselves. I'll always be here for you

I love you hun.

Thank you And I’m sorry I didn’t mean to leave you on read Tbh I read this and teared up a little and just didn’t know what to say or how to respond I appreciate this so much, though And you know I feel the same Even if I’m on discord way more often than I am on here

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I’m rarely here, but I have amazing friends here that deserver the truth

There's so much that I need to say And truthfully I don't really know how to start I guess I should begin with the easiest confession I will be posting this to every major account I use so if this section isn't for you, then please, just keep reading Or don't, I'm not your mom But I want you all to know me, because I've spent almost a decade, now, trying to avoid relationships for fear of the pain, and later, fear of myself

So here's the first thing For my family and those who don't know I am a MtF transgender individual, and no, I didn't wait for pride month to announce it The timing just happened to work out I've been petrified of telling some of you, because I know how judgemental the family can be at times, and I wasn't sure who I could tell Honestly, very few of you already know this if we're blood related, but that changes today I am Olivia Rose Alexander I am your family, if you'll still have me But who I am is not up for debate I've spent almost 15 years questioning myself and struggling to find out who I am And I'm still not completely sure on a lot of things But I recently got diagnosed with everything I need to start taking estrogen And I'm going to keep moving forward, with or without anyone who can't be around me because of who I am

I won't out them, by name, but I should tell you all that my spouse is also transgender So I will use he/him pronouns for the rest of this This part is a lot harder to talk about And I won't judge anyone who doesn't want to know me after this I've been trying so hard to get things right, this time

I'm sure none of you are in the dark about my husband leaving me But I've recently found out that I blocked out memories out of both fear and shame And I need to set the record straight

When I got out of the hospital after making one of many attempts to take my own life, I couldn't keep up Everything felt different It felt worse Like I couldn't keep up now that I was out and it stressed me out so much that I collapsed on myself But I already know that So do a lot of you But I never told you all what put me in the hospital to begin with Mostly because I blocked out the true reason It only happened twice And both were moments of panic that I still barely remember But I do remember the one time well enough to figure out the rest We were talking about something I don't remember what But it wasn't exactly a pleasant talk I started to panic Walls started closing in and my vision started getting dark He was walking away and I panicked and I grabbed his arm and begged him not to go I can blame the panic attack I can blame the separation anxiety from years of being abandoned But it doesn't justify it And I feel awful for lying to you all, even if it was never intentional I remembered this a few weeks ago, and ever since, it's been a nightly battle not to take my own life, just like before Only this time I have a reason to Honestly that's one of the reasons it took so long to say anything I had secretly hoped that maybe one of my attempts would be successful and I could just fade away without being more than a dark memory in everyone's life But I couldn't I couldn't roll over no matter how hard I tried, because I found amazing people who gave me the strength to push forward writing this now, I genuinely hope I don't lose those people, but I wouldn't blame a single person for distancing themselves from me tbh I have distanced myself a lot, for the safety of others ever since I found out

And the thing is I don't need the hospital I did, but I'm writing this, because I came to my own answer And even though I'm scared of myself because of this I plan to keep pushing forward I promised I wouldn't let fear hold me back this year and I'm not going to Not when I've finally started working towards something better But I can't keep moving forward if I keep myself stuck in the past

Sure, a lot of what was said about me actually didn't happen (i.e. standing in the middle of the street yelling at his work, bc who the fuck does that) And maybe it's not AS BAD as it could be But it's still bad And I feel nothing but shame and anger at myself ever since I started remembering And I can't be a coward and keep this a secret You all deserve to know who I am Even at my worst I've been trying so hard to be better But how can I claim to have even made progress if I can't give you all at least that

I told you all over and over not to hate my husband, even if he left in a really messed up way, because I knew he had a good head on his shoulders and that he wouldn't leave without reason He got scared and made a human mistake at worst I could never hate him for that I think that's how I felt even before But it doesn't matter, now He's gone, and I'm here to clean up my mess And I'm going to so I can keep moving I just hope I haven't lost all of you

I'm sorry I took so long to say something I'm going to go distract myself and wait for the worst I appreciate and love every single one of you reading this, but please Don't just forgive me because I'm trying Everyone keeps telling me how good I am, but this isn't what a good person does If you decide to forgive me, that's your perogative Honestly, though, if you hate me after this I mean... me too Not like I'd think less of you for it

P.S. To my family I'm also bisexual Always have been

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actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.

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This is a neutral post

Feel free to stop here and rest before journeying to the posts below.

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Based on this meme

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Cyril grinned, reaching into his bag, and pulled out a small cube with a button on it. He placed it on the floor and pressed the button, and within moments the cube became a small stool. He moved the stool up against the wall and motioned for Red to sit.

"Nikki does make the craziest inventions, doesn't she? Go on and rest a moment. Having kids is a labor before, during, and after."

The faunus scratches the back of his head for a moment.

"if you want, there is an old mental technique I picked up in Mistral. It won't fix your issue, but it might help with the exhaustion... Additionally if you want I could help with some of your errands to help take a bit off of your plate."

Tired (Open RP)

Red walked through the halls of Beacon Academy, simply taking a stroll through the school between classes. She sighed as she tried to fight off the exhaustion that seemed to hit her hard these days. Grumpily, Red decided to take a break and leaned against a wall to try and catch her breath.

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Cyril let out a small laugh and sighed before responding.

"Hey, just because I take on missions doesn't mean I don't have to make the occasional visit to teach a class. If I don't, they'll give the tactics position to someone else. Besides," Cyril said mischievously, "if I don't show up, who else is gonna get you and the good doctor into the normal, non life threatening amount of trouble?"

The faunus looked at his friend and his face changed to that of mild concern as one of his ears drooped a little.

"Truth be told, though, from the look on your face it would seem like trouble is what you need less of. It's good to see you again, but have you been alright?"

Tired (Open RP)

Red walked through the halls of Beacon Academy, simply taking a stroll through the school between classes. She sighed as she tried to fight off the exhaustion that seemed to hit her hard these days. Grumpily, Red decided to take a break and leaned against a wall to try and catch her breath.

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Cyril found himself in the halls of Beacon, reminiscing over the past. It had been a long time since he had last been here, and he was sure everyone had moved on and moved out at this point. He was about to turn a corner, when his ears twitched at the sound of someone sighing. He turned around to see his old teammate, who looked positively drained.

As he approached her, he grinned and spoke in a friendly, but concerned tone: "You look like you could use a nap."

Tired (Open RP)

Red walked through the halls of Beacon Academy, simply taking a stroll through the school between classes. She sighed as she tried to fight off the exhaustion that seemed to hit her hard these days. Grumpily, Red decided to take a break and leaned against a wall to try and catch her breath.

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I'll be busy streaming tonight, but I wanted to wish you all a very happy new year in case I'm not here in time. May you experience any abundance of happiness and prosperity this year no matter what gets thrown your way.

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Leave A Trace III by hannesflo

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Lol wasn't expecting such a quick response, but you're right. Maybe I'll stop messing around and actually put work into Cyril's story after I'm done with this book. Idk when that will be, though. It's turning into much more of a project than the novella I had planned.

So I started writing a book. I don't think it's great but it's helped me to feel creative again. I might come back here more but idk who to even rp with at this point. I'm seasons behind on rwby as it is.