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reblog this and tag it with your favorite work by robert sean leonard BUT he has to be alive at the end of the work

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Thank you for the tag!!

@toddsmind-neilssoul @winnielewoo @tom-failure @roman-cup or anyone who is free to join

Thanks so much for the tag @lc-27 and @neil-perrys-suicidal-tendencies !!

Tag game: make a poll with your top 5 recently played artists on Spotify and let people pick their favorites!

No pressure tags: @ok-just-why @schofielded @good--merits-accumulated @til-tonight-do-us-part @vinesandvellichor @cerulean-cries @queenbee2o3 @yawping-poets-society + anyone who wants to join!!

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Todd is always gentle with small creatures, and that very much includes insects, whenever he saw a spider making its web at some corner of the wall he would let it do its job, if it gets too troublesome he would gently pick it up with a piece of paper or a leaf and throw them outside. Todd is too familiar with how its like feeling small in the world. He knows how in the eyes of his parents his brother Jeffrey is a butterfly while he himself is a moth. He also showed kindness towards cockroaches as well, something Neil found surprising since he had a massive hatred for the brown leaf shaped insect, and he justifies his hatred for them with the fact that they carry diseases. In reality Neil enjoyed squashing the smaller defenseless creatures with his shoes, he felt no love for most insects, it made him feel powerful, the only exception for him were rats since rats bleed red when you cut them- just like humans do when cut. Living with Todd made him kinder towards small animals, even the ones he found ugly in his eyes, Neil realised that despite his desperate attempts of trying to not become like his tyrant father, he fails, especially in his cruel tendencies of killing insects because he is bigger and stronger than them. Perhaps his father enjoyed having power over him and making him feel small. He realises how this shows that he is not Neil but the son of Thomas Perry. He is glad to have Todd by his side to help him be more like himself, to appreciate the beauty of life in every form.

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RIP Knox Overstreet you would have loved bollywood movies. No not because they are romantic but they love to romanticise the male lead stalking the unwilling female lead to the point that she gets tired of him and accepts him

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Okay, so at least some people were willing to participate, and so I'm proud to announce

Zen Week 2025!

Go on and join in starting March 26 (yeah, it starts on a Wednesday, but who gives a fuck? I sure don't!) through April 1st, when the star is born! Let's celebrate our favourite fellow for 7 days.

I suggest to tag '#Zen week 2025' and just go ham. You're free to draw, write, make edits, memes, or whatever it is you do — let's do it. Take the prompts as literally or as metaphorically as you wish, I tried to leave space for that.

Let's take the week to share some love for Zen, admire his beauty and talent, and maybe, just maybe, look a little more than skin-deep.

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the worst part of hearing "neil loved living" is that he DID. the fact he felt so trapped by his fathers plans and never being able to pursue acting or love todd the way he did that he killed himself is so shocking and heartbreaking because HE LOVED LIVING. the loss of his passions and the future he wanted was so horrific for him that he would rather die than live like that. because he knew either way he wouldnt be living. he would be alive, but he would never be living.

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//talks of suicide, SA, vent

I dont really vent much on my tumblr (I have my twitter and instagram for that) but as much as I find love Neil Perry and find comfort in him. As a suicidal person with abusive parents like he has I truly fear if I would end up like him, if everything I Iove every connections I built with some of the loveliest people I met gets forever severed by them and I get forced to live a miserable life because I could not conform to their expectations. Just like him I would have no other option but to take my own life because I simply refuse to live like that. My parents my rapist my bullies and the Indian government would have my blood in their hands if I die. I dont think Neil killed himself either I think he was murdered by his parents (his dad specifically) and the patriachal society at large.

Neil Perry makes me uncomfortable but I seek comfort in that. I would also say on the brighter side despite his tragedy he taught me how to live he taught me its okay to take risk and go for what truly makes me happy rather than settle for less he taught me to see brighter side of things. My other comfort characters (such as yoosung and takemichi) taught me the same as well but so did Neil, he made me realise how much I love talking to people but couldnt because I had been restricting myself so much. I will be forever grateful to him, to Robert Sean Leonard for his marvellous portrayal of this beautiful soul and to Peter Weir and Tom Schulman for creating such a loveable character

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One of my headcannons is that Neil's mother is a victim of domestic violence in the hands of his father, it was the 50s and men abusing their wives was pretty much normalised. Most of the time it was verbal, financial and emotional but sometimes it used to take a physical turn. Neil grew up watching his mother hide her bruises and thats why he never held any grudge against her for not taking a stand for him (though deep down he wished she did). She had put up with all the abuse for years for her son, she thought her son would be deeply affected if she divorced the father of her son.

But everything changed after Neil's suicide. The Perry's relationship took a steep turn and they both constantly broke into fights, Mrs Perry was constantly haunted by her sons death and he always appeared in her dreams causing her nightmares. Eventually one day she slapped her husband out of self defense and broke down into tears.....only if she had done this on the night of 14 December 1959.

Eventually she files for a divorce and breaks free from her husband's clutches

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I have bpd diagnosis, I smoke mint flavoured cigs, I love yoosung kim from mystic messenger and neil perry from dead poets society and I think they have bpd too. I love buying keychains from miniso, i love lemon flavoured desserts, I love complimenting people, I love makeup, i am in love with my best friend and i am an ENFP I am in love with Robert Sean Leonard and Kim Wonpil from Day6. I have so much love to give. I am 23 years old south asian non binary aroace bisexual. Call me Ophelia or Agnes. Dirori will also work. I named myself after the character from Hamlet and Saint Agnes of Rome. And I love to Seize The Day

@tom-failure @winnielewoo @toddsmind-neilssoul @strswoo @natasha-in-space anyone else can join too

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

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Day 8/12 — Shooting star/Stargazing/Superman Yoosung

A discarded sketch for Worship of the Star that I still like. Seeing as I'm so behind, and I wanted to post this someday anyway... its time has come. Here it is.

Full under the cut

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Neil wasnt always the social butterfly he is known as, when he was young he too was a socially anxious mess like Todd. But growing up alongside Charlie helped him alot, Charlie always defended him against bullies even at the cost of himself getting beaten bloody blue, Charlie always smiled at Neil with his nose bleeding profusely, staining his pristine white shirt. Eventually Neil got tired of having Charlie constantly do things for him even at his own detriment and learned to defend himself. One day in middle school he threw a punch at a bully who was harassing an underclassman and sent him flying and thats when he realised that he is strong and he can defend himself. In middle school he forced himself to strike small talks with random strangers to his fellow classmates, often starting his conversations with a compliment because he knows everybody loves to be complimented and feel good about himself, and in that way he build positive connections with everyone around him and everyone loved him. Neil realised that he actually loves talking to people than he thought

But sometimes his social anxiety despite all the masking rears its ugly head, when he feels like he talked too much about his interests he starts to think if he has bored the hell out of people revealing too much about his troubled home life, he never intend to vent but that just naturally happens and he is left feeling guilty, he never feels like that around Charlie but when he does when he is left feeling embarassed. And how does he copes with that, by talking even more and trying to desperately mask his growing anxiety. Neil cannot stand awkward silences.

It wasnt until he met Todd when he started to grow comfortable in silence, Todd is observant, Todd is quick to catch when Neil gets talkative just to mask his anxiety. Whenever that happens, Todd comes close to Neil and strokes the back of his hand, just to let him know that he doesnt have to mask around him, just to let him know that he can be quiet in peace, just to let him know that he will never judge Neil for talking too much about his interest and accidentally slipping out details about his troubled home life. Todd is always there to let Neil know that he is never too much for him or for anyone (unlike his father who always makes him feel like he is too much for having big emotions).

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that TWICE roll call song except it's RFA members (I saw it as a common Trend on Insta some days ago and liked it a lot, the female pop singers one ♡♡) I also replaced their names with the MysMe ones haha

1. I'm the oldest unnie, but I’m the youngest when I do aegyo!

Cutie kkaengi, where are you Rika? (Nayeon's line)

2. Short hair crush

Girl-crush Jaehee

If you fall for Jaehee, there's no exit- (Jeongyeon)

3. No.1 beautiful face!

Dancing machine ZEN

This is ZEN

Happiness ZEN! - (Momo)

4. No Yoosung, no life

Shy, shy, shy

Hey oppa, hey unnie

You can't live without Yoosung! - (Sana)

5. Tofu! Tofu! To-To Tofu! Tofu! Saeran!

Tofu! Tofu! To-To Tofu!

Saeran~ - (Dahyun)

6. Real life goddess, pretty Jumin

Jumin’s honey voice will melt you!

Knock, knock, knock, knock, knock Jumin - (Jihyo)

7. Ballerina Jihyun~

Brightly shining Jihyun~

Jihyun, Jihyun, Jihyun-ri

Such a pretty beauty! -(Mina)

8. Unnie~

Oppa~

Dongsaeng's heart!

Saeyoung will take them all! - (Chaeyeong)

9.Heart attack warning, MC!

Fresh kiwi, MC!

Heart attack warning, MC!

Fresh kiwi, MC - (Tzuyu)

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Well for the longest time left handed people were heavily discriminated and we are talking about 50s so i imagine Neil taught himself or got forcefully taught by his father to use his right hand

So i was rewatching dead poets society and i noticed that in this shot

we see the gun laying there with neil's left hand so it implies the gun was in his left hand, but neil is right handed so why would he take the gun in his left hand that doesn't make sense but then i remembered this deleted scene

where the poets all eat with their left hand because they wanted to get rid of old habits. This doesn't need to be connected but I can't think of a different reason

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Achilles:- :(

Patroclus:- are you okay?? What happened?? Whats wrong??

Achilles:- :((( Promise you wont be mad

Agamemnon:- HE JUST HIT ME WITH HIS FUCKING CAR

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Alot of people have said this before and I know mystic messenger is simply a game but Yoosung Kim means the world to me and I dont like the fandom treating him like shit. I hate it when people romanticise Yoosung's bad ending 3 and act like him and Saeran are having some kinky sexual activities because, if they do be having sex in the context of that bad ending, yoosung is most likely getting raped (Im not trying to label Saeran as a rapist I am simply trying to say that Yoosung and Saeran would not be having consensual sex in the context of BE3). Because Yoosung clearly still loves mc and he is fearful and uncomfortable around Saeran in the VN segment.

But that being said, I am not opposed to the depiction of sexual assault in fics which are based on this bad ending especially as long as it is done tastefully and not fetishized like how the fic A New Toy by CallMeCandy does. Maybe I am misinterpreting their work but in that fic Yoosung is getting raped in every single chapter and I think its pretty overdone. 231 Days by KrypticReaux in my opinion does the situation more justice by not fetishising yoosung getting raped.

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Zen:- *pins yoosung against the wall* ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN THINKING.

Yoosung:- You know Zen-ie, the day Rika died, a part of me also died, whats the point of pursuing my dreams if the person for whom I had made the decision to do so is no longer here to see me

Zen:- ........ *tears well up to his eyes*

Yoosung:- Zen-ie, you have dreams, you need to pursue them, one day you will be a great actor. Please become a great actor for me

Zen:- *punches the wall as tears run down his face*

Yoosung:- if you ever meet my mother, please let her know that I will always love her

*moments later*

Yoosung:- Zen Ryu!! Thank you for playing with me!!

*a gunshot kills yoosung instantly, Zen faces the door and lets himself break into tears for the first time in a long while*

Day 5/12 — AU/Crossover

Who knew that @crybabysunflower could get her old old wish in this way

Zen Ryu! Thanks... for playing with me.

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When the competition is playing as the gay ass main character who possibly has unrequited romantic feelings towards the other lead male character whilst having homophobia allegations and my opponents are Robert Sean Leonard and Lee Jung Jae.

The only difference is that Lee Jung Jae gets widowed in every piece of media he touches upon while Robert Sean Leonard makes the other male lead widowed in the show or movie