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As someone who was very much into Given anime and is now into Dead Poets Society. Just like how Yuki's mother gave Mafuyu his guitar after his death, what if Neil's mom gives Todd the twig and berries wreath he wore during the play as Puck at his funeral.

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Neil gifted Todd one of those fancy diaries which has a lock in it and plays "I JUST WANNA BE PART OF YOUR SYMPHONY" whenever you open it to write his poems. Neil himself owns one of such diaries where he vents about his father mostly in the form of aggressive doodling of his caricatures

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I FORGOT TO POST THIS HERE OOPS

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Do I want Robert Sean Leonard, Do I want to be Robert Sean Leonard or Do I want to be adopted by Robert Sean Leonard

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Lisa, Lisa !! 💗

Happy new year btw, Take care of yourselves, I hope all your goals are met. (^^

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Genuinely curious why do many fanfic writers make Todd "blonde" he is NOT blonde. His hair is fucking brown

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Only exactly one homie expressed anything bout my tags(screenshots cause I feel bad overrunning ops original post a second time) and although it didn’t even specify any actual feelings or say it wanted me to expand, I wanna talk about this more so I’m gonna take that as enough of a reason to blab more about this

Cause like bro Neil took so much shit from his father, and although we saw a pattern of him starting to be disobedient (quitting the newspaper at the beginnning vs going behind his fathers back to be in the play), but throughout the movie I would say throughout all of it, he still had some sense of hope, albeit his father not listening despite his hope. I would say that the reason Neil could get through all those rejections is because he would turn to others. The first time, with newspaper, he was with the boys and they in some sense urged him to talk about it and met him in a conversation when his father didn’t. The second time, we see when his father is upset, the first thing he does is go to Keating and talk to him. That’s two times Neil disobeys his father before immediately turning around and talking to someone about it, though he fails to connect with his father because his father, although occasionally trying to smooth it over and connect with Neil so Neil will empathize with him (comment about his mother, and comment about how Neil has opportunities he didn’t have), his father doesn’t realize that for true connection to be made, both parties must willingly listen to the other. But still, his father’s rejection works as a means for Neil to connect with others. The last time, when his father catches him at the play, Neil is dragged out without being able to talk to anyone, without his connections. He tries to talk with his father, but the first thing his father does is say he is going to pull him out of Welton. His father in one fell swoop breaks off every connection Neil has while also refusing to connect with Neil despite Neil reaching out and pleading time and time again. Before the scene ends, after his father walks out, just like before we see Neil reach out to form a connection, this time with his mother. He is unable to form that connection though because when he tries to talk about it, his mother changes the subject, thus his final failed connection (“I was good. I was really good” “go on, get some sleep”). He feels truly alone now, which is why he is hopeless enough that his very next act, the only option he feels he has left, is to end his own life.

There are two others who lose their connections I want to discuss: Cameron and Charlie. Foils who succumb, in some sense, to the same fate despite being the opposite of one another. Both their connections with the group fail but for different reasons. Throughout the movie Charlie fails in his connections because he refuses to listen to others. Throughout the movie, Cameron fails in his connections because others refuse to listen to him. But also despite the repeated fails at connection by both boys throughout, by the end it is through their own hand (literally) they both once and for all destroy their connections and end up alone, ironically within the same scene (Cameron through signing the document and Charlie through getting expelled for punching Cameron). And I would say they both play a hand in the other’s destruction because they are so intricately interwoven that it’s hard to discuss one without the other. Charlie goes behind the poets backs, bringing girls to the cave without asking first and printing the article without their permission under the club’s name, which is the start of his downfall as well as the start of the downfall of the entire club. He was ‘choking on the bone’ because he didn’t understand Carpe Diem isn’t about action, but about connection. His not communicating with the poets and speaking on behalf of the whole group without listening not only brings unwanted attention to the club, causing intergroup conflict and threatening the whole group’s existence, but also it allows the administration to have a scapegoat when Neil dies. Where Charlie is the one to bring light to the group, but refuses to out the members of the group in the end, Cameron does the opposite. Cameron kept the sacredness of the group, trying to connect with the poets and listen to them, only for them to make fun of him when he opens up and try to push him away. Cameron wasn’t the one who exposed the group itself, but he is the first one to give in after Neil’s death, telling the administration about who is in the club and signing the paper, cutting off his connections. It is fitting that Charlie and Cameron’s stories end at the same time, at the hands of one another. Both of their interconnected stories end with them becoming isolated, which we see illustrated within the end of the movie. We see every poet except these two and Neil stand at the end, because every other poet was able to form connections through Keating’s lessons (Knox takes Chris to the play where they have a good time together thus connecting, Meeks and Pitts got a radio to work which is a physical symbol of them forming connections together without having to be as involved in an already story heavy movie, and Todd we all know from the tags above). The three poets who lose their connections are the ones who cannot participate in the final scene, the final message-driving act of the movie that states we do not stand alone.

Like the whole point of the movie is that the only way we get through life is by connecting with other, why do you think the key poem they bring up is a Walt Whitman poem about Abraham Lincoln? The poem is about the grief over the loss of the leader of the country, who guided America through tough times. Walt Whitman used the poem to connect the country over the loss of their president and allow the grief to become a shared means of connection. As much as dead poets society is about learning to deal with grief and keep on living life despite grief, it is also about searching for connections as a key means to survive and overcome grief. That is why Oh Captain, My Captain was chosen. It is a poem about grief meant to connect people and make them feel less alone through their shared sorrow over the loss of a beloved figure who guided his people through tough times and led the good fight. And we see that same principle, the people who didn’t form connections could not make it through to the end, but those who did did so because they stood together. We don’t even need to just connect with people around us now, the focus on poetry and art is to connect us to the past as well as the present. In fact, it states the past is a means to connect people in the present. They sit in the theater together, the audience connecting with one another over a play written hundreds of years ago. They read poetry in the cave, poetry written by people from the last 5 centuries, so they can open up with one another and form connections, even writing and sharing their own poetry with one another. This whole movie revolves around these few principles and I can’t man it’s like so nicely put together and I think that is why this movie has stood the test of time so well, it knows what it wants to say about our relationships with one another and it makes sure every action taken is to say it.

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TW// suicide

Sometimes I keep thinking about the interview with the Dead Poets Society boys where Bobby revealed that some random woman yelled at him for "showing suicide in a heroic light" and I cant help but seethe at her for being so fucking wrong (besides the fact that she should have left him alone, he was not the one who came up with that idea, it was Tom Schulman). The whole point of Neil's character arc went above her head.

Neil's death was the final blow to the Dead Poets Society and everything starts to go all downwards after that part. Keating gets expelled for "influencing Neil to pursue acting", Charlie, who was his best friend also gets expelled for not signing the letter. And most importantly, Thomas Perry felt zero remorse over his son's dying. He took no accountability for it and blamed it all on Keating. If the writers really wanted to show anything positive about his suicide they could have atleast made Mr Perry own up his actions and try to be a better person. BUT THEY DID NOT.

Besides, as someone who relates to Neil and one of the major reasons being my own history with self harm and failed attempts, if anything that scene did to me is to punch me hard in the gut. It was a harrowing watch. Many time whenever I have wanted to take my own life I actually did not particularly want to die but to simply escape my trapping situation and in my own personal interpretation, I find that it likely stands true for Neil as well. After the play not only he gets forever trapped in the clutches of his father, but also loses most people he cherishes, The Poets, Mr Keatings, his best friend Charlie and his room mate Todd. In his hopeless mental state, he was left with no other option but to choose death. He could have had tried to run away from home but was likely caught and thats why it never crossed his mind. Neil's situation is a horrifying reality because I can see it happening to me, one of my biggest fear includes losing all of my friends and never being able to escape my abusers and thats exactly what happened.

Maybe some people might assume that Neil was happy when he killed himself. But for me I believe, he wasnt, I believe he wanted to live but unfortunately was put in such a harrowing situation that he found no way out

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song: Zoom Up! By Kahimi Karie

anderperry lil pmv :3 !! hope you like it ^_^

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No one:

Zen when Jumin breathes wrong in Yoosung's general direction:

I mean, this is definitely about that time when Jumin called Yoosung's mother, but they do this as early as the very first chat in the game:

Why do you ship Yoozen, they ask

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Lay your sin here on the ground What was lost can still be found Lock the door inside our room God put me here just for you

Star imagery Yoosung gooooooo

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Also the fact that both Yuki and Neil kill themselves in winter

They're the same picture

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Obviously the both couldnt cook but as adults Todd got better at it while Neil Perry is banned from entering the kitchen

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Been playing MM again

Ray looks the best imo even tho I’m like obsessed with 7 I did him wrong in this piece 😭

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why did this take me two hours someone confiscate my phone😭😭

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This might be my last post on mouthwashing because I fucking loathe this fandom from the bottom of my heart. I fucking loathe all the jimmy shooters, the pro lifers who for godsake are too dense to see that anya was FORCED into pregnancy.

I also hate how many mouthwashing fans (especially on twitter) were foaming at the mouth over..........People making AUs of the characters get rescued or actors au. They go around telling people that they are "missing" the point of the game which is absurd because we can very much acknowledge the fact that the character deaths in the game has a purpose and at the same time wishing for a better scenario. Making a silly au would not alter the canon.

I also hate how this fandom would go around telling people that they mustve never been SAed because of having a different opinion also feels very disgusting because, who the fuck are you to make this generalised assumption. You dont know my life.