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Luke grieving Vader is my personal favourite of glass, very crunchy

Miguel Hernández, from The Selected Poems of Miguel Hernandez "Elegy for Ramón Sijé,"

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SO HAPPY YOU LIKE IT!!! <333 (I'm also still internally screaming every time I look at the blorbos on my table, they deserve everything in the world and more)

My part of a little art trade with @incognito-cactus, who agreed to send me 2(!) sets of their merch for just one picture of VaderLukes being cute, and I still can't believe their kindness for it 🥺 It was supposed to be a sketch, but I can't restrain myself I just got them and I absolutely adore them My first piece of fan-made merch that I own, and I'm so happy it's this one

(Featuring a precious handmade artwork by @just-an-awkward-rat, as a base of my little VaderLuke shrine 🤲)

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My part of a little art trade with @incognito-cactus, who agreed to send me 2(!) sets of their merch for just one picture of VaderLukes being cute, and I still can't believe their kindness for it 🥺 It was supposed to be a sketch, but I can't restrain myself I just got them and I absolutely adore them My first piece of fan-made merch that I own, and I'm so happy it's this one

(Featuring a precious handmade artwork by @just-an-awkward-rat, as a base of my little VaderLuke shrine 🤲)

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Watching star Wars for the first time and does luke have any emotions at all💀 bro felt nothing when his uncle, obi-wan and buddy died

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OP put it into words so neatly

The only person Anakin/Vader ever blames in absolutely everything (even things clearly outside of his control) is himself Even when he's angry at the order for not recognizing him as a viable member - he's angry at the order for like 5 seconds, as a knee jerk reaction to being told "you don't belong" again, and then angry at himself for never being good enough for 20 years, because he always retracts into "no, it's me who's the problem" mindset Really wish there were more depictions of Vader not as some angry vengeful thing that hates everything and blames everyone, but a tired, middle-aged man, who's just beyond his capacity to care anymore Of course he's still angry, he's hurt, he's deeply traumatized by just about everything in his life, but all he probably feels for the jedi and Obi-Wan after 20 years is apathetic disappointment, reminiscing on what could've been, and what wasn't Apathy as Vader's general mood hits harder than anger, because he's not just a man who has nothing to lose - he's a man who _doesn't care_ if he loses anything He doesn't rush into a fight with a need to kill, he doesn't enjoy or savor it, he's not bloodthirsty or needlessly cruel He's efficient and endlessly bored with the tedium of it all And that's much worse Because the only thing that moved this man for 20 years is pure need to move, with no goal or reason behind it, movement for the same of movement, driven only by need to survive, because at this point surviving through it all is the only thing he's good for Pushing through all possible limits and surviving out of duty, because if he dies - he knows he can't be replaced, or at least not easily replaced, and then it all was for nothing He has to survive, not because he wants to live, but because there has to be a point to it all, eventually Man's only motivation in life is sunk cost fallacy, and he's ready to drop the entire galaxy together with himself into this endless pit, if it means that things will finally make sense Right up until the point when he finds the only person that's actually worth living for, and doing things for, and it's the only thing that animates him to the point of trying to shake the stagnation off That's why Luke is so uniquely important, imo Obi-Wan or Ahsoka or even Padme herself, anyone from Anakin's old life could never have this effect, because they're already behind, they're down in the bottom, in the heap of endless disappointment and things that didn't work out, they're in the discard pile, and Luke is not Luke is something that was supposed to be, but never was, and now it has a chance to be again It's an opportunity yanked away right from Anakin's fingers, only to be returned back 20 years later, in the moment when it was needed most And the fact that it's not just anyone, but specifically a child, his child, who called him "father" mere minutes after Vader chopped his goddamn hand off, who was insisting that Vader is good _while being led to an execution by him_, if not worse That's everything Because Vader, despite being selfish, to some capacity, lacks ability to do things for himself He could never get better for himself, he could never actually defeat Palpatine for himself But for the son - son is worth everything, son _is_ everything and deserves only the best as a result There's something cathartic in watching Vader finally kill Palpatine Because it's not something coming from Vader himself, it's not his own hurt or his own anger, it's not about Vader at all in the moment And that's why it's cathartic Something finally derails him from endless "it's my own fault" and compliance with all that's happening, something finally makes him act, defend and fight back instead of lowering his head and taking it in Luke is a proxy for Vader's feeling of resent towards the cruel, unjust, unfair system that keeps hurting and breaking him He lacks the capacity of being angry for himself, he doesn't deserve to be protected from it But Luke does, because Luke deserves everything

You know I understand the take but I can´t help but see all those headcanons and memes of Anakin blaming Obi-Wan or the Jedi Order for his fall extremely OOC for his character. Vader believes the Jedi and the Republic fell because they abandoned their principles, not because of whatever relationship they had with him.

Vader dueled Obi-Wan on the Death Star(ANH) but he wasn´t even mad at his old master, he actually told him "You should not have come back" and "Your powers are weak old man" and "I was the learner now I am the master" that is it, that´s all Vader has to tell his master(the man he used to see as a father) after being left behind burning alive.

When Luke confronts Vader on Cloud city he tells Luke not to let himself be destroyed like Obi-Wan did, he is aware Obi-Wan used him to die and it doesn´t bother him because he is like ok, he wanted to go but please Luke dont do the same.

This man literal reaction at learning his child had been trained to kill him and his master was to offer him to rule the galaxy together as father and Son because of course he is a monster but he can offer his boy the galaxy and make up for it right?

This is Anakin, he justified his slave owner for owning him and his mom, he justified the Jedi despite separating and leaving his mother behind as a slave and cutting all contact from her, in fact he blamed himself for not going to her before she was kidnapped and murdered and he keep justifying the Emperor until he no longer was able to when he wanted to kill his Son in front of him.

Vader´s problem is the fact he keeps wanting to justify the systems he belongs to even if he finds them unfair but believes if he keeps trying to fix them all those sacrifices he made will be worth something in the end but he is totally unable to recognize to himself the way how living under those systems have shaped or hurt him and while he does see the damage those systems do for others, he believes he can stop that at some point(put order in the galaxy, put Padme in charge, defeat the emperor)

This is why an usual dialogue between Vader and anybody else who opposes him in canon is bassically, yes, I know I am a monster, I understand where are you coming from but it´s my duty to destroy you. Because eventually at some point he wants it be worth something, just like it was worth it to leave behind his mother as a slave, killing for the republic, killing for the Jedi and killing for the Empire, it has to be worth it.

Luke, by refusing to fight him, trusting him and loving him was the only way he could begin to free himself from the darkside, because he found someone who saw him worth living and being loved not for what he could do for them but because he was a person, his name was Anakin and he was worth being saved and he didn´t need to do anything else for Luke besides loving him back and protect him like a father does for his child.

That´s what snapped Vader out of his apathy, which is the actual opposite of the love Anakin used to have for the people in the galaxy, for the Jedi and for his family, that´s the Jedi that came back.

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Based on those fics where Vader time travels back to Rots. Anakin teams up with Vader and just thinks Vader is just another Sith

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Dragon AU! Courtesy of @vaderlukecore & friends from the Vaderluke discord server :)

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Breaking my heart over thinking how Anakin as a kid was such a bright, kind, and just caring child that wanted to help others, far too kind and nice despite being literally considered less than a person, and then he was groomed by the evilest man in the galaxy, became a monster, commited heinous crimes beyond comprehension, hurt and caused the death of the person he loved the most, then was constantly tortured for two decades by his groomer in ways that are literally impossible to accomplish on anything but a fantasy setting, and he still cared and loved his groomer, lost almost all of his own self and personhood. And then the only thing that made him break out of it was his son that he thought he killed.

Is so fucked up man, i'm crying here. I just...that poor kid, holy cow.

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The tag says "angel", because I'm lame and aurebesh nerd хД (I really do think he's daddy's angel though)

P.s. Bliss reblogged me, I may die in peace 🫡

"Take pride in what you are."

Okay, how about something that isn't old and unfinished And also to the point of this page actually existing Sponsored by @just-an-awkward-rat and his ramblings about how original concept of Zootopia included predators receiving restriction collars on their 18th birthday, and their parents tried to turn it into a big special event, not something sad and horrible Welp, in my AU it's real special alright

Second version, think they go together nicely

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"Take pride in what you are."

Okay, how about something that isn't old and unfinished And also to the point of this page actually existing Sponsored by @just-an-awkward-rat and his ramblings about how original concept of Zootopia included predators receiving restriction collars on their 18th birthday, and their parents tried to turn it into a big special event, not something sad and horrible Welp, in my AU it's real special alright

Second version, think they go together nicely

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Maggie Stiefvater, Shiver

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who up blurring the lines between shameful fascination and perverse desire

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Palpatine is officially a goose.

Little kiddo Luke playing "duck, duck, goose" with other kids on the playground, and calling out "duck" ad nauseum Everyone else is confused and kids are complaining, while Anakin explains to other parents, that his child wants everyone to be ducks, because ducks are nice, and doesn't want anyone to be a goose, because geese are evil incarnates People give him and the boy questioning looks, while Anakin himself looks like this is absolutely normal and reasonable

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I love it when Anakin randomly goes into "your paralysis demon" mode

Stares at you like this.

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My toxic trait is reading up posts on bpd and thinking "Anakin Skywalker got access to social media and this is all he's ever posting on his alt account, opposed to his main, where everything is goofy and silly, but he sometimes forgets which one is which anyway, and then all his friends on main get really concerned for a moment"

the feeling when you just wanna be alone and push everyone away so you could quietly kill yourself vrs the feeling of never wanting to be alone and just wanting to be held and told itll be okay even when it wont.

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Little kiddo Luke playing "duck, duck, goose" with other kids on the playground, and calling out "duck" ad nauseum Everyone else is confused and kids are complaining, while Anakin explains to other parents, that his child wants everyone to be ducks, because ducks are nice, and doesn't want anyone to be a goose, because geese are evil incarnates People give him and the boy questioning looks, while Anakin himself looks like this is absolutely normal and reasonable

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Merch Update: We're finally done!

Thanks to everyone who stuck around long enough to see this project through to the end! If you'd like to grab yourself a set for $8 CAD (not including delivery), visit my Big Cartel shop:

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