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If characters people ship Luke with have told me anything about his overall preferences - his type is tall force sensitive men in full suits of armor, who possibly want to kill him, and also can be his father figure Vader is just too perfect of a fit

luke daddy issues skywalker

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oh my god, never deactivate.

aw, lmao Thanks, I'll try to stay as long as I can! Probably won't deactivate this account even if I leave, lol

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It really says a lot, considering that he didn't cry over seeing charred corpses of people who raised him for 19 years, Obi-Wan's death and all other fucked up shit happening to him all at once Not to mention that Luke is generally a low-emoting guy, who feels a lot, but rarely shows it in any strong obvious way (crying, bursting out in a laugh, yelling), he only sits sad, chuckles and sometimes raises his voice slightly because he's annoyed, he's overall such a mild guy His father is the only one who's able to provoke emotions this strong in him

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The amount of people reblogging this one Luke sketch I made, while having "proship dni" somewhere on their page is upsetting and unsettling, and I have no idea what to do about that

Purity culture weird and scary to exist around ._.

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He will scare away any potential suitor then act falsely contrite.

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can i use your art as a profile pic?

You absolutely can!

Credit me if you feel so inclined, but I don't mind either way, as long as you like it

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Sorry kitten, Daddy has been reduced to a ghost of the man you loved by the vulgar demands of capitalism

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is this anything?

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pre-reveal shenanigans my beloved

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Luke trying to accept that his father ain't getting back to being the Good Guy Anakin Skywalker (tm) ever, and no matter how much he's "getting better", he'll never really be what he imagined his father to be But he still can't just not love the man, the broken way he is right now

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Whole rebel base hearing their jedi hero say this, while staring at Darth Vader, who is here to kill them all:

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more like "we'll have to dig a grave for him"

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I often start drawing something, but rarely actually finish, because I succumb to intrusive thoughts faster than I can draw So here's to me actually finishing this one Very weird to post a WIP for me, but maybe it'll be motivating in some way

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gets felt up in a way that inspires somber remembrance

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bro your whimsy. you forgot your fucking whimsy. your solemn and somber attitude is scaring the hoes

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Luke being exactly like his father part 10 000

this will be my last sw post for a while (rest, i need), but I think it's worth remembering that while Luke is cheerful and bold, he also canonically nearly killed Vader in a blind rage. He canonically viciously snaps at people. He canonically throws things in anger. He canonically is so impatient Yoda nearly dipped. Even in episode 6, which is the basis for a lot of the characterization I see, his calmness comes across an iron control, not necessarily gentleness. I do think a lot of the former is due to immaturity, so gently serene Jedi Luke is a reasonable characterization, but I also think it's worth remembering why Luke grew up so fast, why that iron control has appeared in episode 6, and why he is the furthest thing from careless.

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Adding to the reblog separately, because didn't want to write it in the reblog

If Vader survived, I think, weirdly enough, he'd become Luke's only support network

Luke obviously doesn't trust anyone with his feelings, he doesn't want to speak about his problems with his friends, because they're all dealing with their own problems, it's not their responsibility to sit and listen his whining (as he thinks about it)

Luke was raised to think about other people before he thinks of himself, and naturally, he won't feel safe "bothering" anyone, and potentially being only judged for it

Besides, he's the rebellion's last hope, he's their poster boy, their symbol, if he goes around talking how he doubts everything he's doing, and that he feels like he can't really manage in this new role - what will it say about rebellion in general, how will it affect people's spirit to hear their resident jedi spiral into depressive moods?

It's so much pressure to actively put on a face and hide everything you feel, no wonder guy's first solution to all inner conflicts is "isolate, get your ship, disappear for like a month on some 'mission' you just made up until you're fine, return as if nothing happened"

Which brings us to the question of "what could actually prompt Luke to feel vulnerable enough to share"

Considering his obvious lack of interest in any romantic interactions, that wouldn't be a partner, like in most such cases, friends are out of the question from the get-go, he's not really the type to spill his guts to strangers, unless it's the only option, which leaves us with only one possibility, the person he was obsessing over his whole life - his father

It also makes sense in the context of his father not counting as "being bothered" by Luke's problems, as hearing Luke out, supporting and helping him navigate the situation is the whole point of being a father

Of course it's slightly negated by the fact that it's Darth Vader we're talking about, and he doesn't come off as someone who can offer any comfort

But at the same time it's Anakin Skywalker and Luke is his son he canonically died for, overcoming 20 years of emotional supression isn't that bad compared to some other options

All of this to say

I just think there's something beautiful in the fact that Luke and Vader are both very strong people in their own right, who others usually look up to and lean on in harsh times, and they will remain strong and not allow anyone but each other to see all the weak, tired, completely traumatized vulnerable sides they have

It just melts my soul a bit whenever I think about Luke maintaining a perfect facade for Leia, Han and the entirety of the galaxy, effortlessly managing difficult situations and making tough decisions, only to get home a cry on his father's shoulder for three hours, because he can't show anyone else how actually exhausted and stressed out he is

As well as Vader being the most feared man in the galaxy to everyone else, and a poor little meow meow suffering from nightmares, C-PTSD, paranoia and ten thousand other things to his son

And nobody else would ever know how much having each other actually means for them