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ive been away from edtblr for i think about a year!! but currently relapsing so need to be skinny sgain </3

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i was gonna start doing omad but i have to take my meds at morning + before i sleep n my parents dont let me take them wo eating so 2mad ig

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Day 8: i try to workout twice everyday since im on summer break but i dont bother if im fasting

but in the mornings when i wake up after taking my meds n having something for breakfast i do an hour of walking cardio and later in the evening i do something fun like kpop dances or just dance for an hour !

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only 2.2kg left to lose till im back in bmi 15s <3

its so euphoric to finally see the numbers in the scale dropping, im getting closer to my ugw everyday

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every psychiatrist or psychologist plus my therapist say i need to be assessed for autism but what do my parents do???

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Day 7: yup idk if they actually care but ive gone thru ed therapy but didnt continue bcoz i didnt want further help n i was ‘too mentally ill’ for the plan they wanted to put me in but rn im being forced back into ed therapy n ive been threatened w getting sectioned n tubed if i dont start eating

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the camhs psychiatrist said theyr gonna section me if i keep going down bmi points but ill be fine

in the meantime im starting antidepressants, prescribed melatonin n antipsychotics if i gain weight im flushing them

45hrs into my fast rn tho doing well !

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underweight again <33

will always be thankful to my fasts

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tw: suicide mention

i just got back from the hospital took 3-4hrs but atleast i didnt have the choice to break my fast in there lmao

im coming back tmrw n i think the rest of the week to see if they need to put me in hospital for a few days overnight on suicide watch lawl

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25hrs into my fast n i was feeling hungry but now i just feel rlly sick which isnt much better someone send help

but looking at thinspo makes it all worth it so to anyone who also needs motivation heres one of my favs rn <33

u got this !!:3

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Day 6: yup ig i think i do like i get urges definitely but most times while im binging i wont go over 1000cal coz i just feel sick by then n the urges go but i gain on 900cal so i mean

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can yall reblog this post if ur an ed blog? my dash is lowkey dead lol and i need more moots :)

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im about 20hrs into my fast everythings going well so far tbh i dont feel the need to eat even tho my dad literally bought the entire menu off of Mcdonalds......

i got a matcha latte from starbucks tho with almond milk n its yum

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Day4: losing weight n reaching my ugw but not looking the way i wanted to or gaining it all back it haunts me everyday 😭

Day 5: just to feel good in my own skin n to finally have something that i can succeed at also to look as sick as i feel !!

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i just need to get skinny fast

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my bf whos a whole foot taller then me weighs the same as me im gonna kms

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i didnt count yesterday but i feel hopeful today so im gonna make a new plan for myself n make it cute:3