corninmayy33

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Made this in case I wanna recover one day

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Edblr why do people ask me to dm them

Like why do they not dm me instead

Is there smt or are they just dumb

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I literally can't wait to have my treadmill omggggg

I'm gonna spend my whole life on it (if it's good cuz imagine it's not 🤡🤡)

Btw I was at my lw (36.6) this morning, hopefully I don't g@in too much 🤞🤞

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girlies how many of us are getting a treadmill and flare jeans this Christmas ? 🤭

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Okay so I ran my hand through my hair twice

ONLY TWICE 🤡🤡

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Just read in my old diary that I learned in CHEMISTRY CLASS that almonds were super high c@ls and I used to 3at a ton of them so I got anxious and that's actually why I started counting c@ls, not even bc of €blr 💀💀💀💀

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how tall are you?? You're literally body tea omggg

Damn ty 🫶🫶🫶

I'm 153cm (I think that's around 5'2ft ??)

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y'all I think I'm back at 37 again I ain't reaching no gw for Christmas I fear 😞

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36.7 after breakfast

The concave st0mach potential I have 😭😭😭

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guys no joke why do I look bm! 18 🤩🔫

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guess who just had 1020 c@ls of cookies 🤩🤩

I was 36.5 before, hopefully I don't g@in too much, still debating wether to have the dinner I had planned (yoghurt) later on or not

I'll see

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Look at em finger g@ps 🥴🥴

Anygays waiting for the nurse cuz I almost f@inted (not bc of 3d I Just can't breathe in my mask today for some reason and after climbing 4 floors I got a tiny bit d!zzy 👉👈)

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Some people actually pointed out my hair loss should I kms 💀💀

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y'all I had such a dream tonightttt

there was a girl and I think she was a personification of @n4 and we were together and I had ★ved for a few days and reached my ugw and my legs were soooo sk1nn¥ I swear it felt magical 😭😭

I could easily wrap my hands around them and my th!9h gap was soooo wide omg

this motivated me sm

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normal people are so... Weird ?

Like the other day there was dinner at my grandma's house and I didn't 34t a thing but even if I had allowed myself smt I physically couldn't have had HALF of what my family (who's a normal healthy one) had ???

And the other day there was a picnic with school so I had a protein bar but my friends ??? They @te sm and felt super chill about it I was actually so shocked

Also ppl just 34t food/add stuff to their plates without caring about the c@ls ?? Like... I know I used to do that to and now even in recovery I can't ? Like wdym adding butter to a croissant or more cheese to the pasta ? 😭😭 I rlly couldn't

Or not going for the lower c@l option (ex : getting a normal coke instead of a 0 one or getting the yummy bread instead of the healthy one), that is so dumb to me

And lastly I literally NEED to chew my gum for at least an hour otherwise I feel guilty asf, but my friends literally just chew until there's no taste (which is like 15mins~)

Plus when people burn a lot of c@ls they don't go " damn yay a lower deficit " they COMPENSATE IT by sn@cking on smt high c@l ? 🥹

Guys seriously I can never be like that again is it even possible for an @n0r3x!C to actually get fully better ?

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FRRRRR

୨୧ wish i had the type of 3Đ where you forgot about eating/hated food. i count down every hour until i can eat again . . 😓

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Back at 36 🤭🤭

Btw guys why do I always see protein bars everywhere but never cereal bars ?? They're literally so good and much lower in c@ls so if you just want a little sweet smt it's really niceee