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[confessionsofaswstudent]

This resonates so perfectly with me 

Your perfect mess.

[confessionsofaswstudent]

What are my core beliefs?

My honest opinions are large matters?

Religion - The only religion I do not think is the route to all evil is Buddhism. I think the world would be a much better place without Religion and believe that Religion is the cause for all wars and everything wrong in the world.  

Racism - I used to be racist to Portuguese people. We have a lot of Portuguese people moving over and living where I was born. I didn’t fully understand the Portuguese culture and therefore assumed they were less than myself. I came to realise this was not the case, I hold no racist thoughts towards any other culture and just came to realise that it’s certain people within certain cultures I do not like, including my own culture. Not all people mix well, and that is okay. 

Sexuality - I have never been and will never be homophobic. I do not understand how someone could hate someone because of the person they choose to love. I do not ever see sexuality as a cause to concern anyone other than the person themselves.

Trans gender - I took a little longer to get my head around this concept, I have never been against those that were born the wrong gender, I just did not understand. I do now understand a lot better than before and again, I do not have any ill thoughts towards trans gender people. I would however, be quite upset if either of my Daughters realised they were born the wrong gender, although I would support them. I also do not think I could stay with my partner if he came to realise he was born the wrong gender also. 

Abortion - I am and will always be 100% pro-choice. There has never been an argument that makes sense to me that would make taking the choice away from a woman appear right. 

Rape vs Murder - I consider Rape being the same, if not, worse than murder. A person that has been raped must live with that for the rest of their lives. 

Death Penalty - I agree with the death Penalty. 

I cannot think of any others at the moment, however, I LOVE debates and would very much welcome disagreeing (or agreeing) conversations or further difficult topics I can give my opinion on. 

[confessionsofaswstudent]

Who am I at the core?

What is my core identity? 

I am firstly a straight woman, although I very much appreciate the female form, I have come to conclude I would not desire a relationship with a woman. 

I am a mother, I struggle with this daily. I wanted my beautiful Daughter and actively tried to conceive. Before having my Daughter I wanted a large family of 6 children. My Daughter is an angel and extremely intelligent, however, I do not wish to have any other children again. I do have a ‘step’ Daughter whom I also love dearly but the two are as much as I’d ever want. I was not ready to become a mother and this is why I struggle. 

I am a student studying Social Work, as I go through my lectures and terms I question my suitability for the profession or my desire to be part of it. It is all a learning process and if worst case is I pass, I have a decent, stable job. 

I am a partner to the most loving man I have ever met. I have never in my life felt the love that this man provides me and I him. I would truly be a broken woman if we were to ever falter. 

The above is my core identity, what comes to mind when I think of who I am. I am also a Daughter, Sister, Granddaughter and an ex-wife however, these parts of my identity come second in my mind. 

What I learn from this is my age is irrelevant to me, my psychical features are irrelevant (although a trouble)  and at my core my closest family and career are what defines me. 

[confessionsofaswstudent]

It is difficult for any human being to 'read' the reactions and behaviour of another human being unless we have some knowledge of who we are and our own behaviour.

Trevithick