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Someday I'm either gonna kill myself or publish a book and I'm kinda excited to find out which one.
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fantasy book from 1995 you have the most familiar description of suicidal ideation I've ever read
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I want to kill myself which isn't unusual but damn I feel like shit
#i wanted to kms since i was 8.#literally as long as i can remember#its just the longer i go without doing it the more of a failure i feel like
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Ive literally been barely scraping by and trying not to kill myself for as long as I can remember and I'm tired af.
#like i remember being like 4 and just sick of life#some people arent made for living i guess#whats the point in doing anything to fix the damage ive already done when im probably just gonna kms#its all ive ever wanted
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Just got 2 teeth pulled, had to wait outside in 80 degree heat for an hour after to go home and then when i got there i got yelled at by my husband for "not acting like an adult" about it.
#like i did something that was scary for me and i had been neglecting due to trauma and nobody cares#i got yelled at#why take care of myself if im just gonna want to kill myself?#like im trying to act like an adult#im trying to get my medical shit in line and do chores more and fucking write a book so i might actually have work i can do#and i get told its not good enough#bc im not crying myself to sleep every night from pain and exhaustion after working a 12hr shift
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Yesterday was the first time in a long time hanging out with a new friend. In 13 years this is the 3rd time introducing him to a friend. It is the 3rd time a friend has expressed concern over the way he speaks to me. The 3rd time someone told me i deserved kindness. The millionth time someones asked "is he just like this?". I was embarrassed to be associated with him. How many more embarrassments can i endure?
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Literally nobody gives a shit about me the way other people do about their friends/family/partners.
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who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child
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“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years
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the ache in my chest that makes me believe i'm unwanted by everyone
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killing myself is not enough, I wish I never existed in the first place
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"you look so tired" im literally losing my mind
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