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This post is your reminder that you are not obligated to blog about current events.

Things are bad. Really bad. Do not let people guilt trip you into tormenting yourself even further over the fact that things are bad. Doomscrolling is not activism.

If you're just on tumblr to blorbopost or reblog pretty pictures, you are not harming people by inaction.

You are not a bad person for not dedicating every aspect of your life and leisure space to whatever disgusting mask-off attack on human life and dignity some government has decided to enact.

Take action where you can, but don't confuse doomscrolling and digital self harm for action.

If you need to lose yourself in blorboposting, go for it.

If you need to log off for the day, whether it's to take irl action or to protect what little sanity any of us have left over the past 7 years, then by all means, do.

Morale is important. Hope is important. Small joys keep us from burning out completely in times like this. Do not let any "if you don't reblog this I'm judging you" guilt trip convince you otherwise.

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If you’re good at moving and sneaking around undetected, you probably had strict parents

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me: *eats food i know makes my IBD flare up*

my IBD: *flares up*

me: >:0

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If your apology involves degrading yourself, calling yourself shit or insulting yourself, its not an apology, try again.

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It kinda sucks coming on tumblr bc i live to relax and see stupid shit but then theres also the political side. And like im all for understanding and reading and learning and becoming more knowledgeable but on god sometimes i just do not want to see it yknow? Im not in the mood to hear abt the bad shit that i cant help. Like if im so low i come here to cheer up and i get smacked by that heavy political stuff it sucks. And i dont wanna unfollow people because it’s usually like,,, the funny ppl i love to follow or my friends will post that and get rlly into it in between their funny shit and they dont tag it so i cant avoid it on a bad day.

Like i literally love to read and know that shit but sometimes its too much and i just dont wanna unfollow everyone i know for posting current events or something. I just wish theyd tag it and remember to.

I love to see all the art on my dash and awful memes but i do not want to read abt this heavy shit every time i come kn here

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Should i reach out to HR about the worker shortage? Wth are they gonna do for me specifically.

I wish they had some techs ready to go or someone they could allocate to our store because i cant be the only one on schedule: 40/week, unable to get any dr appointments in, days off etc.

ive been sick for 3 weeks now and i had to work. I had to work with a holter moniter too i had to come in on that day off bc the other tech on schedule couldnt come in due to school!! The other techs a full time mom now who the fuck is supposed to cover me!?

I need someone to talk to. I need to find out who can help us. We need another ACTUAL part time tech because i have a life too. Im fucking sick. I need to make 2 dr appointments literally asap and i cant because i work every damn day. I cant even call them, nothing.

And i cant leave my pharmacist alone to drown. I could. I could just take a day off. But i know i see the amount of covid shots and phone calls and pick ups and fills and more we have to do and i know shed drown. Why is there no one to help us? She doesnt even have a god damn partner!! shes worked 90 hours this week because she KNOWS if she takes a day some rando will be in and fuck our ‘scores’ up which are oh so important to corporate. God damn phone wait time shit now; they’re monitoring that now too like theres not only one or two damn people in the pharmacy!!! This is impossible

Im tired of this im done. I literally cant quit because i cant put her in that position of having actually no one. But something needs to happen soon. All the pain im in?? Everything going on? Dude i only had one day off this week and it was shit i was sick as hell!

When they hire someone else im seriously gonna consider quitting and going into another trade.

High demand trade my ass; just means high turnover everyone quitting and shit environment

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Well fitting pants look so fucking good on god, but at the same time its just sensory hell prison and that sucks ass

I want to look evil and sexy >:(!!!

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autisms great. ill be walking down the street and think “am i doing this right”

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Tw sexual abuse and rape, murder

If you tell me he could rape me and kill me whenever, i think ill keep watch myself. If you tell me all this shit you know abt his past and how smart he actually is i dont think id wanna call the cops. If you tell me he has friends who can get me why do you think i feel safe telling you, when you tell me you’ll kill him yourself if you have to. That youll kill or cause a scene thatd cause me to be held hostage basically. Whats not clicking. I get the protectiveness but thats worse that what i couldve done. When he breaks bail hell come for us you said; how can you tell a child that and think it wont have traumatic lasting impact on their decisions and survival choices.

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Just because you couldn’t say something during the abuse doesn’t mean you were siding with the abuser and keeping them safe.

And personally, fuck whoever says that.

Im sorry if you’ve gone or are going through it now but god damn its unnerving sometimes.

Im not and never was siding with that person. I never was. I was scared for my life because of the things you told me he could do.

If youre scared too, know you’ll get out and it doesnt make you a bad person for staying quiet. Youre not doing it because you like them, youre scared. Youre not defending them and letting them continue, youre afraid. At least i was.

I dont ever wanna hear that bs again and i hope anyone going through similar can get out of it. Find safety or have that person leave. Push comes t shove you can finally say something and have safety.

Its asinine; i just really cant believe anyone would think youre protecting someone because youre clearly afraid of what might happen, and have the audacity to get upset shame and argue with you.

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Holidays are bringing out the worst in my patients. Im learning now that in retail, patients dont want you to emphasize or sympathize when theyre upset. It pisses them off more somehow and makes me more uncomfy w my autistic ass just tryna help make the ordeal easier but it makes it worse!!!!

Ig they just want problem solving responses only they dont wanna know that theyre not alone and ive had it happen too and the last person i helped and that ill get them thru this. They hate that so bad.

Im afraid they think its sarcasm but i just dont have the energy to be over the top boohoo sad upset to like, show i felt that way once too?? Idk!

Then u problem solve for them and they argue idk i just- holidays are making ppl really short. They were never this short w me before

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If you try to be everything to everyone, you will eventually burn out to a point where you can't be anything to anyone. You can't keep pouring from a cup you don't refill.

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On a positive note, regarding disordered eating, i found something that i like :0

I got upset and surprisingly i found something i rlly like. So i can eat my easy sweets and actually get benefits from it rather than just sugar.

Theyre called the Z bar, from clif. Theyre meant for kids but that just means they taste better than the ‘adult’ stuff, aka i can tolerate it. I got a variety pack to try and i thought id hate it but i at least rlly like the iced oatmeal bar!!

It reminds me of those oatmeal cream pies. I hate oatmeal on its own but those two bop. Like ill tolerate it. It also has fig paste in it which i was upset to see on the wrapper, i dont like figs, but thankfully ive had fig newtons before and it tastes like those except in the background.

They have choc chip and smores flavor too. They are expensive, like $1/bar or so but if i dont eat the whole box its damn worth it. It helps me go bathroom which is amazing and they taste good. Theyre soft baked and imo easy to chew? I just think theyre neat and theyre rlly getting me thru my sugar cravings without feeling shitty and being able to get nutrients so that makes me feel better.

I also have ‘made good’ granola bars but theyre more expensive imo and i dont like that much granola, the other bars are a winner for me, But the made good bars have vegetable stuff in it and taste like a normal granola bar which is super good and interesting!

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i support universal free healthcare for one simple reason: if you are diagnosed with a terminal illness you should quit your job. quitting your job is the correct response to terminal illness. but you can’t do that if your healthcare is tied to your job

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Fucked up to see pages upon pages of results similar to this. This shouldnt be accepted like genuinely chill tf out.

It wasnt this bad last year. All my patients have been so sharp towards me it gives me another reason to wanna quit, or at least reduce my hours..

Its not even abusive, not yet, theyre just really rude over little things now?? That i dont control? I mean i fix and help it but god calm down i didnt do it???? Its just mentally piling up and i dont have therapy anymore nor fucking time off to chill after that stuff..

I cant even quit or dip hours, i have no one to replace me with everyone quitting cvs left n right.

Im just tired of being on 4-5 days straight and having no one to stand in while my mental health is failing in front of me. I can tell my manager that all i want but she cant help me without another hire. I just need a genuine break.

Im over worked rn and the holiday season isnt feeling very merry at all. Everyones coughing and coming here sick too. Im just annoyed w the lack of safety too.. i genuinely need to find a job without cus. service or at least very minor… im finding out my year of working im not very cut out for this. If its not that its my mystery arthritis kicking my ass idk what to do..