cherryuranus

[cherryuranus]

@poiieo

Hi cuties, how are you? I wondered how old and new people were doing...so yeah, vere I am again :)

I think this might be my last post on this blog, but I would like to talk to you!! So I created a new blog, I'mma post cute stuff, cute quotes, things that make me feel good and safe💕 follow me, if you want, and feel free to text me even if we'd never talked<3

If you need support, I'm here for you, but not on this blog. Please, listen to these beautiful songs, I love them and...maybe they will help you not to feel alone and abandoned.

Ly all, cherry/uranus

[cherryuranus]

24/3. Important!!

I don't know my actual weight, but I see my body such as a beautiful one and...today I thought that maybe, a number on a scale is not the way to misure my body's beauty💕

I hope that everyone is ok...recently, a lot of new ppl have started following me, and I'm a bit upset, because I've understood a lot of things about my body and myself. Yes, I'm recovering, and I'm trying to heal my pain and what my ED causes me. I'm starting to eat sweets, bubble tea, pasta, pizza little by little, I've been not weighting myself since last week (I have to admit that I'm so fucking scared, because I guess I've gained 1kg).

It's so difficult to see your body changes, but I'm learning to "control" panic attacks when I see my thighs a bit chubbier than how I imagine them. I've find out that I can have delicate flat stomach doing abs everyday, instead of fasting for 24 hours and even that I CAN STILL BUILD MY BODYSHAPE IF I EAT SOME ICECREAM OR BREAD.

Last week I ate pasta after 2 months I guess and when I told my dad I almost cried!!! I can do this, I'm starting to have REAL CONTROL on my demons...

[cherryuranus]

12/3. I tried recovery...

...and I feel anxious.

I look at my body and see everything as a huge mass of shit

I look at my shell while I try to shut up that voice that says "you're a failure" .

At first everything was fine, I'd even lost weight eating more! But after a week without workout (because of an ache I had had) I'm feeling hell in my heart.

I see too many muscle or too many fat and I feel heavy. I'm not looking and my body is changing and I can't control it, I'm going to panic soon, TELL ME WHY PEOPLE LOVES THEIR BODIES AND THEN THERE'S ME, A PRISIONER.

My body is a prison, I want to escape, I can't do this anymore...but eating is so good...

today's been the second time I took laxatives and...damn, I'm not doing ok, I'm not doing ok. I just want happiness

[cherryuranus]

you don't see my bones but my pain..

[cherryuranus]

Please try to choose recovery, You can do this!

[cherryuranus]

Hey! Eating 1200 calories a day will slowly raise your metabolism, but you'll still lose weight! Begin by eating 600, then 700, and raise it to 1200! This will help your metabolism, mental health and also your overall wellbeing. You'll gain weight at the start, but in the end, after a few days, your metabolism will adapt. Lot of love, and please stay safe. Remember, you're perfect just the way you are 💕💕

Hey lovely!! Thank you so much for your supportive message, it made me cry, honestly..really, thank you❤ I've realised that I tend to restrict automatically during the day, I think that eating "too much" is not for my stomach, but I guess I'm going to try increasing a bit my calorie intake (always eating healthy food) and excercising...idk, I'll let you know.

A sweet hug🌻

[cherryuranus]

[cherryuranus]

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remember if you want to ask me anything or just rant about your feelings or diet or anything you can ALWAYS message me

i won’t judge you, i promise

[cherryuranus]

i eat a lot of bread because it’s soft and i deserve it. also i am gorgeous

[cherryuranus]

[cherryuranus]

you are important, ok? 💕

gentle reminder

thank you all for fighting even when it’s hard

[cherryuranus]

just a reminder:

"Your body doesn’t define

the beauty inside it”

[cherryuranus]

Cats are cute ok just if you're feeling overwhelmed please, remember that everything's going to be ok and you're so important. I care of you, as you have feelings and emotions

[cherryuranus]

stay safe because I like being alive at the same time as you