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Baby dust to everyone!

Who's in the tww with me? Let's pray this is our month 🌈

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TWW

OPK was positive this morning. My husband and I BD last night and plan to tonight and tomorrow as well. Hoping this is the cycle we get our rainbow. I'm cautiously optimistic that this will be our cycle.

Other thoughts on my mind are mostly around how stressful ttc is, not sure if this is the same for other couples, but it feels like my husband is just so laid back, not worried about anything, he's just so relaxed while I'm over here peeing in cups for ovulation tests, tracking BTT, buying special lubes and vitamins, and tracking my cycle.

How is this fair? lol the husband should have to do some of this, I know obviously they can't, but heck man, it would be nice if we could alternate taking OPK lol like why am I the one that has to pee on my fingers all the time. I tell you what by the time this is over, I'm going to have impeccable aim when it comes to peeing in a cup.

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Impatiently Patiently Waiting

This is my partner and I's first cycle really trying.

I've been using the Clearblue Ovulation tests and I'm starting to get nervous. I have had a flashing smiley for two days and it's driving me crazy. I mean I know I'm still fertile, but I am just waiting for that solid. I'm not sure if the ovulation testing is more nerve-wracking of it the two week wait is more nerve-wracking.

Here's hoping this is the cycle! Send lots of baby dust lovlies!

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Not a Pregnancy Announcement

A year ago this past January, I realized I might be pregnant as I sat on my couch chatting with my mother. I tested negative, but something told me to test again, and I did, for three days on the third day, that is when I got those two pink lines. Those two wonderful pink lines. They were faint, but I figured it could only go up from here right? How wrong I was, I tested the next day just because I couldn't believe it, the lines were more faint, and the next day barely visible. I went to the doctor for blood, and they were barely positive. The following day I started bleeding. Baby boy/girl was my rainbow, and now I had to give him/her back to the universe, where my first angel baby resided. I completely shut my partner out, as a matter of fact, I told him I wanted nothing to do with him anymore, and he didn't understand. In a haste of anger, sadness, and grief I got the Nexplanon put in. I couldn't imagine going through a miscarriage a third time. I just couldn't. Our darling rainbow was due September 13, 2023(based off calculations). And we will love them forever.

This February, I had my Nexplanon removed, and my partner and I are now actively trying to conceive our double rainbow. I will post updates and stories of our journey here as frequently as I remember. It took over a year to be ready to even think of TTC again, but we are ready, with hearts cautious but optimistic. We'll never forget our beloved angel baby. Remember, it is OK to grieve for as long as you need to. Love and baby dust to all!

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I have seen so many announcements this week, and i have been told by so many that they are expecting/haven’t announced. I can’t help but feel jealous.