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Skeleton Arising from a Tomb, Anatomia Humani Corporis, 1685

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when I see this it just looks like the beauty of the feminine life.

a woman be birthed out of a flower.

a flower blooming and stretching its petals.

Sculpture by Jean Antoine Injalbert Chappaz  at the Hotel Béziers in France.

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THIS RIGHT HERE!!!!

everyone loves a good dystopian until the heroin isn’t white

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Have never felt so seen.

i could not survive in ancient greece i would be spending all my money on red figure kraters or whatever. my husband would come home like where did all of the funds for influencing votes go and i'd be like honey look this amphora's got achilles and ajax playing dice on it

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I have no terror of death. It is the coming of death that terrifies me.

— Oscar Wilde, The Portrait of Dorian Gray 

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The song ''misty'' was originally credited to Erroll Garner Trio in 1954, but re-recorded with an orchestral arrangement by Mitch Miller for his album Other Voices that came out 3 years later in 1957.

Ella Fitzgerald also came out with a version in 1960. I'll touch on her song more later.

In 1963, a cover of "Misty" by Lesley gore released on her debut album "I'll Cry If I Want To." where her Hit singles like "It's my party." (the famous chorus from this was in Melanie Martinez's "pity party".2015) and "Judy's turn to cry." also featured on the album.

This song can be so beautiful yet so creepy.

In Miller's version, it sounds so dreamy and it gives me the sense of longing for some you know who isn't good for you but you're just so hazy and in awe of their being to see the signs that this may lead you down a "misty path".

But when I hear Gore's version, it sounds like a creepy obsessed lover who knows what they're doing is bad but, they are just so in love and infatuated with their crush or partner that it drives them absolutely mad and over protective. Going through obsessive love disorder

Which also leads me to believe that would be used in movies like Fear (1996) & love letters (1983).

More recently Laufey covered the song too in her 2023 album Bewitched. Laufey's and Fitzgerald's takes on the song give me the feeling of just gazing out at the window ,all cozied up looking at the beautiful trees inviting fall in to change the color of their leaves.

i truly love all versions of this song so if you have listened to it (or if this blog persuade you enough to go and listen to it) let me know what you think or which version you like the most leave a comment.

As always, I hope you all have a good day and smiled at least once today!

-L.H

(heres Johnny's version)

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emotions aren’t masculine or feminine. they’re human. normalize them.

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Growing/Dying

Growing and dying all at once,

All the time I feel as if I am just a waste of space in this world. but then as soon as I think that an event that will forever change my brain chemistry happens.

Things happen for a reason.

Im still waiting for the reasons but I have faith they will reveal themselves soon.

Yours truly, L.H

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"I am overwhelmed with things I ought to have written about and never found the proper words." -Virginia Woolf

Main -> @apoetsparacosm

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“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.” ― Stephen Chbosky,  The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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Just a little intro!

Hi!!!

For a while, I've felt really alone and just overall terrible. lost at all times.feeling like my brain is always out to get me.

So what did I think would help get me out of this slump? Making a Tumblr of course!

What to expect from this blog. (does this count as a blog?)

I really like movies & shows so there will be little rants or if it is a movie/show one of you recommends I'll let you guys know what I think (cause my opinion definitely matters on this corner of the internet.)

I will be doing the same with books and music too!!

I also write poetry and short stories so there is gonna be a lot of that.

all these things are ways that help me cope and I've been thinking about making one of these for a while so here we are.

So anyways this intro was long enough. I hope you all have a good day and if you have any questions or just wanna say something feel free!!

-L.H