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I'm constantly being torn between wanting to write another fanfiction, and feeling that I've already done the best work for this fandom I can do....

The ideas are there. I know exactly what I want to do. I've dabbled. I've written a few chapters here and there for multiple stories. But I can't for the life of me bring myself to continue writing them in fear that I'll never top what I've already done.

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DUDE so fucking real. I used to be so productive during those years, but now I can only get out one piece of art a week if I'm lucky...

Regular life and trying to make a living these days means you simply don't have time for the things you used to enjoy, and it's the most soul-sucking thing ever.

I'm trying my hardest to make time, but this prioritization you have to do with the limited amount of time you have makes you not want to do anything at all. And I'm trying not to blame myself for it. I've worked so hard in these last few years to make life easier on me in the long run, but the more I work, the more the weight of knowing how little free time I have gets heavier. It's just life. I tell myself this all the time. I simply wish you didn't have to be miserable for so much of your life simply so you can live a "good" one.

There will come a point where you will stop being 18-22 and your art output will slow dramatically, either from life circumstances, work, or schooling, and you will feel the urge to blame yourself for it. Don't!

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Out of context page from a comic I’m working on…

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Qyunn appraised him with the softest smile Astarion had ever known. “My dearest, I would wait until the last star in the Astral Sea burnt out for you. I don’t care if we’re ever intimate, so long as I can hold you in my arms and call you mine.”

Astarion returned his smile. “I wouldn’t mind a few kisses thrown in there as well,” he said.

Qyunn chuckled. “Well then my dearest heart, can I kiss you?”

Astarion’s smile widened. “Darling, there is nothing I’d like more.”

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Oh my goooooooooood!!!!!!!!! <333333333333333 He looks so amazing!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333333333 You did such an amazing job making him!!!!!!!!!! He looks SOOOOOOOOOOO good! TTwTT <3333333

(I have such a strong image of him in my head that I struggle making him in BG3s character creator and my version was no where near this good lol).

Thank you so much for this! It warms my heart that you love Qyunn so much to make him in the game! It truly, truly makes me happy! QwQ <33333333333333

@ceeridwen99 I have no idea how to use Tumblr though I've had an account for awhile but I wanted to share my attempt at Qyunn in game with you. That story, even though I read it in a 5 day blast, has me in a chokehold.

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Planning a new writing project is the hardest part of the creation process when your old project still plays in your head expecting you to write a new chapter...

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Does Qyunn in the canon BG3 universe have a different backstory than your fic? :D

Yes and no. To be a bit of a nerd for a moment, the DM guide ( 5e 2014) states that every campaign that's ever been run is an alternate reality of the canon universe. So, as BG3 takes place in the Forgotten Realms, the video game is just one of many timelines going on simultaneously.

I adhere to that idea quite a bit, and thus Qyunn in every DND universe I come up with, is somehow connected to REDACTED (haha spoilers for my fic), but it's never in the same way.

In the BG3 canon universe, he holds an extremely high position within the REDACTED--which he is no longer a part of--and as such, is still immortal, but his future holds nowhere near the same level of tragedy that my fic's universe has. Each version is very much the same personality-wise, to reasonable degrees, but a simple stroke of fate changed the course of their lives.

(In every universe he and Astarion will always find each other, so that's something. There is no universe where they are not together.❤️)

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Dreamers ✨

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My brain is becoming more and more Jayvik centric and I'm very concerned.

Happy holidays by the way...

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I hope this isn't inappropriate, but...for research purposes what's Qyunn and Astarion's fav...you know...position.......

I don't know how to answer this with art in a way that doesn't get taken down on the site, lol. So I'll just answer it in words.

Astarion and Qyunn are pretty chill when it comes to sex positions, in that they don't really have a preference. Whatever feels good at the moment is what they go for, but Astarion tends to "top from the bottom" quite a bit.

They both enjoy this, but for Astarion it gives him the ability to allow himself to be vulnerable with Qyunn while staying in some sort of control. Some level of control is what Astarion needs to feel comfortable at this point in time, and Qyunn doesn't mind giving it to him, although he's very much an act of service kind of guy in bed. He likes whatever makes Astarion comfortable, but more often than not he's on "top" in some manner as he doesn't like to "receive".

Astarion in my story (if you're referencing BML) is slowly working towards getting used to loving his body sexually again with Qyunn, so he's open to trying things, but they take it slow and let things unfold as they may. :)

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kind of obsessed with the characterization of jayce and viktor as fundamentally good people who will also go absolutely batshit insane if you separate them because theyre also ridiculously codependent to a degree that is concerning for everybody else's wellbeing. they were literally away from each other for a couple of months and almost ended the entire world

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It is taking every ounce of restraint that I have not to get into this fandom, but oh my god, whatever they had going on in season two is CALLING ME!

Them🧎

A humble offering to Jayvik nation

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Umm...out of curiosity...can we see how you envision Ronin?🫣

Here’s the little bastard.

For those of you unaware this is one of the antagonists in my fic "Be My Light". (Kind of a spoiler here but not really lol)

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I have so many things to draw, but there just aren't enough hours in the day..

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So I finally watched Arcane season 2…

I have a lot of feelings about it and none of them are overly positive.

The animation is utterly amazing, that will never change for me. Some of the best animation of our time.

But the writing…the writing….

I’ve never felt so lukewarm before. Let’s just say I really enjoyed the conclusion with Jayce and Viktor. I loved Ekko. But I simply don’t feel satisfied for how that whole conflict shook out.

For a series finale I expected more…I didn’t hate it… but I didn’t love it. I’m so conflicted right now.

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Fem! Astarion being a shorty is so cute to me, she looks barely 5' in your drawing haha

Haha, thanks and you’re probably right! At max maybe 5’3. 😂 Something about fem! Astarion being tiny but ever willing to stab tickles me to no end!❤️

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Reposting this one separately because I like it lol…