ccbellecc - Tumblr blog

[ccbellecc]

Sixteen

It’s been sheer moments,

And contrarily an eternity,

Of which I’ve lived as a sixteen year old girl.

In this time I’m struck by bleak emotions

That tell me at any moment I’ll slip backwards

Never step forward into a life captured in colour,

Memories fading grey with pity,

Or for some, perhaps regretfully they were just never made,

Moments buried when they’re still pink and ripe with the music;

I would cherish it if it could be any other year

When will I no longer be sixteen?

The pressure is placed welcoming an overwhelming conscience,

Events crawl at such a pace -

I’m afraid my own breath will cause it all to collapse into stagnancy.

If I were to slip, I’d hope to fall back into my mothers womb,

Nestled in the heart of a mother,

Fed the love she’s nurtured her whole life for this moment -

I’d have no choice but to accept it.

Seventeen might bring serenity like a child’s ignorance,

But will it ever even come for me?

[ccbellecc]

My sun

There are days when life makes me believe it is inherently poetic

Mostly on days heated by a sticky summer that causes us to huff and puff

I find that in the heat I search for you

Maybe within the sun’s ferocity I’m reminded of my own desires

Like how fingers strum chords, hands strum warm skin

I could spend years in this place

Now I’m no longer sure

Is it the heat or my admiration striking me with such a lethargy?

Impossible to move, impossible to think

Beneath my skin I am buzzing

Perhaps from the insatiable aching of a warmth

Telling me to keep all of you to myself

My sun glows too

Bright and unmissable

My sun is true, with inspiring honesty

She shades the world in a beautiful orange

My sun permeates the heat that colours my cheeks pink

So effortlessly gentle in the hold they take

My sun, my sun, my sun.

[ccbellecc]

444

To grow is to view the world with the hope you wish to create

Even when the roots you keep sink deep into familiar soil

And breaking free isn’t an option for the fragile limbs you bury can’t survive displacement

There are clever ways we can learn to travel beneath the surface of visibility

We stretch to lay the supporting foundations it takes to leap

Soon you will see yourself far away from where you began

But you must trust hope transcends tangibility

It is the burning deep within each soul that guides the living

Believe the future you inhabit always begins out of your reach

And achieve peace by knowing such

[ccbellecc]

sick with the feeling of you

[ccbellecc]

time doesn’t exist with you

[ccbellecc]

driven to tears

[ccbellecc]

$199.99

[ccbellecc]