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midnight diary (wall of text)

pretty soon the nightboat poetry prize will be announcing winners so I can expect my form rejection in my inbox... any minute now.... the manuscript I submitted definitely needs work, and also i'm not particularly experienced at poems? I haven't studied them and I haven't done enough work to improve my poetry skills. so logically I can't really expect much from my submission. with my published works I feel like, maybe I just get lucky sometimes. or that I'm a diversity pick. (in the case of last year's sundress submission, my line of thinking goes: "they already have taiwanese and filipino poets in their most recent roster, there is v little chance theyre gonna get another any time soon, but if they do it's definitely not someone who lacks skills like me, also they should pick the way more talented, deserving poets in the arab/black/latine/indigenous communities" doesn't matter if it makes sense or not, that's just what I end up thinking bc the publishing industry is/was never fair to bipoc especially)

anyway. earlier in the afternoon I was thinking of a possible dmc fic. I got distracted and nearly forgot what it was but I just remembered now! I feel like vergil would be really suited to running a cafe. LOL it's because I was watching cafe vlogs and looking at capcom cafe art. But yes vergil would be great at barista-ing. especially a pro at plating desserts. he would make strawberry sundaes and they would be perfect. dante can't have any tho

I think daily drabble will be good for me after all. And the theme is important. Rewiring my brain, bit by bit...

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luckie dog

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中正區

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vergil megalomaniac fancam

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It grabbed my hair and held me high off the ground. The massive knight with white, shining armor. It blew a heavy sigh, its breath scalding my face through the thin slits of its helmet. I had to fight back somehow, but my kicking legs were too short, arms too weak.

"Release me, foul creature."

The knight raised its sword to my neck. The sharp point tickled my chin. I cracked a smile. The knight didn't like that. The knight howled and drove the sword through my torso. I took it to heart. But I wasn't afraid. I was more angry than anything. This white knight killed a dragon, once. Now the knight wished to kill me.

The hair on my head grew long and wisping, razor-thin, sharp as wires. Longer still, into a flourishing garden that quickly covered the knight and everything around us. And only I remained with sword in hand, alive and well.

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ph. Danko Maksimovic - Paris, France (2025)

Film: Kodak Ultramax 400

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3/15 saturday morning

ahh well I said I was hype about the new silent hill but i'm also questioning why they had to pick a schoolgirl is it to make it marketable is it cuz adult women can't be anything but hideous ghosts or monstrous villains. but whatever it's probably not that deep

if anything I am yearning for a dmc made by a woman. then maybe dmc5 wouldnt be so grossly misogynistic

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wokekishi07 writing the next silent hill girlboss mc:

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Jellyfish

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owls + apples 🍎

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Join my Patreon if you would like to see more horse : )

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Photo by Gökçe Erem

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Lin Onus (Australian, 1948-1996), Arafura Swamp IV, 1996. Synthetic polymer paint on canvas, 182 x 182 cm.

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a zine about the joy you find once you start taking your meds. made from a recycled Trader Joe’s Bag.

Apart of my Trader Joe’s Trash Zine Series

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#5

The woman swung a nail bat at me, but missed when I ducked out of the way. The first time, she was only holding a wooden spatula, and it didn't even hurt when she'd struck my hand then.

"You are useless, stupid, weak, and ugly," she said. The nail bat came down again. I rolled away, landing on my swollen palm. Okay, maybe it did hurt.

"I never asked to be born," I said.

"So did everyone else. You are not special." She aimed for my head again. I couldn't let her kill me. I crawled into a hole and cried until she left.

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3/14 diary

happy friday from 30 degrees Celsius RealFeel 35 degrees Celsius! my brain hasn't fully rotted just yet. I've started #1000daysofdrabble on bluesky just crossposting my things from here whenever I feel like it. just so I won't look completely dead to the world I guess ahaha

is it really mid-march now???

Q1 of 2025 almost over. I like to think that I spent it well, easing myself into new habits and still learning to break out of a negative spiral.

I see comments hating on the Cerberus boss in DMC3 but it's my favorite. The unpredictability is what makes it great...