carabeann

[carabeann]

the other night you told me you loved me.

i felt safe

in your arms

it makes my body ache.

i just want to be close to you

it’s all i want

and you didn’t mind holding me close.

i cant wait for you to hold me again and again, and

again, and again.

please just hold me again

because i do love you

even if i don’t say it too.

-anonymous

[carabeann]

here is a star for everyone who’s not feeling their best today (🌟)

[carabeann]

There came a point when I stopped being able to care

Everything seemed numb and lifeless

Nothing had a point to it anymore,

This shit existence just felt of pure emptiness

Getting out of bed was more energy than it was worth

I didn’t speak to my friends or family anymore

In fact, I didn’t care to do anything at all

Yet I still dreamed of you, falling asleep

Became my favorite thing as it was the closest I could get to ever holding you

I still cried at night over your absence and the highlight of my day became hearing your voice,

it was the only thing in the world that could make me come back to life

I still don’t understand how you did it

How even when I stopped feeling over everything else

I can’t learn how to stop feeling over you

[carabeann]

Every single night I lay on my back and talk to the stars about you. I wonder if they listen.

[carabeann]

Everything was fine till I grew up

[carabeann]

Even though we never said it to each other, we knew.

[carabeann]

I’ll wait and I know I shouldn’t but I will. You’re the one.

[carabeann]

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

[carabeann]

I sometimes wish love didn’t exist. It’s not because of a lack of love but love is always going to end eventually. There’s going to be people who fall in love with someone who’s never going to love them back. There’s people who are going to fall in love with someone and they feel the same way but the love was never really real. There’s going to be people that never get to experience their love with anyone. Love is painful but we all need it to survive.

[carabeann]

“I am not a mathematician, but I know this: There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a Bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful.”

John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

[carabeann]

thank you so much for coming into my life,

teaching me,

showing me,

what it’s like to be true

[carabeann]

everything i had was for you

from what i owned

to what i felt

until you chose him, and i realized,

if i couldn’t have you, nobody could.

so i sat there,

trembling on my kitchen floor

thinking about what i had done

leaving me with nothing

but a blood stained sweater.

everything i had was for you.

me haha this is fun

[carabeann]

I’d walk with you in the light and darkness

[carabeann]

I’ve wrote songs about you, wishing one day you’ll be able to hear them.

[carabeann]

you make life worth living, even if you don’t think you’re the one.

[carabeann]

love can be a beautiful thing if you make worth of it.

[carabeann]

this is so random but something I find absolutely adorable is when someone passionately talks about something they love. like sometimes I do/don’t care for the subject but them just talking about it makes me all happy inside. yk?