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hair is washed. i am lovable and capable of loving again

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Brown bear and ravens By: Antti Leinonen From: Realms of the Russian Bear 1992

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The Previous Tenant, WIP by castlemonster

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Magic lantern slides (ca.1700 - ca.1830)

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society if women were seen as people

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The problem is that America has beaten down its people for decades and gotten them weak and desperate and now promises a way out, a way to transcend and rise above, through selling out their fellow man. They encourage contempt and hatred as one way ticket to not being included with the masses being death marched to poverty or imprisonment or whatever other bitter end surely awaits the people they’re told are beneath them. An embarrassingly large chunk of white men are just straight up nazis these days as a way to dissociate from the rest of the carnage around them, even if they’re broke and uneducated and from an impoverished background themselves. They’ll vote for and align themselves with anything for a taste of power and control that makes them feel a little less helpless. The same goes for minorities. They’ll punch down if they think it’ll get them somewhere, even if in reality they’re punching sideways. I don’t know what else to say, really. Everybody is so incredibly hateful. We are a loveless, disrespectful nation. We are so spread thin by our government that we would sell each other out in a heartbeat for an ounce of relief. This is what we’ve come to.

It’s not even about Trump at this point. He’s gonna get in office and do whatever he does and it’s gonna be a mess but whatever. This is indicative of deeper problem. This is just the ugly consequence of the already present reality in this country that we all just despise each other. There is no solidarity and there is no love. Trump being in office or not doesn’t change the fact that America is a breeding ground for violent hatred. Trump has given people a shining example of how to give in to the worst parts of your human nature and make it the problem of everyone around them. I don’t even know what we’re supposed to do about that. I don’t know if that’s something we can come back from. And if anything COULD be done about it, Trump certainly wouldn’t do it. Honestly, Kamala probably wouldn’t have either. We are so deeply fucked.

However, I must say, if you voted for Trump, I hope that peace never finds you. Instead, I hope clarity strikes you someday like a clap of lightning and you have to live the rest of your life with the knowledge and guilt of what you’ve done and who you are as a person.

Love yall. Shit is so bleak but the world keeps spinning until it doesn’t, I guess. We can’t count on the government for literally even a shred of progress or hope so just keep up the good fight in your own personal lives. That’s literally the only thing to be done at this point. Stay safe out there. Maybe buy a gun.

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trade offer !!

you receive: my friendship

I receive: your friendship

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yes.

yes, your contact is in my favorites. yes, it's been five years. yes, i'm so glad you came out. yes, i liked your facebook post. yes, i wonder if you ever truly loved me like you said you did. yes, you hating me for being gay ruined me. yes, i still love you like i did then. yes, i still drive by your old house and imagine an eight year old you smiling at me. yes, i think about you always. yes, it stings when i see you and your beautiful girlfriend on instagram. yes, i remember your mom's boyfriend's name and how he never liked me. yes, it's your birthday and i'm thinking about you. yes, i never hear a whitney houston ballad without you flashing in my mind. yes, your picture is still in my mom's office. yes, i eat figs and think about that december. yes, i like to think that you think of me too.

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"none of these words are in the bible" you're not even reading the secret part of the bible. with all my posts in it

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i am so happy for you and your ugly fucking boyfriend im serious

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No Noise November. everyone shut up

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how can white women expect me to live laugh and love when james potter is living alone in his house in brazil

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6x8in 2019 watercolor LVP

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me sexting: i feel like something bad is going to happen to me. i feel like something bad has happened. it hasn't reached me yet but it's on its way.

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Christina Marie Brown, Ghost I

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Gut Symmetries, Jeanette Winterson

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my wife died 43 years ago today.