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trade offer !!

you receive: my friendship

I receive: your friendship

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yes.

yes, your contact is in my favorites. yes, it's been five years. yes, i'm so glad you came out. yes, i liked your facebook post. yes, i wonder if you ever truly loved me like you said you did. yes, you hating me for being gay ruined me. yes, i still love you like i did then. yes, i still drive by your old house and imagine an eight year old you smiling at me. yes, i think about you always. yes, it stings when i see you and your beautiful girlfriend on instagram. yes, i remember your mom's boyfriend's name and how he never liked me. yes, it's your birthday and i'm thinking about you. yes, i never hear a whitney houston ballad without you flashing in my mind. yes, your picture is still in my mom's office. yes, i eat figs and think about that december. yes, i like to think that you think of me too.

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"none of these words are in the bible" you're not even reading the secret part of the bible. with all my posts in it

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i am so happy for you and your ugly fucking boyfriend im serious

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No Noise November. everyone shut up

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how can white women expect me to live laugh and love when james potter is living alone in his house in brazil

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6x8in 2019 watercolor LVP

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me sexting: i feel like something bad is going to happen to me. i feel like something bad has happened. it hasn't reached me yet but it's on its way.

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Christina Marie Brown, Ghost I

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Gut Symmetries, Jeanette Winterson

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my wife died 43 years ago today.

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Embracing my demons. French kissing them. Might fuck them.

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the idealized version of my tomorrow self will fix this

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start seeing everything as God, but keep it a secret

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once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see

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everyone from childhood seems to have carved out a life for themselves. i still feel 15 and completely hopeless

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“Crying moon” by Robin Isely