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Things are slowly taking shape as I make my arrangements before leaving to a new-old adventure. Honestly, a big part of me wants to stay here, with all the amazing people I've met, the freedom I've experienced and the opportunities possible here... But for now, I know what's the right thing to do. It's bitter sweet. Right now, more bitter than sweet, but truly, like everything, another catalyst for growth. 🖤🖤🖤 #goth #gothguy #tattooed #tattooedguys #gothgoth #instagay #instagoth #gaygoth #altboy #spookyboys #pierced #gothsofinstagram #tattooed #tattooedguys #tattoedboys #alternative #gayboys #gaysofinstagram #gayboy #gaymen #gay #veganguys #inked (at Leipzig, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvaClHqgXuh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s6pwktxurd06

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Don't follow me, I'm more lost than you. Photographer: @thomassprenger.fotografie for @jadedjewall 🖤 #goth #gothguy #tattooed #tattooedguys #gothgoth #instagay #instagoth #gaygoth #altboy #spookyboys #pierced #gothsofinstagram #tattooed #tattooedguys #tattoedboys #alternative #gayboys #gaysofinstagram #gayboy #gaymen #gay #postapocalyptic #punk #urbanexploration (at Berlin, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/caligo_bastet/p/BqrdKKyAEVP/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6q7a62mafltx

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I went through it. I went through it all. I was bullied, assaulted, laughed at, unaccepted, felt unloved and the loneliest one could ever be. I know how it feels. I'm writing this from my very core, still echoing this hurt. But it gets better. It truly, truly does. Once you can make your own destiny, be a master of your your own life, it gets better. I've met amazing people. Like-minded, genuine, sweet, open. Ones I can relate to, and them to me. Ones I can be myself with and... For once... Feel free. I would never, in a million years, go back to my childhood or teenage years. I've since learned what it means to be loved, what it means to love and, most importantly, what it means to be free. And I promise you, one day you will too. Just hang in there! This world needs you to teach it your lessons. To inspire others. To give it what only YOU can give. You're special in ways that you don't even know yet, and they're just afraid of what you may give to the world, what you can accomplish in the future, who you will become. Know that you you ARE loved, You ARE accepted, by all of us, outcasts, by all of us changing the world one step at a time. I was you. I AM you. And you'll be me. You ARE me. Just hang in there. 🖤🖤🖤 #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #itgetsbetter #outcast #youareloved https://www.instagram.com/caligo_bastet/p/Bpy5ohnAzWa/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3hebx8o8lrv7

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Bitch, I'm back! I'm considering moving to Berlin. If you know of any apartments, please do hit me up! I'm facing many decisions right now, but I'm also excited to pursue the one thing I've always wanted to do. Uploading a video very soon explaining everything and getting back to actual work. It's about time. Picture by @deadwalkinglucy Editing and everything else by me. 🖤🖤🖤 #goth #gothguy #tattooed #tattooedguys #gothgoth #instagay #instagoth #gaygoth #altboy #spookyboys #pierced #gothsofinstagram #tattooed #tattooedguys #tattoedboys #alternative #gayboys #gaysofinstagram #gayboy #gaymen #gayman #veganguys #fitgay #fitvegan #fit #model #malemodel #altmodel #altmodels #altfashion #berlin (at Berlin, Germany) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo7DjNciJu5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19snw99wyxzq8

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My sleeve is FINALLY complete, together with corrections to my chest piece. So happy that I've finally finished it. To me, these are so much more than just tattoos. It makes me feel like the outside matches my inside. It makes me feel safe. It makes me feel at home in my own body. I don't know much now, I don't know where I'm headed, but what I do is know is that I finally feel comfortable with myself, and that's worth everything. I wanna thank my amazing tattoo artist @helena_addams_tattoo for these amazing works and being so patient and sweet, as I know I can be too much of a perfectionist. P.s: filled with plasma and blood here. Yum. 🖤🖤🖤 #goth #gothguy #tattooed #tattooedguys #gothgoth #instagay #instagoth #gaygoth #altboy #spookyboys #pierced #gothsofinstagram #tattooed #tattooedguys #tattoedboys #alternative #gayboys #gaysofinstagram #gayboy #gaymen #gay #veganguys #ancientegypt https://www.instagram.com/p/Bno94P9gEfS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19mu4p6tqlgdj

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First part of the Mera Luna vlogs now up! Go watch and subscribe, if you haven't already <3

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Slowly getting used to my new life as it all starts to feel more real. Still, getting back to to work is proving to be hard but I'm definitely doing my best (and with no stable internet connection, also impossible at times, sadly). Through all of this, and trying to remember the reason I came here... I just realized I how much singing means to me. It's not like like it's a new concept for me, but even in my greatest downs the chance of having a place to sing, the chance of making that the center of my life, breaths new life in me. Resurrects me. Ignites the biggest spark I've ever felt. That's why I came here. And so I'm now looking for for a band to work with and make this a reality. It's time to stop living in my fantasy world and FINALLY do the one thing I I've always known to be my very life essence. Not hing compares to this. Go for what you live for, you'll never regret it. No matter the cost. 🖤🖤🖤 (at Leipzig, Germany)

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Sneak peek at the new collection of @necrohexclothing releasing this Saturday, the 21st of April at 10 PM Central European time! 🖤

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My work mode pose. New collection of @necrohexclothing coming up this upcoming Saturday, April 21st!!! Really excited to show you guys what I'm working on but now... Getting back to working non-stop on this collection. Honestly - SO much going on in my life right now that it's simply insane but I'm gonna try and keep you guys more updated and put out a more content 🖤🖤🖤 #goth #gothguy #tattooed #tattooedguys #pierced #tattoedboys #gothgoth #gaygoth #altboy #spookyboys #gayguy #gayboys #instagay #instagoth #occultclothing

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Thought this way would be easier to announce. I'm finally moving! Or at least going for a month and then, if all's good, moving to Leipzig. 🖤🖤🖤

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Yeah, I can do normal fashion as well, but where's the fun in that? Working on the new collection of @necrohexclothing and low key freaking out realizing I'm moving to Germany in a month and a half. 🖤 Old photo revisited. Taken by Eitan Tal for Primadonna Magazine.

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A snippet from an upcoming cover. Only when you see me truly sing do you realize that what I always say is true: Singing is my ultimate form of release to my, usually numb, self. The only time in which I truly feel alive. 🖤

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Exactly how I feel today. Damaged, broken, worthless. Old photoshoot with: @zhenyazombie Model, makeup, editing, etc: myself.

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Just filmed a tutorial for this look. It'll be up this week 🖤 Don't really know what to write about, I feel quite weird lately, a bit disconnected. Not sure what's that's about. Just a bit fed up with most people and things. At least I gifted myself the PentaKill Vest from @necrohexclothing as I truly love it and been wanting to keep it from the very start. I'm getting there, it just takes time. Have a great week 🖤

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Just joined Vero! I read the guidelines and found out I was wrong, so giving it a try :) So far it's VERY buggy, though, so I really hope they fix it soon. Come join me there and let's find our new home, away from stupid algorithms :P 🖤 #vero #followme

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Finally done with the chest tattoo (probably just small touch ups soon). Work by the amazing @helena_addams_tattoo. Gonna go rest from this long day and from the damn allergy pills that destroyed me. Finally back to normal! Do you guys have any future tattoos plans? Have a great night 🖤

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I'm trying my best... But I can't help but beat myself up for not getting there by now. That has always been my downfall. Never enough in my own eyes. Between creation and complete abyss. Confutatis maledictis, Flammis acribus addictis, Voca me cum benedictis. 🖤