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I don’t remember if I posted this one

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idk where all my posts went ! anyway

12/14/2021 music update >:]

- before listing any artists and songs, ive started listening to sad music. i remember never wanting to because itd make me sad. im not sure what changed. - a lot of like. hyperpop lskdg - it helps my anxiety a lot to blast like,, really compact????????? like, crowded ? music. it slaps too so thats a plus. i have 350 streams on this one particular song called think you right by ericdoa/glaive. i listen mainly to them, and 100000% especially brakence dUDE brakence would 100% be my top artist of the year if i used spotify. lob him, bangers only - “slow buildup” music - real love by big thief, your best american girl by mitski, holy f*****g shit: 40,000 by have a nice life, night shift by lucy dacus - just- a lot of mitski. super excited for laurel hell in february. also very specifically velvet ring by big theif as well - sufjan stevens now !! kinda sad bangers wahoo !! back to oz n fourth of july , banger alert wOOOO - um. doja cat my queen, lil nas x wooo some, glass animals perhaps >:) - frank ocean ! badbadnotgood ! king princess ! _ “kring” music from like. dsmp stuff sob and cry BUT lovejoy, absolutely incredible. for the love of god if someone somehow finds this GO LISTEN TO THE FALL BY LOVEJOY THANKS - im puttin down brakence again. because. argyle. ginger tea. i loop - JE TE LAISSERAI DES MOTS WOOOO AND HUBERT LENOIRS NEW ALBUM - DPR live and good kid and bad bunny and still woozyyyyy  - HONEYBEE BY STEAM POWERED GIRAFFE. it’s jordan’s song :] - low beam by her’s i cannot listen to it enough i <33333 - human sadness by the voidz, eternally a banger. ALSO ! alien crime lord by them. and rises the moon by liana flores i can’t emphasize it enough that song means so much to me - m aneskin and the oral cigarettes as welllll so :D - AMOEBA BY CLAIRO - i eat boys and i wanna be with you by chloe moriondoooo, everything but the girl, bombay bicycle club a bit as well, lemon demon

BANGERS ONLY LETS GO

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Happy Pride!

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Source: The Girl From the Other Side: Siúil, a Rún | Totsukuni no Shoujo | とつくにの少女

by Nagabe

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it is nice to eat breakfast, dancing between two sources of sustenance, and thinking to yourself in a fatigue-induced reverie: which one do i like the taste of more - eggs or postpartum depression?

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not that anyone cares but i want to document music changes over time and im keepin stuff here so might as well. SO!! 8/19/2020, my music taste currently consists of:

- brazilian poet band Legiao Urbana becaue hello god! - Joji. Every joji song ever. im mad that chloe burbank isnt on apple music - 5 hours of relaxing psychedelic space rock music - youtube - Human Sadness - The Voidz, Hai Domo - Cao White, Action! - DPR LIVE - Aggressive korean rap and  on occasion aggressive america rap, that i really only listen to because that one line has IMPECCABLE flow and voices r nice - EVE!!!! FUCKIN E V E ! ! ! ! ! !  ! !  (tokyo ghetto??? godly.) - a shit ton of vocaloid stuff again. Spinal Fluid Explosion Girl HhHHHHHH - Isa’s angry japan guitar music, ex. Kizukeyo Baby or Kyouran Hey Kids!! because god as well. thanks. - AND OF COURSE!!! We Hate JH - also Crumb, CASTLEBEAT’s Vhs album, Current Joys, Soccer Mommy, The Cure, Lucas Lex, also uh Slipknot and very specifically Bodies by Drowning Pool because i listen to screaming people music now woo - For some reason a slowly increasing amount of MCR t u n e s - Hubert Lenoir and I cannot stress this enough. Underrated senor.

i have over 1000 songs on my phone and they all be 10/10 maybe i have shit music taste and just listen to everything or perhaps i am an elite who knows

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‘Race and racism is a reality that so many of us grow up learning to just deal with. But if we ever hope to move past it, it can’t just be on people of color to deal with it. It’s up to all of us – Black, white, everyone – no matter how well-meaning we think we might be, to do the honest, uncomfortable work of rooting it out. It starts with self-examination and listening to those whose lives are different from our own. It ends with justice, compassion, and empathy that manifests in our lives and on our streets.’ — Michelle Obama

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Frogmic: Frog Song

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uhhh anyway PINGU IS MY FAVORITE ANIME!!!

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🌻 fae offerings for beltane 🌻

if you’re like me and completely forget about beltane the day before and need to do something easy, fae offerings are a good option!

time: best performed at beltane, but you can leave a fae offering anytime!

gather: milk, honey, dried lavender, thyme, daisies, other flower heads of your choice

🌿  find a shallow bowl / dish and fill it with milk

🌿  stir in some honey

🌿  add dried lavender, thyme and any other herbs you like

🌿  make a daisy chain long enough to surround your offering (this will also protect the offering from evil spirits and pesky cats)

🌿  add some flower heads that are seasonal to beltane. i used dandelions and violets!

🌿  if you like, you could add some coins or other shiny objects that attract the fae

note: as i was setting this offering up, i heard the gentle tinkling of a wind chime. this usually is a sign of nearby fae, so i took this as a good omen! if you experience this as well lmk 🌙

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Basic Homesteading Skills

Crafts

quilting

embroidery

cross-stitch

knitting

crochet

sewing

Cooking and Baking

homemade bread

homemade butter

homemade extracts

dandelion jelly

Canning

26 canning recipes

canning jars 101

60 canning recipes

Gardening

edible trees to plant

what to plant to save the bees

cure and braid garlic

save seeds for next year

braid onions for long term storage

build a greenhouse

Animals

homemade chicken feed

raising mealworms for chickens

why to raise nigerian dwarf goats

Outdoors

starting a fire with sticks

trail signs

knotting

find true north without a compass

Medicine

homemade neosporin

all purpose healing salve

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“Subliminals work very fast for me.”

Requested by @asteriashy

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Energy Clearing And Infusing

A couple of weeks ago I met up with my Master Teacher over lunch and we had some rather nice discussions, most of which centered around spirit working and clearing of energy from spaces. She was telling me of how she was called to a business that was struggling with some spirit activity, and it was deemed necessary to have it cleansed. She told me how she found that there were some spirits being held under the abusive control of another spirit there, and she had to banish that entity and allow the other spirits to leave. Once that had been done, she said she sealed the area off to prevent the negative entity or any like it from entering while she purified the space from the held energy within the walls of the building. While she did this, she infused the area with a new energy, telling the space what energy it would now hold and resonate with. This was a step that I had not thought of in any of the cleansings I had done. Naturally, when she finished, I asked her about this step, because it intrigued me, and this is what she told me:

“The universe cannot stand voids. Where you banish an energy, especially a massive amount that has been held for so long, you have to put something back in there. You have to tell those walls, that space, what you want it to resonate with, or that energy you just banished will come right back in, or more like it can later on down the road. You have to give it a new memory and a new vibrational frequency to permanently seal off that area, otherwise you have a reoccurring need to continuously cleanse the area because it will always attract what it formerly had.”

That is a key point that I more or less overlooked, and in part because I thought it was an unnecessary step. I figured I had the shields and walls all around the spaces I have created, so why bother? Whereas that method does work as well, it gets tiring because I have to be the one to keep up that high level of maintenance. It leaves little energy left over for me to do my other energy workings, and that I find tiresome. In fact, later that same week I had to tell some spirits to leave because I was too tired to work with them. I had a wicked migraine setting in and just did not want to deal with any visitors that night. Around that time I figured I had nothing to lose in trying that method I had just learned from my teacher, so I did a heavy cleansing of my space, followed by the infusion ritual. In this, I lit an herb blend along with my candles, called in the cast of beings I wanted to host for this ceremony, and filled the space with the new energy I wanted the room to vibrate with, while sealing it off from what was unwanted. From time to time I will reinforce the herb energy infusion with another lighting of the blend, but for the most part, it maintains well! An oil based infusion of those herbs is also in the works, which will be great for multiple uses. What effects has this had, you might ask? Good question! This has afforded me a better reserve of energy since I no longer have to expend as much of it cleansing and re-cleansing or continually having to re-fortify and affirm safeguard shields on the room, as the infusion takes the brunt of the work for me. I have a better mood because I do not feel as tired and drained, and when I do hit a mood slump, I have more of my own energy to put toward the needed work to correct the issue as it arises. More energy means more enthusiasm which is also why I am now able to write more, so I have been at my art more and keeping better track of my own progresses in my journals again. I also find I am getting better sleep and this is in part due to the infusion type I have chosen to use. The air of the room is far better, and that is owed to the fact that the room truly does resonate with that energy I requested of the herbs, and it is a marvelous thing. It has never been more relaxing and inviting, and even the entities I invite for the ceremonies seem to enjoy it more. I know I cannot keep my pets out of there, that’s for certain. As with all things I write, take what resonates with you, leave the rest at the door. There is no right and wrong, there is just what works best for you, and what you feel most comfortable and at home with. Bright blessings!

~Starlight Silver

*Note also: This was done with crystals and their energy as well as that of the elements/elementals and other spirits that were invoked during the initial process of cleansing and infusing. Many lent their energy to this process, so when you do this, use the energy of what/whoever you think will bring you the best result or the greatest harmony for your space. This is customizable, hence the lack of a list of things used. Use as many or as little as you want. Go on your own intuition, because what was intuitively right for me may not be what resonates best for you. Use your inner wisdom and guidance to find your right blends or specific processes. It is far better to decide for yourself, and far more personal when you do, and that tends to be more potent in my opinion than taking my word for it alone.

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(left) I am at peace (right) Calm flows through me | my sigils

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Ornithological Divination

-The counting or divining of birds in real life or dreams to predict future outcomes for oneself or others

☼ Magpies

Possibly one of the more well known birds to count and divine from especially in the British Isles. Saluting magpies or acknowledging them is a sure way to make sure they do not pass on bad luck to you as they are proud and temperamental creatures.

A popular rhyme to determine how your fate or that of those around you by counting how many magpies you see in a day is as follows: One for sorrow, Two for joy, Three for a girl, Four for a boy, Five for silver, Six for gold, Seven for a secret, Never to be told. Eight for a wish, Nine for a kiss, Ten a surprise you should be careful not to miss, Eleven for health, Twelve for wealth, Thirteen beware it’s the devil himself.

Magpies may also represent these attributes or signs both in dreams and in real life: cunning, resolution, good luck, love, deception, pride, thievery and gossip.

☼ Crows

Likely the most well known bird to divine from, crows have been used in literature, poetry and plays to signify a great many things (though not many of them pleasant). However, seeing a crow or hearing its call may not always be a bad omen- as you will see below.

Crows typically symbolise the following (keep in mind that different cultures view crows in different ways): magick, mystery, death, bad luck, rebirth, change, intelligence, overlooking something, lingering sadness and solitude.

Hearing a crow’s call in the morning may indicate trouble ahead in the day, in the early afternoon indicates a fortuitous day, in the late afternoon it may mean that there is something crucial in the day you have forgotten, in the evening it may mean they are bringing you messages from the spirits and at night it may mean that bad luck is headed your way.

☼Pigeons and Doves

Perhaps the most endearing birds on the list (and personal favourites of mine), pigeons and doves are often overlooked because there are just so many of them around- especially if you live in a city. However, their presence and behaviour is notable when you see them where you might not expect or if they seem particularly keen on being close to you.

Pigeons and doves typically represent the following characteristics, however they are seen as a pest in many cultures so these have been derived from more ancient ideas: adaptation, resilience, meekness, modesty, purity, peace, love, devotion, kindness, embarrassment, sacrifice and discomfort.

If a pigeon or dove is near to you or if one appears seemingly from nowhere, it is typically a good omen and likely means that people have thought positively of you that day. If you see two pigeons or doves fighting however it can indicate that whilst good intentions were meant, a situation has become sour due to misunderstanding and a sacrifice must be made on both sides.

☼Hawks/Birds of Prey

Hawks and BoP are a really common bird in the countryside and wooded areas, although they can sometimes be seen in cities that are close to these areas too. These birds have been used in literature and in divination for a long time and in many cultures represent messengers from the spirit world.

Hawks and Birds of Prey are often thought to represent the following in divination: spirituality, connection to the earth, focus, clear vision, intuition, precision, unseen knowledge, danger, wiseness and elders.

Typically if you see a hawk or BoP it might signify that you are close to gaining knowledge and intellect that was previously unknown to you- that you will likely gain this knowledge through your own intuitive means. However, this knowledge may be dangerous and could lead to unwanted scenarios and situations so caution is advised.

☼ Owls

Owls are sure signposts in divination as they are usually quite rarely seen due to their behaviour. For this reason, seeing an owl can often give you a very straightforward glimpse into future events and emotions. Despite this however, owls are incredibly spiritual birds so making sure to understand their message fully is vital to proper divination and respect for owls.

Owls in tradition and literature have typically been viewed as showing the following things: wisdom, clarity, knowledge, retribution, deceit, a battle in one’s mind, change, death, illusion and transformation.

It is likely that if you see an owl you have been given a special insight through the spirit world to hidden information and wisdom that will guide you for the rest of your life. Omens such as death and deceit should, however, also be noted as key factors in whether your future with this new knowledge will be pleasant or a battle yet to be won.

☼Robins

Robins are beautiful and often shy birds that are found across the world. They often have a beautiful red coloration on their chest and have deep spiritual meanings and connections.

Seeing a robin may indicate the following: good luck, passion, bravery, fleeting love, an accident, a secret admirer, good news, new beginnings, honour, joy, patience and renewal.

If you see a robin it is likely that there is positivity to look forward to in the future, especially in love and in your own self. Expect good news soon that will transform your life, even in the smallest ways, and make it a whole lot better. Although, it is possible that with this positivity comes loss of something dear such as a lover leaving or movement from a path you were sure you would take.

☼ Swans

Swans are another example of birds that are frequently used to divine from, simply because of their clear connotations and meanings. Although they can be temperamental, these birds are very much intertwined with fate and divination as a whole.

When you see a swan it is likely that it may mean one of these things: motherhood, love, devotion, partnership, loyalty, youth, children, pride, dreams, strong emotions, creativity, purity, transformation, jealousy, arrogance and stubbornness.

Swans in dreams and in real life usually mean that a relationship with someone is strengthening or changing in some way, whether it be for better or for worse. Whilst swans do show the positive side to relationships with traits such as loyalty and devotion, they can also show the negative side where jealousy and stubbornness can halt the progress of a blooming connection as doubt becomes the main thing on someone’s mind. Therefore, it should be noted that caution should be taken in divining from swans as all may not be as it seems.

☼Storks

One of the few birds that everyone knows has one meaning in particular. Birth, children, fertility etc show a clear pattern in the meaning behind a stork. Storks however, have some other surprising meanings that may show how ungeneric a stork can be.

Aside from the aforementioned meanings, storks can also represent: regality, longevity, fidelity, purity, prosperity, protection, good luck, renewal, moving on, femininity, war, greed, theft, sin and cleansing of sin.

Many of a stork’s meanings have to do with key traits we typically want to see in ourselves. Storks may represent what we long for in life and that eventually, we will achieve it. Its negative meanings may show what we have to go through in order to get to where we want to be with ourselves as we learn how to overcome adversity and challenge ourselves to be better. Tossing aside negativity, prejudice, hate and fear seem to be the goals that storks typically entail.

These are just a few birds you can divine from but there are so many more with lots of different meanings like hummingbirds, kingfishers, cuckoos etc.

I hope this brief list has helped and if you have any questions please feel free to ask.

Blessed be and good luck upon you all ☼

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It’s a minor pet peeve, but it is everywhere today so errrr…. please keep in mind that “Rest in Peace”/RIP literally comes from a latin phrase and is a very very deeply Christian expression.

When talking about the departed, Jews say “may their memory be a blessing.”

So please, when talking about a dead person who is Jewish, try to keep in mind that RIP is a Christian phrase.