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✨Wayne Bat Siblings✨

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wymack after neil's first time in columbia: i am lost of words!

andrew, narrating: despite being lost of words he managed to yell at me for forty five minutes

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I have realized that the perfect form of media must have a delicate balance between absolutely heart wrenching pure emotional devastation and the most ridiculous nonsense you have ever seen in your whole life

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christmas is not the most pleasant time for neil, because the memories and nightmares still torment him, but now neil is not alone

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After Andrew started making Neil hold his hand, Neil decided he loved it. A month or so later, he was trying to figure out how to take it a step further. He was scared less of embarrassing himself, and more of upsetting Andrew. Finding a comfortable next step might be a little difficult.

It hit him one lazy morning. He woke up first, which is to be expected. (Andrew wasn't a morning person and often grumbled about Neil's tendencies to be up at the cracks of dawn.) He was watching Andrew sleep, admiring his only slightly more peaceful face.

The only parts of them that was touching were the arm Andrew had stretched out under the pillow Neil was laying on, and the arm Andrew had thrown across Neil's waist sometime during the night. Neither one of them ever moved much while they were sleeping, so they were both still facing eachother.

Today he found himself staring at Andrew's lips. His mouth was so fascinating for Neil, because of the words he spewed like venom, and the kisses that he covered Neil in despite claiming indifference.

Neil was a little bit more selective of where he kissed Andrew, there were boundaries. But while he was admiring Andrew, he came to a bit of a realization once again, that as long as he asked, he might just be able to do the same, outside of the bedroom even.

A couple days later, the Foxes took a pitstop for coffee on the way to a game, they weren't particularly worried about their opponent, it'd be an easy win and everyone knew it. It was almost unfair how much of an advantage the Foxes had.

While they were waiting in line, Andrew grabbed Neil's hand. It wasn't really romantic, Andrew was still stiff about it, but it sent a shiver down Neil's spine regardless. Now would be a good time.

"Yes or no?" His voice might've cracked, but Andrew thankfully didn't mention it, he just raised an eyebrow and considered him slowly.

"Yes."

Neil took a deep breath and turned towards Andrew, leaning down. Andrew started to tilt his head up, seemingly expecting a peck on the mouth. But Neil carefully raised a hand to Andrew's head and turned it so he could place a kiss on Andrew's forehead.

The reaction when Neil pulled away was immediate. Andrew's face flushed and his eyes widened as he stared at Neil in disbelief. A couple seconds later he regained his composure. He jabbed Neil in the side with his free hand, and squeezed the hand that was holding Neils so hard Neil wouldn't have been suprised if bones broke.

"You're a fucking Junkie." He hissed.

"You liked it."

"I hate you."

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25 year old Andrew to his younger self: we’re in love with a man, we have cats together, you have a twin brother, we go to therapy weekly but we made it. We are alive.

14 year old Andrew, who thought he wouldn’t make it to 18, was in denial about his sexuality, hated every therapist he’d ever met, and had no idea aaron existed yet: what.

6 year old Andrew: we’re in love? We have a brother?! 🥺

25 year old Neil to his younger self: you play exy professionally now, and you’re no longer on the run, you have a partner named Andrew. You love him with everything you have. You’re safe.

14 year old Neil, tired, who very much thought he’d be dead by now: we’re not running? It’s over?

6 year old Neil: WE GET TO PLAY EXY?!

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Booktuber Andrew Minyard who absolutely rips apart debut writer Neil Josten's mafia novel for being unrealistic only for Neil to go through all the trouble of setting up a YouTube account so he could comment: "It's an autobiography."

Andrew refuses to back down in the comments but four months later someone manages to catch a screen grab of Neil sneaking around in the background in Andrew's latest monthly wrap up.

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The foxes: so-

Andrew: no

Neil: hey a-

Andrew: I guess. You convinced me. You really did something there with your words. I’ll do it.

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Neil: *fake name, fake ID, fake birthday, fake hair and eye color, fake background story*

Andrew: Hm, that seems like a person with a totally legit driver's license. I'm gonna let him drive the Maz.

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cat who hacksd the no fly list literally my hero

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neil doesn’t cry

like ever

tortured? nope

kidnapped? either

you name it, he doesn’t

and neither does andrew

that is why andrew after his last game at palmetto didn’t know how to react

for the last match of the season all the upperclassmen went to watch the game and at the end after the foxes fourth consecutive, and for andrew last, victory they all rushed onto the field to celebrate

after the usual shaking hands with the opposite team, some celebration with the crowd and an unusual refusal from neil to do press duties, they all file back in the changing room to get ready for their night in columbia

at that moment they had already finished the game a good hour ago, they were all showered and ready but still in the stadium because neil still had to get out of the locker room

but since neil abram josten is famous for his fast plays, his smart mouth and a fucking gigantic red target on his back that says ‘hurt me’, and the last time he took too long to get ready he actually received a phone call informing him he was about to get kidnapped, andrew felt the urge to go check on him

it didn’t take long for andrew to notice no one in sight, it took him even less to hear the muffled sobs coming from the showers

and that was unexpected

they would have known if there was someone else other than neil in the changing room since they were waiting right outside the only existing entrance

so he quickly ruled out the option of neil being attacked

the only other option was that he got seriously hurt during the game and that for some absurd reason andrew didn’t notice, so when said that andrew bolted toward the sound it was not an understatement

he was there, fully clothed and washed, crunched on the floor, hands covering his face and at the same time trying to muffle the sounds

there was no blood in sight, which made andrew tick the first point off of his mental list

he called neils name to let him know he was there, since he gave no sign of noticing, and quickly crouched on the ground in front of him, hands trying to unfold all of neil’s limbs to tick all the other points, no blood, no bruises, no articulation twisted in opposite direction and no sign of pain when his hands grabbed

neil was a little taken aback by the sudden presence of somebody else, but quickly recovered when noticing what andrew was looking for

‘i’m fine’ the murderous glace andrew shot him made him elaborate further on his condition ‘i’m not hurt’

regardless andrew finished his inspection, he lied no trust in this man when talking about his well being

being satisfied with finding nothing he finally raised his eyes to meet neil’s stare, the ‘what’s going on’ was implied

‘I-‘ neil lost his words, he was not used to all this display of emotions, and the irrational reasoning behind it ‘I don’t want it to end’

all andrew could manage was a sigh, all the retorts about his exy hyperfixation dying in his throat. he didn’t need neil to further explain, if the end of university almost affected andrew, he could only imagine how hard it must have been on neil. he was the youngest of the original foxes, and although the new foxes were alright, the bond that the original nine had was incomparable

the foxes were neil’s first, and only, family, he agreed to die, instead of running away just to keep playing with them

andrews thumb gently brushed neil’s cheek to get all the tears streaming down, which apparently just had the least desired effect, because it just made neil cry harder

andrew gently grabbed neil’s neck and pulled his face in the crook of his neck, neil was not late to grip his arms around andrew

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Something I've never seen pointed out in the aftg fandom is a certain aspec of the scene where Neil and Andrew are sleeping together in the cabin and Renee knocks on the door. We talk about how great it is that Neil reaches for a gun and hits Andrew's arm instead - something that will still protect him.

But can we appreciate that Andrew was asleep? Andrew who we see sleeping through a lot of different things from team meetings to bus rides, but will wake up violently when he's touched. When Renee knocks, its described as a tap of her nails. I don't see that actually waking Andrew, but Neil touching his arm in a desperate search for a gun? That would wake him up, but Andrew doesn't lash out at Neil. He just looks at him before getting out of bed.

Now, Andrew could have already been awake and Neil didn't know it or maybe a tap of nails did wake him, but I think Andrew was asleep. I think even then Andrew trusted Neil more than anyone knew. I think he kept reminding himself about Neil's presence before falling asleep (to the point he put his arm under Neil's pillow) so he wouldn't react violently when Neil inevitably shifted and touched him in his sleep. I think he used Neil's head on his arm as a grounding technique because he didn't want to risk hurting Neil when he was already so injured and he just likes being close to him. And I think this moment speaks volumes to Andrew's healing and just how much he loves his feral boyfriend.

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This is how it went down

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"why does Roland think you're tying me down"

idk neil take a wild fucking guess

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actually supervillains with kid hero nemeses are hysterical bc if i was a billionaire and i found out the kid who was also my nemesis was a preteen orphan i would simply adopt them. oh you’re going to stop my nefarious schemes? how when you’re grounded. go to your room

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Nora spends 80 pages building Kevin up as this amazing star and motivated asshole, and you think “man this guy is a prick”, only to find out he’s scared for his fucking life and riko considered Kevin as his pet and that Kevin would go back in a heartbeat because he’s so scared, and WOW the whiplash and sorrow

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Each time I remember andrew likes neck kisses, I think about the reason he reacts the way he does. And I think how it may not be that he just likes the feel of it, but because no one ever did something to make HIM feel good, because the things done to him were done for other people's enjoyment. And then there's neil, wanting to make andrew feel good, and andrew can't help his reaction to someone caring for how he feels. And all of it fucking breaks my heart.