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Hi sorry I haven’t posted in awhile I got food poisoning and then got really super sick (from mold and a person) so helllooooooo

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Guys, Jinx tattooed her whole breast…

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I don’t understand the mindset many people with BPD have where they DONT want to get better. Like wdym you want to feel like this forever 💀

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Continuing to meme like its s1

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Sex so CRAZY good they had to be put on time out by the writers.

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explosive mistletoe 🧨🎄

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I am in need of werewolf Vi x vampire Caitlyn or so help me I will go feral (and have to write my own fanfic about it).

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How I interpret jaymelvik (+ elora)

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I love arcane, it introduced me to league of legends. But I do wish the league of legends hashtag was LESS arcane fanart and role play, and more actual league content.

Where are the gameplay vids, the ‘jungle diff’s, the talk about how tahm kench is meta.. cmon now I hate Reddit

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Lucifer had his first 7 hour road trip today

He is the most beautiful boy

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Why Jinx has BPD

Going thru the DSM to prove this

1) Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment

Coming to save Vander after being told not to, to avoid being abandoned for being useless / a jinx

Screaming for Vi after killing Vander, Mylo, and Claggor

Using the flare to bring Vi to her

Almost killing Vi and Caitlyn after using the flare; “sister, thought I missed her, bet you wouldn’t miss her” (talking to her gun, Pow-Pow)

2) A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation

Idealizing Vi while growing up

Devaluing Vi when she walked away and ‘left’ (was kidnapped)

Immediately idealized Silco after splitting on Vi

Devaluing Silco when he ‘lied’ aboutVi being dead & stabbing him with his medical tool after she found out

Splitting on Vi after she and the Enforcers came for her

Attempting to commit suicide in front of Ekko, and the next day them going to war together after an implied night together preparing (paint all over them, the hair cut, his jacket)

3) Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self

Her identity split between Powder and Jinx, being egged on Silco

Forcing Vi to choose between Powder and Jinx during the dinner scene, ultimately placing herself upon the mantle of Jinx

Hallucinations and psychotic breaks about her unstable identity

4) Impulsivity in at least two potentially self-damaging areas (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating)

Recklessly following Vi, Mylo, and Claggor to save Vander

Using 3 hexcore’s without rational thinking of how big the explosion would be

Recklessly jumping into fights she could easily die in

Being forcefully pumped full of Shimmer but seemingly continues to use it

No sense of rational thinking when it comes to explosions

5) Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures or threats, or self-mutilating behavior

Throwing herself into fights as a form of self-mutilating behavior

Stapling her injury shut, the pain clearing her head enough to remember Caitlyns name

Trying to blow herself up after her fight with Ekko

Allowing Vi to kill her after their fight

Skin picking after Isha died

Implying to Vi, who she trapped in the cell, that she was going to commit suicide

Attempted suicide with Ekko multiple times

Allowing herself to ‘die’ with Vander (obviously she didn’t die)

6) Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and rarely more than a few days)

Sees Caitlyn as Vi leaving her, and triggering intense episodic dysphoria

Deep paranoid episodes about Vi and Caitlyn conspiring against her

Paranoia about Silco lying to her

Irritability seen throughout the show, nearly in every episode

All of these are triggered by something (which is necessary)

7) Chronic feelings of emptiness

Seemingly ‘empty’ in the first episodes she’s revealed as Jinx - killing and murdering with no impact on her psyche

Emptiness after Isha died, self harming to feel something

Her emptiness seems to only end when Silco dies and she can be herself without his influence

8) Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)

This is like her main personality trait

Intense anger when Vi broke Fishbones, her giant gun

Intense anger whenever she sees Vi with Caitlyn

Recurrent physical fights that end with severe consequences (death, losing her middle finger)

This doesn’t deter her from fighting

9) Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

Paranoid ideation throughout the series with loved ones abandoning her, creating plots against her

Psychotic episodes and hallucinations of those she’s killed and lost

Dissociation whenever she’s about to lose someone or does

Psychosis and dissociation when Isha is kidnapped

Dissociative episode in her jail cell

I will definitely go more in depth on this once I can get ahold of my DSM-5 (6 hours away)

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This includes trans women terfs 💚💚💚

if you think misogyny against women you don't like is acceptable, you are a misogynist.

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Guys Bruiser was really good if you haven’t read it you should.

Thank you Neal Shusterman we all say in unison.

3.8/5 just because I didn’t love the ending (although I understand what it represents)

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Can someone tell my why my prescribed DBT therapist I was referred to post BPD diagnosis claimed that they didn’t thjnk I had BPD and it was only ADHD

Spoiler alert, ADHD doesn’t come with abandonment issues, idealization and devaluation, and CRIPPLING want to die syndrome 💀

Thank you to my psychiatrist who was like “no… it’s definitely BPD”

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Quiet BPD is truly something else to live with. How you gonna be clinically attention seeking and yet instead of asking for attention you inwardly implode 💀💀💀 (this is a self call-out)

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This is how I interpret timebomb & lightcannon as a multi shipper

Why choose when they can be polyamorous?

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I need ambessa in such awful terrible ways. It’s getting bad (yes I main her in league even though she’s A tier)