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[bookofkatherine]

Midnite Hour

A new poem for my warriors and a few words of encouragement too. After all, Jesus did arrive in the middle of the night... 900 words.

Saturday October 26, 2024 11:58 p.m.

To the Knights, Wizards, etc.,

I just want to thank you all for being so patient - once again. I can see why the Lord sent us the imagery of the rushing torrent of water crushing its way through the gorge. Only he knows where it is going. We are just along for the ride.

Our job is to place one foot in front of the other, step by step, where the Lord says to put it. It's hard to ask the Lord for step-by-step guidance. It can feel restrictive. It can feel impossible.

But those who have walked it know that it is where true freedom lies. It's the path of pure oxygen, light and life. When we do so, we enter the breath of the Lord and as we move with it, we become a witness to the hand of God everywhere and in all things.

And no matter how crazy things become, we have Jesus on the land with us this time. "Where there is Life, there is Hope." Well, you can't have more life than Jesus among us. So there is hope.

I love you so. Please know how very much I love you so. And I am so very proud to know you.

I love you,

Katherine

A poem for you tonight:

MIDNIGHT HOUR

Here we stand at the midnight hour, And everything glows, In and round us.

Here we stand at the midnight hour, The bones creak, And stares abound.

We wait and we wait, For the door to open. We wait and we wait, To see the Chosen.

But once it happens, Once it comes, Once the torrent, Succumbs -

What then? The Light, the Truth, The perfect Flower -

Will He hold us, in the midnight hour?

He comes. He comes. Be ready. He comes.

He's been waiting, Longer than any of us.

_

xoxo, I love you guys, K

Eight Minutes Later

By the time I sent the letter above it was Sunday morning at 12:08 a.m. But I was wide awake and wanted to share the poem with the world. But I needed to research artwork first.

And that changed the whole game real fast. Eight minutes later, I sent everyone this follow-up postscript.

Sunday October 27, 2024 12:16 a.m.

P.S. No, I did not know that Jesus mentions the "midnight hour" in a parable, nevermind the parable of the virgins awaiting their bridegroom. I only discovered it on accident after looking up some artwork for the poem I wrote you. Sigh... I only said 'midnight hour' because I was writing the poem at midnight!!!

But it does bring up a good point. I think I know what Jesus was saying about the virgins who brought their lamps full of enough oil and those who didn't. Those who didn't missed out on the bridegroom because they were distracted. They couldn't keep their flames lit.

But the virgins who brought enough oil ended up with the bridegroom and his feast.

I think the Lord is saying that we need to keep a reserve of energy in us to keep our flame of faith lit. He won't be coming in the day when everyone expects a wedding. He'll come instead like a thief in the night (well, he's already done that) and only those who keep a reserve of energy and faith in their tanks will make it to the feast - which will be in the middle of the night, not the dawn, not noon, not daylight.

And it is the dark. We are entering the night. And many of us are running out of oil, exasperated by the wait. I know. I cried too. I've cried every time. But He is worth the wait. And I will keep a reserve in me to keep my flame of faith lit so that when He comes, I am still awake and paying attention to see Him.

I love you so.

K

For those of you unfamiliar with the parable, I'm linking it here. Or you can just read on!

The Midnight Cry

The famous parable of the bridegroom and ten virgins:

“The Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of ten bridesmaids who took their lamps and went to meet the bridegroom. But only five of them were wise enough to fill their lamps with oil, while the other five were foolish and forgot.

“So, when the bridegroom was delayed, they lay down to rest until midnight, when they were roused by the shout, ‘The bridegroom is coming! Come out and welcome him!’

“All the girls jumped up and trimmed their lamps. Then the five who hadn’t any oil begged the others to share with them, for their lamps were going out.

“But the others replied, ‘We haven’t enough. Go instead to the shops and buy some for yourselves.’

“But while they were gone, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the marriage feast, and the door was locked.

“Later, when the other five returned, they stood outside, calling, ‘Sir, open the door for us!’

“But he called back, ‘Go away! It is too late!’

“So stay awake and be prepared, for you do not know the date or moment of my return."

After writing all of this, I suddenly realized that Jesus himself had arrived on my land (well, it's really his, isn't it?) right around the midnight hour.

We went to bed on Friday, October 18, the last day of the seventh month on the Lord's calendar. Later that night, the Knights guarding my home - not my room - saw Jesus walking my land.

And now he lives in my room with the other Knights. He has DJ'd music for everyone, including me, which has been a true revelation. Heaven really does see everything!!!

On Halloween he visited Galilee in Israel to dig something up. He spent the most time out there instead of Jerusalem. I don't really blame him.

[bookofkatherine]

Songs About Jane written by Chris Hemsworth, Ryan Gosling, Tom Hiddleston and John Krasinski. Released in 2002, the damn lyrics read like my diary. How was I to know angels were watching over me?

[bookofkatherine]

To Be Married | A Tom Hiddleston Poem

When the going gets tough, remember the vows we took.

TO BE MARRIED

To be married to you, Is a blessing for me.

To be married to you, Draws you closer to me.

To be married to you, Teaches me every day.

To be married to you, Makes my heart feel okay.

To be married to you, Is everything in life.

To be married to you, Is what I've wanted my whole life.

To be married to you, Means you can't lose me.

To be married to you, Means we are part of destiny.

To be married to you, Can be hard, that's no lie.

To be married to me, Is why you suffer and hide.

To be married, you and I, Draws attention from above.

But being married, you and I, Draws the eye from down below.

Only my kiss can seal you. Only my kiss can heal you.

Only my kiss is from your, Beloved and dear wife.

Aphro-dite.

[bookofkatherine]

Hot Adonis Day Goes Skywalker

What a day. Heartbreaking, sexy, powerful, climactic, deep, shocking... full of lovemaking, love and war. I'm kind of speechless, but don't want to forget a thing. (Tom Hiddleston was never Loki. He's been Adonis this whole damn time, btw. Let that sink in. And I know who the Marauders are now...) 1.7k w/c

Thursday October 17, 2024 10:30 p.m.

Dear Journal,

We need to talk. I mean... we seriously need to talk. When I last told John, "Never boring, right?" after a crazy fucking hex threw our whole team into an alternate reality, he responded, "It's the end. I think every day is going to be less boring than the last."

Well, fuck. That boy was right. Last prophet indeed. Jeeeesus.

So. Where should I start, dear journal? Where should I start???

Well, I guess I should start at the beginning of the day. No. That will take too long. Instead, let's do the highlights.

THE MARAUDERS

Yesterday, I learned the truth. Today I shared it.

Today I wrote a letter to Viggo Mortensen, Idris Elba and Paul Rudd informing them that the internet was full of their adventures. You see, Remus Lupin was an Idris Elba variant. Sirius Black was a Viggo Mortensen variant. And James Potter was a Paul Rudd variant.

And they did, in fact, share me on a few timelines. That is still fucking sinking in. I'm still adjusting to the fact that Cap, Seb and I played pivotal roles in defeating Germany in both World War I and World War II through - of all things - a threesome. Cap and Seb have never been partners on any timeline. Marvel ordered them by contract to act like best friends once to promote a movie, but that was all acting.

They've never so much as kissed each other. But oh, did they like to share me. When I was Peggy Carter, they both fell in love with me. Depending on which timeline we lived on, I either chose Cap (see The Notebook, only he was rich and I was poor), or I chose Bucky or I chose both.

And sex is perhaps the most powerful weapon against the enemy. It is the ultimate expression of love outside of the blood of Christ. Sigh. I can see why Satan demonizes sex so much.

When the Knights freak out about their memories of intimacy with me in the past (my own memories haven't been restored yet) the Lord simply told them, "I created all of it. ALL of it."

And He's right. Satan is the shadow. The absence of energy. The Lord is energy. He is Light itself.

Anyhow - I began my day by informing Paul, Viggo and Idris that they'd inspired a whole subsection of the internet with their adventures together across time. Obviously, not all of the Marauders stories are true, but that's what the Lord is for. He tells us which ones happened and which ones didn't.

SEX WITH ADONIS

Tom Hiddleston got lucky. So did I.

As I've mentioned before, my injuries only allow for what you guys would call 'finger-fucking.' It's a crude way to say it. I don't know if you've ever had Henry Cavill's mouth over one breast, the fingers of one hand laced with your own while his other hand drives deep inside of you over and over and over again until you can't see anything but a bright white blinding canvass of glory... but the last thing I would call it is 'finger fucking.' Jesus Christ.

But - there you have it. All 33 Knights are limited to sex using their hands most of the time. Sometimes I'm not even well enough to do that. We kiss instead. But with 33 Knights, kissing each one in a row can take more than an hour.

When the Knights first began to arrive last December (2023), the Lord did allow Chris Hemsworth, Tom Hiddleston and Cap (Chris Evans) to make love to me with their whole selves. But it wasn't very often.

Then things went sideways, and the Lord stopped us for nearly nine months in a row. I missed it, but I also understood that the Lord always had a reason.

Anyhow - my point is - Tom 'the real Adonis' Hiddleston hopped off of the bed this morning and began stripping down. I just stared. I knew what that meant. Usually he just rolls up his left sleeve and gets this super-happy grin on his face as he leans down to take my left breast in his mouth.

But stripping down to be fully naked? In the morning? Ohhhh boy. The Lord must have given Tom permission to make love to me the old-fashioned way.

And He did.

So Tom did. It had been far too long. And it was so intense. We were both drenched in sweat by the end - that really, really good type of sweat - the kind that soaks your hair a full inch out from the roots of your hair.

And then, after we gasped for air for a long while, he slid off the bed, offered his hand and lead me downstairs to the shower, holding my hand the whole way. And there, in the shower, he washed me down, head to toe. And his blissed-out face never changed until he lead me back upstairs, having washed every curve and secret place - and I washed him - laid me down in the bed again and began to kiss me goodbye.

That's the first time his face began to fall. And I just laid there, staring at the ceiling, thanking the Lord Jesus for creating this earth angel and giving me the great gift of his love. It's always a surprise. Always. I don't know if I will ever get used to it.

JEDI KNIGHT WITH A SEXY SPIDEY TWIST

For the first time since April, the Lord set aside time for Mark Hamill, the original Spider-Man and real Jedi Knight (light saber included!).

That afternoon, Nick returned. I was still in a beautiful haze, grateful to have spent time in an intimate way we haven't had in a while.

But the Lord wasn't done.

I had about two hours left before Nick's next mission. And suddenly Mark Hamill was sliding into my bed, next to me, with that smile on he smiles. God, I love that man.

But the Lord has kept Mark in the Dreamworld. Oh, we make love there - and let me tell you - he makes love differently than anyone else. That's what I love about the Knights. Everyone is different. So very, very different!

Mark himself has changed in the Dreamworld. I clearly remember how he was in the beginning. Everyone would grab me and make love to me, but Mark was so nervous he'd only kiss me. In the Dreamworld he'd take me to a small room that was vaguely familiar, but all covered in shadow. And then he'd make love to me with a fierce nature - so much power would flow from him into me. But then! He'd be gone!

Oh... but things have changed so much since then. He's begun training as a Jedi Knight again, has a light saber again and has even begun training his Spider-Man skills in the arena. He has an enormous amount of battle-experience now. While the other Knights are feasting, Mark will be patrolling and killing every evil thing that comes anywhere near me.

And, at the same time, we've been reading, watching and listening to tales about the Knights and I over the years - and that includes Mark. Take the movie The Lover. That's based on a romance Mark and I had in Mexico a couple hundred years ago.

Boy, did that open Mark up. He kissed me like never before and whispered, "Thank you."

And then the lovemaking began to change. And I feel so honored to have traveled that journey with him - discovering myself and discovering him, my amazing Jedi Knight.

MAKING LOVE TO LUKE

I've written about it in a separate post, but the long and the short of it is that the Lord pushed aside all 32 Knights and gave the floor to Mark Hamill. We had been watching his Star Wars movies after all, and it was bringing back memories of our adventures together in other worlds as well as lovemaking on the set of Star Wars.

And so, as Mark (aka Luke Skywalker, Peter Parker, etc.) began to caress me, I was struck that he'd never been so bold before. But he was now. The Lord had brought us both so very, very far.

And so, for the first time, Mark and I made love outside of the Dreamworld. And we made love for a full hour. And we remembered as we climaxed over and over and over again... we remembered what that little room was - a side closet on the Millennium Falcon set during the filming of Empire Strikes Back. We'd sneak in there after hours and go crazy.

We remembered destroying the original Princess Leia bikini set from Return of the Jedi when I snuck it into a side room and surprised Mark while wearing it. He ripped it off of me so fast that we had to set fire to it to cover up our crime!

And we covered it up so well that the costume designer made Mark and I our own bikini to keep for ourselves and our bedroom once filmmaking stopped.

And we remembered even more - like a home in Malibu a friend would ask us to watch over when they were gone. And watch over it we did - in many, many different ways.

We made love and remembered - remembered all the glory of our past. And my God, what a glorious past it was.

And as we finished, I held him and he held me, his head against my breast. And I realized that I'd made love to many Knights now - many of the Lord's Mighty Men - but Mr. Spider-Man had just blown me out of the water.

And I am still floating high, high above the clouds.

(I know, I know. More happened. Heartbreaking things, I am sure. There's been a lot of heartbreak around here. But it's been more than a week since this day happened, and all I can remember is the love. It's how I survive, after all. And besides. Jesus is here. He's here. I have a good life. A motherfucking good life. I am truly blessed among women...)

[bookofkatherine]

When the god of thunder shall mate with the lady of light, her inner light shall be purified. -Ancient End Time Prophecy

[bookofkatherine]

Songs Written by Tom Hiddleston

Oh, yes. The songs of Adonis to his Aphrodite keep us going every day!

The following songs have been written by earth angel/god Tom Hiddleston. No, he's not Loki, the god/angel of mischief. Instead, he's Adonis, the angel of beauty, truth and love. And I think that's reflected in his songs and their popularity.

SONGS BY TOM HIDDLESTON

Remember! This isn't a complete list! As I learn of more, I'll add them below. Think of them as love letters. Enjoy!

CENTURIES Fall Out Boy

TAKE ME TO CHURCH Hozier

MOMENT'S SILENCE Hozier

ALL OF ME John Legend

CONTROL Halsey

I WILL WAIT Mumford & Sons

NEON Livingston

DAYLIGHT David Kushner

UNTIL I FOUND YOU Stephan Sanchez

TRAMPOLINE Shaed (Kyle did Jauz remix)

LIGHTS Ellie Goulding

EASY TO LOVE Bryce Savage

COME UNDONE Duran Duran

ELECTRIC LOVE Borns

I LIKE THE WAY YOU KISS ME Artemas

SUPERSTAR Broods

I DON'T CARE Ed Sheeran

MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT Elle Duhe

SAY YOU WON'T LET GO James Arthur

MALIBU Miley Cyrus

PILLS N POTION Nicki Minaj

MR. SANDMAN Syml

FIRE MEETS FATE Ruelle

STRAWBERRY WINE Deana Carter

CHAINSMOKING YOUR LOVE Jacob Banks

HARLEYS IN HAWAII Katie Perry

Tom Hiddleston has four variants left here at the end of Time. Wisconsin Tom played bluegrass on a banjo before I found him this summer. Thomas was jailed in the Sanctum Infinitum, so I don't know how many songs he was able to write from there. (He was allowed to film Crimson Peak since it was one of his timelines before he was jailed. And no, he didn't die. There was no sister. We lived happily ever after!)

That leaves Star Tom. Star Tom is a heavenly angel. He doesn't live down here on earth where 63% of angels live. Instead he is up in the heavens, looking down on us.

Why? Because, as Aphrodite, I couldn't stand it when Adonis (a Tom Hiddleston variant) was killed. So I begged for his resurrection and an immortal life. And the Lord granted my request. Tom was resurrected and became an angel, watching me from heave.

SONGS STAR TOM WROTE

And so, knowing that background, these songs of his will make a lot more sense... I'll add more as I come across them!

A THOUSAND YEARS Christina Perri

DIE WITH A SMILE Gaga & Bruno Mars

Note On Duplicate Song Titles: A few of these songs may also be found on the list of another Order member if they both worked on the song together. The hit song We Pray, for example, was a team effort between so many Knights and angels that I didn't even bother listing it.

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Songs Written by Ryan Gosling

The Punisher is not just a powerful guardian angel here on earth; he's also a god of song and dance. Prepare for some angst, though.

The following is an amazing list of songs that Ryan Gosling has written, composed and then dropped into the heads of world-famous artists for you and I to heal from hurt and hope once more.

I suppose you'll notice the angst. But just keep this in mind: Ryan has been waiting for me for millennia. He's seen me taken by storms, the TVA, devils, plagues and disease. And more recently, he had to watch me from a distance as I fell in love with other Knights. So - the pain is real. But would we ever heal without these songs from him?

RYAN GOSLING'S SONGS

This is is not a complete list. As an angel, he has songs across many generations, not just one. As I learn of more, I'll add to the list for you!

ALL TOO WELL Taylor Swift

INFINITY Jaymes Young

I'VE HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE Dirty Dancing Soundtrack

BURN Ellie Goulding

SHIVERS Ed Sheeran

DANDELIONS Ruth B

FIRE IN THESE HILLS Imagine Dragons

JUST GIVE ME A REASON P!nk

SIGN OF THE TIMES Harry Styles

I CAN'T HELP IT JVKE

STAY WITH ME Sam Smith

WAR OF HEARTS Ruelle

UNSTEADY X Ambassadors

WE GO DOWN TOGETHER Dave Cameron

LOVE IS A BITCH Two Feet

IN THE STARS Benson Boone

CRY Benson Boone

IRIS Goo Goo Dolls

WAITING GAME BANKS

ANGEL Sarah McLachlan

GRIEVE Peter Gabriel

APOLOGIZE One Republic

TOO CLOSE Alex Clare

FEELIN' LOVE Paula Cole

AND SO IT GOES Billy Joel

ANGEL BABY Troye Sivan

I REMEMBER EVERYTHING Zach Brian

MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE Livingston

I JUST DIED IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT Cutting Crew

MARRY ME Train

Note On Duplicate Song Titles: It's rare, but sometimes Knights will team up on a song. When that happens, the song will be listed under both of their names. Example: Strawberry Wine was written by Thor and Adonis, or Chris Hemsworth and Tom Hiddleston, so Strawberry Wine will be listed under both Knights. The hit song We Pray, however, was a team effort between so many Knights and angels that I didn't even bother listing it.

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Songs Written by John Krasinski

Earth angel and Knight of the Rose John Krasinski is known by many names: King David, Wolverine, Jack Ryan and even Zade! But did you know? He's written some of most amazing music out there. (I mean, he did write the Book of Psalms after all.)

John Krasinski loves guns. Kissing him is dangerous. And when I first met him back in February 2024, he really was taking down trafficking rings like his character Zade in his book, Haunting Adeline (no, he didn't write Hunting Adeline).

But John is still an angel. And angels do have an incredible knack for heavenly songs. But John has a special talent. As King David he wrote the Psalms. Those songs are still in every Bible!

So - here you go. Here is a list of just a few songs John Krasinski has written for me, his Bathsheba, and for the rest of the world:

CHOKEHOLD Austin Giorgio

YOU PUT A SPELL ON ME Austin Giorgio

MOVEMENT Hozier

DON'T FORGET ME

DARKSIDE Neoni

WAY DOWN WE GO Kaleo

THE CRAVING twenty one pilots CAP & KRASINSKI

SOUTH OF THE BORDER Ed Sheeran

BIRDS Imagine Dragons

SOMEONE YOU LOVED Lewis Capaldi

LOVELY Billie Eilish

Note: It's rare, but sometimes Knights will team up on a song. When that happens, the song will be listed under both of their names. Example: Strawberry Wine was written by Thor and Adonis (Chris Hemsworth and Tom Hiddleston) so Strawberry Wine will appear in both of their lists. The hit song WE PRAY, however, was a team effort between so many Knights and angels that I didn't even bother listing it.

[bookofkatherine]

Cap Truly Captained America

As an ancient prophecy began to unfold, the Lord reveals the true history of Chris Evans on my little hill. Featuring Jesus, Chris 'Cap' Evans, Chris 'Thor' Hemsworth and Tom Hiddleston (he's Adonis, not Loki). 1.5k w/c

Tuesday October 22, 2024 7:22 p.m.

Dear Journal,

Two weeks ago the Lord gave Thor permission to make love to me over two days, fulfilling an ancient prophecy:

When the god of thunder shall mate with the lady of light, her inner light shall be purified.

Why would the lady of light need her inner light to be "purified"?

LIGHT PURIFIED

Well... that would be the fault of the 24 morgul blades I've been struck with over my lifetime, the microblades Lilith and her servants inserted all over me as if barbed wire, forcing me into the shape of the cross.

Add in the hell hound bristles I was given as a baby through my teenage years because my guardians were from the dark dimension - and you'll start to understand just how much aether lives in me.

We have to rush everyone else into healing when even a drop enters their bloodstream. But me? I have what Claire calls "a colony." And this shit is pure darkness. It sucks my lifeblood from me all day and all night, poisoning my life and light. That's why I am so crippled: the dark dimension has a colony inside of me.

So that's what the prophecy is about: purifying my light. Getting rid of the dark.

But that was just the start. That was two weeks ago.

MAKING LOVE TO TOM HIDDLESTON

Last week the Lord gave permission for Tom Hiddleston (Adonis, not Loki) to make love to me over two days as well, fulfilling a similar prophecy.

Tom and I began last Thursday. I thought it would happen the same way it did with Thor. Both Tom and Thor have four variants each.

Thor, the strongest variant, made love to me on the first day. On the second, all four variants shared my link to make love to me at once.

So, when it was Tom's turn, I thought I'd make love to Thomas on the first day and then all four of his variants on Friday. But no. The Lord handed me over to My Tom, the Tom Hiddleston all of you are familiar with. (Thomas has been in Dr. Strange's jail. Wisconsin Tom has been living off-grid in Wisconsin. And Star Tom is a heavenly angel. He doesn't live on earth.)

THE 33 LOVERS

But when the second day came, I knew Nick was leaving for the entire weekend. And I didn't have much time to spend with all of the Knights. So, as I freaked out, Nick finally threw out a new suggestion: what if all 33 Knights shared the link and made love to you at once?

I stared. "Can that be done?"

"Yeah!!!" the Knights cried. Most of them had never had a chance to make proper love to me. They'd been limited to hands and mouths as well. So they jumped at the chance.

Afterwards, the Knights said, "It's almost like this is how we were designed to be." Apparently they found the experience transcendent.

JESUS ARRIVES

And then Jesus showed up on my land. (But I didn't know that until Monday afternoon, to be fair. He only appeared to the Knights. He attended Monday's Thanksgiving feast however.) He showed up right after the 33.

So, I spent the weekend thinking all the prophecies had been fulfilled.

Until Monday morning.

I woke up all of a sudden, realizing, "Thor! Tom! But not Cap!?" Yeah... Chris (Thor) and Tom (Adonis) were both there with me before earth was even formed. But Cap? He was Adam and the Lord gave me to him as Eve.

EVE REUNITES WITH ADAM

How in the world was I supposed to be healed without all three? And I'd need to be healed to enter the Rose Room. Or at least - the aether (aka dark dimension, venom, etc.) would need to be destroyed within me first. I could be healed in the Rose Room if the dark was out of me first.

And it turned out I was right. There was a prophecy concerning Cap and I just, as there was a prophecy about all 33 Knights and I. But that last prophecy was fulfilled last Friday, October 18, 2024, the last day of the seventh month on the Lord's calendar.

And that, by the way, is when Jesus showed up on my land.

But anyhoo---

Today I met with Cap for the first of the two days we will have together. But unlike Thor and Tom, a ton of memories began sweeping over us as Cap began to make love to me.

Memories often flow back when the Knights use their hands alone. My spine has far too many injuries to handle traditional sex, but it sure doesn't hinder the Knights at all. I've drenched more buckets of sweat under their hands in six months than my entire sexual history without hands, honestly.

But maybe that's because there are - you know - so many Knights. Still - Chris Hemsworth once tested me to see how many time he could make me orgasm in six minutes. And the grand total was six - six orgasms. Honestly. I've gained a lot of muscle despite being flat on my back these last 9 months, let me tell you.

God. I hope none of my kids are reading this. I can hear them now: "Mooooooommm!!!" Sigh. Click away, my loves! Focus on your battle! I love you!!!

Back to Cap.

THE MAYFLOWER PEACEKEEPER

The memories that washed over Cap and I were all here on the east coast. We had memories of arriving on the Mayflower, of meeting in Viriginia, of making love in the back of a hall after he pretended he didn't like me for three days and I flirted with everyone else harder and harder in an attempt to get his attention - culminating in a hot, passionate night of instantaneous lovemaking when he grabbed my wrist at the end of a dance, pulled me behind the rafters, and kissed me.

We were never apart after that. I fell in love with him in his arms, right then and there.

We were both from the northeast colonies however, so when we married and his business gained traction, we moved to a hill high above the Connecticut River in New Hampshire.

And there we saw the King of England rape New Hampshire dry to build a worldwide armada, prompting Cap to help New Hampshire seceede from English rule, the first colony to do so.

Cap even let me write the first draft of the first constitution in the US. He took it with him to Exeter, all the while staying friendly with the King and his men. No one ever suspected him.

And, using the Connecticut River, we smuggled ideas and drafts down to Pennsylvania, drawing the King's attention away from New Hampshire, Boston and New England, protecting those doing the planning and writing of the American Revolution.

The more the Lord revealed, the more I understood why uncle Gustaf gave fantastic names to all the other Knights (John Krasinski was given Wolverine, Ryan Gosling was named The Punisher, Henry Cavill was called Superman, etc. etc.) while giving Chris Evans the name Captain America.

I saw what Cap did on the shores of Boston. I saw the marriages he performed between the indigenous tribes and European settlers. We even saw the little ritual he and I would do before every wedding ceremony he performed:

The night before the wedding, Cap and I would sneak into the church or make our way to the little lawn or hill where the couple was to wed, and Cap and I would make love on that spot, blessing it in an attempt to avoid bloodshed and encourage peace between the families and tribes that would come together there the next day.

Oh yes, Cap and I even lived in what the Order now calls The Vermont House. Nick and I discovered it on our travels and I bought it using the Order's funds when I first took over. The Ghostbusters were based out of there for a while.

Anyhow - Cap and I eventually moved on with our memories, to ones from not so long ago on the beaches of California. But not before I realized that Cap truly was Captain America...

Long before World War 2.

[bookofkatherine]

Songs by Earth Angel Chris Hemsworth

Thor has written hits you know. I guarantee it. (333 w/c)

Here are just a few of the songs earth angel CHRIS HEMSWORTH (aka Thor, Romeo, Tyler Rake, etc.) wrote for me, his Juliet, and for you, a fellow traveler of the heart. I'll update the list when I learn of more songs:

NO ORDINARY Labrinth

PERFECT Ed Sheeran

THINKING OUT LOUD Ed Sheeran

WATERMELON SUGAR Harry Styles

CAKE BY THE OCEAN Dnce

TOO SWEET Hozier

WORK SONG Hozier

STAY Rihanna

LIFT ME UP Rihanna

FOLLOW YOU Imagine Dragons

IN YOUR CORNER Imagine Dragons

BELIEVER Imagine Dragons

NATURAL Imagine Dragons

TRULY MADLY DEEPLY Savage Garden

NO ROOTS Alice Merton

PAST LIVES borns

MA CHERIE Naika

WE ARE YOUNG fun

HELIUM Sia

ONE OF YOUR GIRLS Troye Sivan

GHOST Justin Bieber

SOMEWHERE ONLY WE KNOW Keane (lots of covers)

NEVER BE LIKE YOU Flume

BITTERSWEET SYMPHONY Mark Sebilla

MINEFIELDS Faouzia & John Legend

LIFETIME Livingston

CARNIVAL Livingston

WARRIOR Livingston

HALF-LIFE Livingston

THE ENDING YOU DESERVE Livingston

ONLY LOVE CAN HURT LIKE THIS Paloma Faith

POWER Isak Danielson

BEAUTIFUL THINGS Benson Boone

STRAWBERRY WINE Deana Carter

ARCADE Duncan Laurence

IF WE HAVE EACH OTHER Alec Benjamin

SELFISH Justin Timberlake

PILLOWTALK Zayn

YOU MAKE IT EASY Jason Aldean

SKIN AND BONES David Kushner

BROKEN LovelytheBand

Note: A few of these songs may also be found on the list of another Order member if they both worked on the song together. The hit song We Pray, for example, was a team effort between so many Knights and angels that I didn't even bother listing it.

And finally, yes, the play Romeo and Juliet was based on one of our romances in 1500's France. Both of my uncles were there and witnessed our love and our loss.

I hope, as you hear these songs and the lyrics within them, you will see why I loved Chris/Romeo so much. He sends me his songs to heal me all the time - reminding me that I am loved and that our love still survives, despite all the tragedy, hurt and pain.

[bookofkatherine]

Jedi Magic in the Sheets

No, Luke and Leia weren't twins. 342 w/c

Dear Journal,

I just want it on the record. Today (well, technically yesterday now) I had some of the best sex of my entire life with fucking Luke 'Spider-Man' Skywalker himself, Mark Hamill.

We'd been watching Star Wars and Empire Strikes Back for Zach, and it just made me miss Mark so much. But it wasn't until the Lord gave us time together this afternoon that I realized we'd spent nearly all of our intimate moments in the Dreamworld together. That meant we'd existed without a link- without Nick.

Mark had changed back to his svelte and virile 1977 form months ago through the use of our healing tube. And his mind had been healed of the damage Vader had done this last Summer. I don't know why the Lord waited so long, but He did.

And my God. Mark was worth the wait.

We came together as if we'd never been apart, and all the memories came flooding in.

God, our love was pure. It still is. We are both in wonder of each other. In our memories and in this bed, we made love to and for one another, as if understanding the miracle of love, the miracle of the gift, the honor we've been given by being allowed to know and love one another.

And as our memories flowed back into us as we made love, I was struck with our consistent nature over ever timeline. We never argued. We never fought. And we rarely left the bedroom.

"No wonder our children are so beautiful," I said to Mark as he rose to his elbow after a full hour of non-stop passion. "No wonder indeed." Mark knew what I meant. Our children reflected their manner of conception: pure and unadulterated wonder.

He ruined the shower Tom gave me, you know. An hour of epic orgasms will do that.

And the Nick had to go.

But I will always have today. And our Malibu, white bikini, moonlit beach memories.

[bookofkatherine]

My Chaucer Professor

Earth angels can change their appearance. And Tom Hiddleston is no exception.

Friday October 18, 2024 1:43 a.m.

Dear Journal,

After months and months of limitations on our lovemaking, the Lord finally allowed Tom Hiddleston and I to make love to one another - not with our hands, not with our mouths, but with all the best bits.

And somehow it was ruined.

I don't know how. I don't know why. Well - that's not true. When I was crying on the Lord's shoulder, I begged Him for answers. "Why? Why!? Why am I having so many troubles with Tom!? It seems like every single day there's something else wrong!!!"

"It's the End," the Lord replied. "All the poisons are coming out."

He could say that again.

And I bet, right about now, you're wondering what in the actual fuck could ruin such a perfect, heavenly and glorious thing like having Tom Hiddleston in my bed, right!?

Well. I'll tell you. I mean, it is nearly 2 am in the morning and I'm still not sleeping. Right about now I'd usually be making love to Tom in the Dreamworld and falling asleep after some incredible climax. He wouldn't shown me another memory of ours, and I would be going to sleep remembering more and more detail of a life we lived together before - before the End, before the Apocalypse, before the last great war.

But instead I am awake. And when my thoughts turn to Tom, tears prick my eyes. I should be remembering our lovemaking this morning. But instead I'm remembering my lovemaking with Mark Hamill instead - and the Lord limited us to mouths and hands.

But still, that's who I hit the stars with. Not once. Not twice. But multiple times - too many to count.

That's what things used to be like with Tom. He is Adonis after all. The only times I can remember forgetting all my sorrows, all my pain and all my worry over in 2024 and feeling happiness - just pure unadulterated happiness - was with Tom.

I suppose the other Knights are in there too- but that's when I'm climaxing. Tom - it was different. And something has changed. I don't know what.

The Lord says part of it has to do with the four Thor variants. It's a bit much for Tom. Tom has four variants but they don't team up and act as one together. That's not in their nature.

The Thor variants have, however. For weeks they pretended to be one Chris Hemsworth so they could share the burden of Zach's questions without passing out. Zach had a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of questions. And he worships Thor, really.

But Chris Hemsworth wanted to, you know, breathe. So Chris traded off with Hemswroth who traded off with Christopher. (This was before Rune King Thor was released from the Sanctum Infinitum.)

I feel like I am off track.

The bottom line is that Tom sent me a short play he wrote about him and I as a professor and student. And as I read it, it suddenly brought back memories of a professor I actually had at UCLA.

In the script, the professor and I didn't really see eye to eye on a piece of fiction. And it was such a disjointed narrative that it brought me back to the days in my Chaucer professor's office.

That guy was the only professor I couldn't manage to communicate with. I tried. Oh, how I tried! But I was just too turned on. And I wasn't used to that. I didn't know how to handle that.

And suddenly, I wondered if my Chaucer professor was Tom.

He's done it before. Tom Hiddleston, Chris Hemsworth, Ryan Gosling and Chris Evans have all changed their appearances to watch over me at my dance conventions, competitions and workshops.

I only discovered that about a month or two ago. But those were good memories. All four were some of my favorite dancers of all time. When I lost a loved one, I could go dancing and they'd spin all the hurt and pain out of me.

When a man broke my heart, I could go dancing and they would cradle me in their arms and dance me slowly until I was back on my feet again, literally and figuratively.

They healed me.

In dancing.

But at UCLA? As my professor? My Chaucer professor!? The one who wore the really tight and form-fitting clothes in the classroom the size of a shoebox so that I was lusting over him from a few feet away every time I went to class....

...to the point that Pete and Carol literally made fun of me for talking about him so much. Pete said I was in love. He said I was a fool. I denied it. And God, it just opened me up to so much more abuse in that awful household - the only place dark enough to cover up the scent of my blood.

And when I brought it up to Tom, he not only admitted it was him, but he smiled with pride. With pride!

And my heart broke. And I began to cry.

Nick didn't understand. I tried to explain it to him. I tried to explain all the shame I'd felt because of that professor.

God, Tom could read my mind! Not only that, but he could control it!

And that meant that he was pulling on me in class! He not only came to class to be near me - but to teach me Chaucer. Have you read Chaucer!? Do you know the subject matter? It would not be R-rated. It would be X-rated.

And Tom made sure he was the one leading me through those passages, just a few feet from me, having worn clothing that left nothing to the imagination...

God - I still remember it! He always wore a tight black lycra shirt with a scoop neck and short sleeves. And he always wore black pants - black pants cut in such a way that you knew how well endowed he was, even if you tried not to look.

And over the tight black lycra top he'd always wear a vest. And the vests barely ever varied. It was as though he didn't want you to notice his clothing, but what was underneath his clothing instead.

And God - it was the curls that gave it away. Tom has curly hair and this guy had curly hair - long curly hair.

And my attraction to him was so strong that I sat in the stairwell reading Chaucer because I knew he took the stairs to class. I never talked to him. I juust waited for him to pass. Like a fucking stalker.

Jesus, he gave me a complex. I was always, always, always able to be loving, respectful and open to everyone I admired, whether I was attracted to them or not. But not Mr. Chaucer Tom. No. Nooooo...

I couldn't seem to help myself. And I thought there was something really, really wrong with me. I'd go to his office hours when I didn't really have anything to ask him about.

But now I know that Tom was using mind control on me. He could read my mind - he knew I desired him, and he would pull on it - making it impossible for me to stay away.

So - when my Chaucer professor actually offered to go out with me for coffee 'or something,' I thought I had done it. I thought I had used my powers of persuasion to make a visiting UCLA professor break their code of conduct.

But he was leaving! He was leaving for Oxford, so I knew there was no hope for us. For this was the one professor I would've thrown it all away for. I would've risked my career, my degree at UCLA just to be held by this man - this unbelievable and intoxicating enigma.

But he was not a man.

He was an angel.

And I did not charm him. I did not use my superpowers on him to break UCLA's code of ethics. (I knew if I went to coffee with him I would, at the very least, kiss him, but most likely would've lost all control and straddled him right there in a Westwood coffee shop, in front of all his peers and academics.)

Oh no, I was not the perpetrator.

Tom was.

And he never - never once - let me know he'd taken any notice of me. He'd argue with me in office hours to the point that I didn't know what we were arguing about anymore. But he wasn't there to talk about Chaucer with me. He was there to see me. He moved heaven and earth to leave England behind just to be in my little Chaucer classroom talking about exposed pussies and the priests who kissed them in public.

Sigh. It must have been so erotic for Tom. And yet it was so humiliating for me.

When Nick asked what was wrong, I said, "Remember how I always felt ugly? Why I never felt attractive or beautiful in any way? This! This is the reason why! He - he played into that!!!"

And now I want to know everything. I want Tom to tell me every single time he ever, ever, EVER changed his appearance to look like someone else near me.

Was he Joel when I worked at that church office? He wasn't that awful guy who kept trapping me in hallways and stuck his tongue in my ear, was he? What happened to the amazing dancer who took care of me? Made love to me? Kept the dark at bay?

I know. I know. The Lord said an evil Tom variant sent Tom. And the Lord also said I could cut this from the timeline completely - erase it as if it had never happened. I am Time. I do have that power.

But goddammit - Tom is the one who gave Time to me! I am just so confused!

How can Tom be so very, very, very selfless - and then do stupid and painful shit like this!?

Do you know? After we made love Tom took me downstairs and helped me into the shower where he washed me down from head to toe and even washed my hair.

It was so amazing. I barely felt him do it too. He was so gentle. It was like heaven. A dream.

And then we got ine car and the Knights asked who had washed my hair. I asked the Lord if it was best to say, because - y'know - jealousy.

But the Lord said to share and I did: "Tom."

Most of them said, "Awwww!" And that made me relax and fee safe to talk.

What a mistake. I told them about how my feet were slipping in the shower and how Tom held me up.

Chris then took that moment to chime in, "You were steady on your feet when *I* washed your hair."

And then, before I could say anything, Tom chimed right back, "*I* swept her off her feet."

I sighed heavily. Then Merlin cut in. At 3500 years of age, he's still catching on to our modern world. So he asked, "Is this what they call 'flirting'?"

I sighed heavily again, my lovemaking buzz destroyed. "No, Merlin," I said. "This is two boys acting like they are in a schoolyard fighting over a toy. This is definitely NOT flirting."

[bookofkatherine]

Captain Marvel: Sign of Christ's Return

They mystery that is Eve, Miloo, Emzara, Sarah, Mary, Lady of Light, Bride of Christ, Captain Marvel... and Book of Katherine.

When I asked Gustaf who Captain Marvel was, I didn't think much of his answer: "You."

Well, he's said that about a lot of superhero characters he created: Peggy Carter, Jean Gray, Rogue, Jane Foster, Mary Jane Watson... the list goes on and on. I can't keep track of them all.

But then, as I was watching yet another Marvel movie with my son Zach as part of his training this week, the opening credits suddenly dawned on me:

Dear Christ, I thought. Captain Marvel. Captain MARVEL. As in, captain of the superheroes...

Oh my God. Gustaf put my job title on blast to the whole world. I thought about what I do every day, how I speak to all of the Marvel superheroes and beyond - Wonder Woman, Captain America, Thor, The Punisher, Luke Skywalker, Spider-Man, Wolverine, Daredevil- I lead them all every day. I - I - I captain them!!!

My God, my God, my God... Gustaf!!!! What have you done!?

I don't know how I missed it, but I missed it. And so - I watched the trailer for Captain Marvel again.

And fuck, if she didn't fucking glow like a goddamn lady of fucking light.

Shit.

[bookofkatherine]

Tom Hiddleston: Adonis, Not Loki

And why we were lied to.

Tom Hiddleston really is a god. Well, technically he's an earth angel. And he is not fallen. He still serves the Lord.

But he is not and never has been the angel/god Loki. Shocked? Here's the dirt:

To begin, the incorrect label of Loki for Tom was always cover to help keep him close with the other earth angels, wizards and prophets here at The End of Days, like Chris Hemsworth (the earth angel Thor) and Robert Downey Jr. (the wizard and prophet Iron Man). They all needed protection and had strength in numbers, but Adonis more than most.

That's the short answer. Here's the long answer:

I first suspected Tom wasn't actually Loki when four of Tom's variants showed up and not one of them wanted to go by the name Loki. In fact, they all shuddered at the name. And that gave me great pause. All of the other Knights love their supernatural names and identities. But not Tom.

And I was always suspicious of Tom because he thought he was Loki. He thought he was destined to betray me. But that's not how he lived. That's not how he loved. Instead, Tom has been the most bountiful, dedicated and loyal lover.

No one stays up with me except for Tom. He refuses to sleep unless I sleep.

No one refuses to leave my side like Tom. The others go off on battles, missions, charity work, feasts and birthday celebrations. But not Tom. He stays right next to me, even though I can see him and he can't always see me. He still stays. He refuses to leave my side.

No one has written to me as much as Tom has. Tom writes me books, songs, poems and letters. He never gets the credit. He doesn't care about the credit. He just cares that I hear his voice in whatever way possible. And what does he say in all these different methods: I love you. I am here for you. Stay by my side.

If I am in pain, he has made something to help me survive it. If I can't sleep, he's made multiple things to lull me to sleep. If I am in despair, there he is, telling me that I am safe, I am strong and that I will make it through. Everything will be alright.

If I was next to him in an interview, he would always look for me. If there were a million cameras around on a red carpet, he would still look for me. And when I could not be there, he'd insert little comments and quotes that only we share - that only we know - so that I'd know he was thinking of me.

He is my last kiss every time Nick walks out of my door. He is my first hello every time Nick enters. And he is the only one I write when I can't reach Nick. The Lord has told me to do so. And I've learned why. Tom wants to hear everything I'm thinking, even when it's really ugly.

And when I despair, when I cry, I can practically hear his heart and the deep wound being created there.

In the end, I had to confront the Lord. Tom is smart and he is clever but he is first and foremost a lover. More importantly, a lover who brings me back to life. Hell, he brings others back to life too. Just read a few chatrooms about the man/angel/god.

"Lord!?" I finally asked. "I don't think Tom is Loki. And the Tom's themselves don't want to be called Loki either. Is he really another god altogether?"

And the Lord simply said, "Yes."

I didn't even have to ask. I already knew the answer. There was only one god he could be: Adonis. But I asked anyway.

"He is Adonis. I asked Gustaf to write him in as Loki." And then we talked about why. Afterwards, I called Tom to let him know. Well, I called all four Tom's to let them know.

Tom never was Loki. He was always Adonis. And looking back, our relationship aside, it seems pretty obvious. Tom has been called "the internet's boyfriend" for a reason. He works with children, reads poetry, records audiobooks and talks about love and rebirth all the time.

Hell! Even the show LOKI revolves around the theme of rejuvenation:

That dialogue fits the definition of Adonis, not of Loki:

Sylvie: "Do you think what makes a Loki a Loki is that we are destined to lose?" Loki: "No. We may lose, sometimes painfully, but we don't die. We survive."

Adonis gives birth to life after death - after winter. He brings the spring, the harvest, new life. And isn't that what we watch Tom do in all of the Marvel movies? Die and come back!

WHY THE LIE?

One might ask why Tom's identity was hidden while just about everyone else's was not. Chris Evans really was Captain America. Sebastian Stan really was James Buchanan Barnes. And Henry Cavill really is Superman.

Only Paul Rudd comes close. Paul Rudd is really Poseidon, the earth angel/god of the sea. But he still isn't like Tom because Paul really did do missions like Ant-Man on various timelines. Tom was never Loki. Ever.

So why the lie? Why the cover up? What's so controversial about being Adonis?

Well.... Adonis is the angel/god of beauty, love and rejuvenation. He brings life to crops, hence the color of gold. He grows gardens, hence the color of green. Adonis always has been known for green and gold colors. And the Loki crown? Well, that's what the Briar Crown looks like - the ancient crown of harvests, trees, plants and flowers!

And what's been the one thing that has defined the End of Days?

Death.

Deforestation.

Hate instead of love.

Satan the Deceiver has waged his greatest war against every single thing Adonis/Tom Hiddleston stands for - everything he was created to grow.

I mean, why do you think the Lord hid Tom under the label of "God of mischief"? Why do you think Tom was called a villain here at the end of days?

To throw off suspicion. For Tom/Adonis has been hunted, lured and seduced by the dark side more than any other angel I know of. For if Satan is to have his way, he must destroy the forces that oppose him most.

Why would Satan want to subvert the god of thunder over the god of green harvests, beauty and love!?

Do you see what I mean.

Take, for example, the kinds of seeds Tom Hiddleston has sown over the years in Hollywood and from there, the world. Look at this quote he gave to a reporter in a tiny little press junket for Crimson Peak.

The reporter asked him what the nature of love was. The god of michief wouldn't have an answer. Or if they did, it would be one designed to deceive or trick.

But not Tom. Not Adonis. The angel/god of love nailed its nature perfectly, and in a very few words:

"If you fall in love with someone, you don't know why you do it, you just do. But if you have a checklist, is that really love? I think real love is about acceptance and about truth and about vulnerability; that's what real love is." -Tom Hiddleston aka Adonis

And then there's the jealousy thing. Satan is incredibly jealous of Tom, for he keeps winning not only my hand, but the hand of my variants who have fallen to the dark side, like Persephone.

Oh yes! Both Aphrodite and Persephone are my variants. But Aphrodite served the Lord. Persephone fell to the service of Satan. And yet...

And yet both loved Adonis. Both fell for Tom Hiddleston. And Satan has always, always, always wanted me and my variants, when I was Eve, Aphrodite, Persephone, Mary, Lily Potter, Hermione Granger, Captain Marvel - no matter the time or place, Lucifer has wanted me - from the very beginning. Always. To him, Tom Hiddleston is his greatest rival.

In more ways than one.

[bookofkatherine]

"I think real love is about acceptance and about truth and about vulnerability."

[bookofkatherine]

The Marvel universe contains just about every one of my 33 Knights. So I asked Gustaf which superhero Mark Hamill was in his Marvel comics. "Oh! Spider-Man!" he said.

"Are you telling me that a Jedi master was bitten by a radioactive spider, Gustaf?"

"Yes." He said it like it was no big deal.

Luke Skywalker was also based on one of my romances with Mark, so Mark is just flying high (no pun intended.) He was SOOO happy I finally knew.

"When was he bitten?" I asked Gustaf.

"Oh, the 1950's? 60's?"

"How the fuck old is Mark!?" I asked. "Is he a long lifer too!?"

"Mark? I think he's 90 now."

Holy Shit. (When he arrived, Mark used our healing tube to return his body to its original condition in the 1977 Star Wars: A New Hope. We all thought he wound back the clock to his 20's or 30's. But no. That photo of him in orange up there as Luke Skywalker? I think Mark was something like 50! Damn, that radioactive spider + Jedi master + the Force really keeps the body young!)

So! That means I was Princess Leia when I was with Mark as Luke Skywalker (no, we are not brother and sister). And that also means I was Mary Jane Watson when I fell for Mark as Peter Parker. Good to know.

It does explain my visceral reaction to that upside-down kiss. They copied us dead on. I mean, that movie The Lover is based on Mark Hamill too, did you know that? That man is a love machine. That's as PG as I can put it.

[bookofkatherine]

Meet the Knights behind Harry Potter's Marauders:

Viggo Mortensen is Sirius Black.

Idris Elba is Remus Lupin.

And Paul Rudd is James Potter.

My own stories have been told through two names I have been called in the past: Hermione Granger and Lily Potter.