boogeychild

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I hate having sexual intrusive thoughts. They make me so uncomfortable, especially when they’re about people I care about in my life. Plus, I’m ace.

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Me: I don’t have any adderrall so it’s hard for me to focus

Mom: What’s Adderall?

Me: It’s an ADHD medica—

Mom: No. absolutely not. You’re not taking medication. You don’t need it. You don’t have ADHD, you have anxiety, that’s different

Me, who has anxiety because of my mom along with ADHD symptoms: …I haven’t even gone to a screening yet

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Hurt myself for the first time in several months and I’m not happy about that :( It wasn’t a cutting thing, I’ve never cut myself. It’s sort of an autism/adhd thing where I feel so tense that I have to hit something and I ended up hitting myself in the head.

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I want to strangle all the people who say having ADHD is cute and quirky. Fuck you. Having it makes me want to fucking die sometimes. The self-harm urges that come with my RSD being triggered is hell. I hate people who romanticize it. I HATE people who romanticize it.

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Something that sucks when you have ADHD is that when you have a straightforward friend, some things they say can feel like a punch in the gut even when they’re not saying anything insulting. Like their tone can just be straightforward and that’s it and suddenly it’s like I’m being stabbed

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I’m starting to feel empty around my family and it kind of scares me. I’m starting to feel indifferent towards them after thinking about all the shit they’ve put me through for years. Now I can’t wait to go to college and do what I want. I’m so excited to go to school too. Away from my mom’s screaming and slapping and roars about how much she wants to kill herself when she’s stressed. Yelling at everybody for never helping her even when she constantly says that she doesn’t want any help and is mentally okay. Acts like her breakdowns never happen

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i regret telling my mom about my feelings lmao

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Mothers will look at their mentally ill children and say it's a normal kid like ma'am u can't see it cause you have all the same problems ✋

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For one time on my life I looked in the mirror and i liked what i see, but then my mother told me all the things that are wrong with my body, but it was nice to feel beautiful, even if it was only a few seconds.

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Dear mom

Stop taking offense to everything. I could literally say “hi” and you’ll act like a attacked you. Not everything is about you. Calm the fuck down

Oh, and telling me that you’re going to stop talking to me until I “talk to you better” is a blessing, so I’m very okay with that.

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Realizing why you get attached to older male figures is bc you’ve had no dad in your life and your mom’s sort of been emotionally abusive and you don’t talk to your older cousin a lot

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My day be so fine, then boom: RSD <:(

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So I have a friend with depression who’s experiencing symptoms of psychosis. They had a major episode just last night where they experienced paranoia of being watched by some malevolent force, as well as the feeling that bugs were crawling all over the walls and on them.

They’re unable to get any proper help for it due to their incredibly abusive and ableist family, so could I ask for advice from those with psychosis on how to deal with hallucinations and paranoia? I know it’s a bit of a vague question, but I don’t trust myself to look up resources on my own when I don’t have psychosis myself.

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I never noticed how much my mental health has improved?

I used to make vagueposts and have vents and breakdowns every single week, sometimes even day. But now I don’t have the urge to do those things anymore.

I still vent and have breakdowns but I haven’t self harmed in months either. I’m proud

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I cant tell if my mom has sensory overloads from seeing disorganization around the house or if she has anxiety attacks because she may have OCPD. Worst part is I can’t convince her to talk to a doctor because she’s pretty ableist and wants to act like she’s normal and perfect, which reminds me a ton of OCPD too ._.

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I hate my fucking mom so much

I tried to tell her about me having symptoms of ADHD and then she blamed it on me being too much on my phone and laptop. I hate her so much. I fucking hate her

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Does anybody get “unrealistic” intrusive thoughts sometimes? Like thoughts that arent centered around real things?

I was just watching a video for school now and I paused to take notes, and then my brain told me “You have to write down these notes as fast as possible because every time you pause the lady in this recorded video stops breathing and if you pause for long enough she’ll start suffocating”

Which makes it. Hard to comfortably write down notes. Like I don’t believe the thought but it’s still in my head and makes me uncomfortable and I wanna shove it out