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God tempts me with roses

while i'm wading through thorns

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when you bring suffering before selflessness

it knights you worthy of love

without ever asking

why we must suffer

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i have lived through the realization

of my worst fears

now that the fear has passed

and though it must be replaced

there is a brief period

where I am afraid of nothing

for what do we have to fear if we have stood through the worst

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i brought my self-identity back from life support

i almost lost it trying to love her

my subtleties nursed me back to health

my hobbies conducted the wellness exams

my friends discharged my stay in the hospital of my spirit.

i am becoming who i need to be

for no one but myself.

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in a hundred days after you

i've learned to stand again.

i found my own voice.

raised my banner to the others around me.

if i can stand again in one hundred days

what will the next hundred bring?

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you burnt the library of our love to ashes.

empty eyes lead thoughtless actions,

sowing nothing but the baggage I'll bring with me.

even if we never could have worked

i'll cherish the memories

of who I thought you were

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i want to know love that is pink and white

not crimson

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i realized today you never finished the book I gave you on love.

that feeling can't be captured on a page or in a lab.

love is not locked in a cage to be studied.

but all the good of it can be.

accountability, honesty, reflection, capability

self-connection, growth, healing, communication

were all a part of the pages you never read.

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no more halos

there is no place for feathers in white

in the world my ashes created.

angel never felt right as a nickname

knowing you knew i loved an illusion

as you pulled me deeper into a violet sea of lies.

broken halos and clipped wings

paint the picture of my walk ahead

years later, you were right

i did love the idea of you.

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in a hundred days after you

i've learned to stand again.

i found my own voice.

raised my banner to the others around me.

if i can stand again in one hundred days

what will the next hundred bring?

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why don't we just chase the sun

i love the feeling of warmth I get standing in it's rays

basking in all his glory

milestone after milestone

the sunlight is our guide

we aren't on our own.

so let's just chase the sun.

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The Arsonist

fires ablaze, life flashes before my eyes.

i know every memory these embers hold, every creak in the stairs turned lurch in the flame.

seeing through to the back of the house, where you stand with the match at your feet.

arsonist, you burned our house down and smiled in the heat.

returning now, after the blaze ran it's course

i feel every memory brush against my feet, as dirt and ash make grime.

i cannot fix the house that burned down by your hands.

arsonist, i stand in the ashes of what was.

i see napalm in your eyes

an unstoppable blaze bent on nothing but destruction

you cannot understand the consequence of your actions

arsonist, your weapon will burn you too.

the fire in my eyes today 

is a reflection of the one you started.

the fire in my eyes tomorrow

will be of my own spark.

arsonist, you cannot light fire to ash.

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the sun always rises.

so should you.

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let's figure out the fantasy in forever, together.